I’m not single…

… I’m just dating myself.

I was having this conversation with my sis-in-law about surviving andΒ  how I would fare if I happened to be childless. I said I think I would still be the same. I can survive on my own since in the beginning I had always been an ambivert (party girl + tsundoku hermitess). As I age, I tend to be more introverted and enjoy my own company. She agreed. I’ve watched concerts on my own, movies at the cinema alone, and always traveled alone. It’s lovely, actually. I can hear the voice inside my head.

Why did we have this conversation? We were talking about a friend of mine (this one in SG who split from her husband while she was taking up her MBA in NTU), who insists she is not looking for romance and she just wants companionship, someone to watch movies with, to pray with, to go coffee dates with but not necessarily all of these would be just one person.

In my head I was like, yeah, you say that but you always fall and then demand from the guy *something*. But I didn’t say it but instead I asked, why don’t you rest first? But she insisted that she’s not pursuing, etc etc.

Anyway, we just don’t see eye to eye. So I just said that, I’m sorry if I can’t comment further because maybe I’m built differently because I would have done things differently. I would have tried to heal first on my own, which is what I’m doing now.

My SIL said that my friend, L, (she knows her too) cannot survive without attention and affirmation of another person, especially of the opposite sex. And she hasn’t really healed, my SIL said.

I can’t say I’m healed. I’m not. I still hurt. I still get lonely. I still get angry. But I’m waaaaaaaaay better than I was 6 months ago. Better than a year ago.

When the world falls apart, sometimes I just wanted a hug and have someone tell me, it’s going to be all right. I allow myself to wallow in that loneliness and curl on the bed in a fetal position because I hurt. However, I pull myself up and I push myself back on the saddle. Whisper to myself, “You have to toughen up.”

And it aired

I was so angry 🀣

I was driving on the way home with our Manila reporter, Kr, when I suddenly had a barrage of friend requests and private messages from strangers over at Facebook.

I thought maybe the ABS-CBN interview aired.

Yep, it aired. And I found that I was so angry and it radiated through the screen 🀣

I was able to put on makeup but my hair was a mess 🀣

In any case, my friend said this will be a series of news reports about this issue because she was able to open Pandora’s box. It was bigger than we initially thought.

Meanwhile, I was able to come back to Manila Peninsula to cover a conference so we can ambush interview some C-level execs.

The Manila Peninsula. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I think we have at least 4 stories from this event alone πŸ‘

Plus we saw friends. Ex-journalists-turned-PR/corpcomm.

Selfie!

All in all, a very productive day with a touch of reunion on the side with many, many, many PR friends.

I just realized that my network is vast. From govt, to private sector, to corpcomm, and academe. From top-down. If I wanted, I can really pull serious strings.

Ah, the exes chose the wrong person to mess with. 😏

Noise on Twitter gives birth to a TV interview

With my reporter friend who interviewed me this morning.

So yesterday was so exhausting. It took me several days before I finished my car registration with the Land Transportation Office, at its headquarters.

I spent x number of hours queuing at LTO Main but a lot of people got stuck there and some had been going back and forth there for days (just like me, albeit at a different LTO satellite branch), which ate up productivity. In some cases these people lost income for the day/s.

Why is it taking so long?

It’s because the IT system had been going down for days. The entire LTO system has been going offline—nationwide—for several days now.

Because of this, people that had been applying for their car registration are getting stranded. The process has been/is still crawling.

This is how chaotic the LTO office had been yesterday. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Some applicants had left after spending the entire day at the LTO but I refused to budge. I didn’t leave LTO until somebody attended to my application because DAMN IT, I’VE BEEN DOING THIS FOR A WEEK NOW!

I was told that the inspection and stenciling of the serial number of my car had to be redone because it was done in another LTO office. I was like, “WTF!!! It’s not even my fault that LTO @20th Ave Cubao just packed up and left without warning to the public!”

I didn’t budge, I didn’t leave the premises until an inspector did the entire bullshit again. And I began tweeting the process, the issues, and the instances of people leaving their posts at 4 pm.

It was 4:01 pm and no one was around anymore to help us just because they couldn’t encode our papers because the “system was down”. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

One inspector said, he couldn’t do his job of doing the stenciling—his reason for being—because the people in the cubicle above didn’t say I can proceed. WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?! Those guys just didn’t want to do their work and left their posts!

I continued to tweet and tag the Twitter account of LTO central office about my very public ordeal.

Long story short, I finished it because I was adamant at pushing for my right as a citizen.

I was so frustrated with the entire thing that I posted a video monologue of my ordeal on Instagram.

So the next day, this reporter-friend messaged me on Viber about my tweets that were forwarded to her by some LTO people because they said whatever I tweeted were true.

We chatted and agreed that she will drop by and have the interview outside my apartment—along the avenue where we’re at. I was still in my sleepwear and my reporter-friend said that I should put on makeup because this will be an on-cam thing. HAHAHA, talk about pressure.

So to sum it up:

As I said in the interview with ABS-CBN, the problem is the entire system. It was a grave problem—the issue is about the service provider. Apparently STRADCOM is no longer the IT service provider for quite some time and shouldn’t even be there (but wait, STRADCOM still has a window there!) because they were already replaced by a German IT company. But LTO says they *couldn’t* turn over the database to the new IT provider, saying it was *difficult*. So this tug-of-war between the very old IT provider and the new, no non-sense Germans is causing outages in the IT system. Which affected the whole nation because the system outages are all over the Philippines. Every LTO branch is OFFLINE!

And to us reporters, we already know why.

Of course, I couldn’t say it outright that this is caused by corruption. The very inefficient STRADCOM leaves a lot of room for fixers and cash-related items that can fall through the cracks. The rank-and-file up to the high officials get their cuts from the fixers. This is also the reason why there are a lot of dumbass drivers on the road—even those who couldn’t drive can get registered or get their licenses because of fixers.

Once the German company takes a complete hold of the IT system, the entire LTO process will be efficient and accurate. NO room for grease money. Payment system can expand beyond the cashiers of LTO offices and they can tap other payment gateways like what SSS and other government agencies do. Imagine, they couldn’t even process credit card/debit card payments; everything has to be cash basis. If the German company has settled everything, the car registration and drivers license renewal can be done under an hour. No need for long lines, no need for fixers.

DAMN IT.

In the interview, I said this process shouldn’t even take a couple of hours and this shouldn’t even be done every year. In other countries, these are done every xxx number of years and only the old vehicles should inspected regularly for road worthiness. But everything should be done online.

UNFORTUNATELY, the LTO story did not air tonight. Probably it was bumped off by more time-sensitive and mass-oriented matters like the senate hearing on rice shortage/prices and the impending increase in rice prices. I understand that it is beyond the reporter’s control since I am also in the news business and I had been with a TV network too.


My desk and new keyboard before the keycap change yesterday. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Good thing I had some distraction because I was so angry. Because my newish mechanical keyboard is so tactile and cute, I was inspired to finish my job even though I was already boiling and ready to kill.

New keycaps arrived. Something that cheered me up yesterday. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

And today, I was on a Thursday chill mode to drive away the bad jujus of the previous day.

The latest Chromecast. Photo by CallMeCreayion.com

I chose to be happy while being reasonable. This thing is only PHP 2,800 and it transformed my decade-old TV into a smart TV with all the streaming apps you can install on that pebble-like thing you call Chromecast. I upgraded my second-generation Chromecast to this one instead of buying a new smart TV that costs PHP20,000, if I’m lucky. My LG TV still works perfectly fine and I have no reason to dump it. When we transfer to my new home, I will just mount the TV on the wall and dress it up like a picture frame and have artworks stream via this device (you can choose the kind of artworks you can display). I will have a gallery wall around the old TV so it won’t be obtrusive.

The old Chromecast will be given to my mom so she’s not limited to her laptop anymore when binge-watching Netflix. She has a TV that swivels so she can watch on her bed.

Ah tomorrow, we will be chasing a lot of executives in a hotel where a conference is now ongoing. Good luck to Friday driving madness.

Exhausted

While I was still parked at LTO

I spent x number of hours just trying to finish my car registration…Days of going back and forth several LTO offices.

We don’t deserve this bullshit.

I’ll write it down tomorrow. I’m just so damn tired today.

Twins

Sushi is hiding from the twins. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

My cats, aside from wanting to be with me, go to my room during the day to escape my Demolition Twins. Here we have Sushi hiding behind my curtains. She wants to be with me but invisible to the human twins.

Why?

Because this is what they do to the cats.

Look at Kimchi’s face. 🀣 Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Kimchi’s taray look. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This afternoon I attempted to finish my car registration at LTO @20th Avenue in Cubao. Ehhhhhhhhh…they started dismantling the office because they’re transferring to a new building. Ergo, I will be delayed by another day. So I went to LTO Ali Mall in Araneta Center and it turns out it’s only for drivers license renewal. 😫

Damn it.

It was already past 5 pm so there’s no point in going to LTO at P. Tuazon Ave or at LTO main along East Ave. I have to go to the main office tomorrow to get this over and done with.

To make my parking fee at the mall worth it, I decided to buy some stuff that I always forget to buy, like a new desktop mirror. This is my third mirror and the first two were broken by my cats. 🐈 Talk about having a Demolition Twins 2.0

Only PHP 189, a lot cheaper than the Ikea mirror that Sushi tipped over and cracked. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Speaking of twins, we are now having twin typhoons—and one is a super typhoon. Look at that clear eye in the middle that is fast approaching southern Japan. The more pronounced the eye is, the stronger the typhoon.

Both Tropical Depression Gardo and Super Typhoon Hinnamnor, which would be named Henry when it enters the Philippine Area of Responsibility, are unlikely to make landfall. Rappler.com

Although these may not make landfall in the Philippines, the two weather disturbances may pull each other and cause a lot of heavy rainfall as they could draw the monsoon rains from southwest towards northeast (the swirls are an indication of that). Diving could be dangerous as the currents would become stronger and more unpredictable.

Heavy rainfall is something that should be taken seriously in the Philippines, as proven by Tropical Storm Ondoy (Typhoon Ketsana) in 2009 that wreaked havoc in Metro Manila. Ketsana wasn’t even a typhoon; it was just a tropical storm based on the wind velocity. However, the amount of rainfall was unprecedented. Ondoy dumped a month’s worth of rainfall in just six hours hours (455 mm of rain within 24 hours = several months’ worth of rainfall). I remember I was about to go to my hometown that day but after reaching the subdivision gate, the floodwaters were already half my car tire. I quickly turned back. Good thing I did because a lot of people were caught off-guard by the sudden rise in floodwaters. It was a Saturday and countless people were stuck in their cars on the road. Katipunan Ave was completely submerged as Marikina River burst its banks. One reporter told me she was driving back home when she got stuck on the road because her home in Manila was like Waterworld. She spent 24 hrs in her car, I think.

So we were stranded in Cainta for days as the water reached neck-deep in our subdivision while in some parts of Cainta the water level was way above our heads. Marikina was underwater.

We tried getting out of Cainta through some back channels that were a bit dry but first we needed to push my car through the floodwaters in the subdivision. I needed to get to work because my boss shouldn’t be manning the desk alone (I was already an assistant business editor then). Because when disaster strikes, we journalists cannot NOT work.

We spent about two (or three?) weeks in my sister’s condo in Mandaluyong before the flood in Cainta subsided.

Several months after Ondoy, I still had emergency provisions in my car trunk like rain boots, food, extra clothes, flash light, emergency lamp, etc. The following year, we transferred to Quezon City and we made sure the place is never flooded. Every time it rained heavily, my anxiety levels go through the roof. This is why I always check NOAA Western Pacific satellite images to predict the weather and plan my activities accordingly. Blame Ondoy.

Productivity whuuut?!

New mechanical keyboard arrived. I’m waiting for the new keycaps. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Yes. Forgive me. I’m spending my money on useless things that aren’t really helping with productivity. They just make me enjoy typing and some occasional game playing.

The underside of my new keyboard. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This CPSTECH RF84 mechanical keyboard is much better than Royal Kludge when it comes to modes of connectivity. Its Bluetooth, 2.4G wireless dongle, and wired connections are working well whereas Royal Kludge is only usable on wired mode. It has ghosting and freezing issues when used as a wireless (both dongle and bluetooth) keyboard and it gets into conflict with my Logitech mouse (which is on 2.4G dongle). Plus the lack of arrow keys is a deal-breaker since it’s hard to edit articles. I always needed to use Fn+?, Fn +Win, Fn + Ctrl to be able to use the arrow functions. It slows me down significantly.

However, I’m keeping the Royal Kludge keeb because I like the blue switches. They’re clickety-clackety.

First, I cleaned the older Royal Kludge RK61 because I saw that there were cat hair in between the keys. Lots of it. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I was swapping the blue switches of the RK61 with the Otemu red switches of the RF84 but I had been bending the copper contact points whenever I installed each switch so I stopped this foolishness.

And I succumbed to temptation. I gave up. You just don’t walk into Mordor…Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Then I downloaded Lord of the Rings. Goodbye productivity.

I will regret this. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Mommy, why are you playing that?–Twin A. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

And I also bought Worms Rumble…and I always get demolished in every death match I get to enter because it has been 22 years since I last played this franchise! Of course I needed some time to get myself reacquainted with it. I enjoy strategy games better than RPGs. What’s enjoyable with Worms is that the characters are ridiculously cute and absurd while they annihilate each other with weapons of mass destruction. I often chose worms that speak Japanese and English with Scottish/Gaelic accent—that was 22 years ago7πŸ€£πŸ˜‚. I haven’t tried the other languages this time but I got myself a tattoo and some weird headgear. As a worm. 🀣🀣🀣

I remember my father commenting then about my “weird” games whenever he caught me playing until 2 am…

Meanwhile, I think I need to buy myself a controller because I plan to buy Stray.

The reason why I get killed all the time in Worms is because I get slowed down by the keyboard + mouse combo. I guess my fate would be worse in Stray. I don’t want a cat to be eviscerated on screen just because I’m slow on a keyboard.

Oh dear…this will never end. Next thing I know, I will be buying a huge-ass TV and an absurdly priced gaming chair to play these games in our new flat. Then my nephews would be crowding into my living/kitchen area to play because my internet connection would be the best that I could afford while theirs remains pfffftttttt…πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

I should really, really stop this keyboard nonsense

Now I need a bigger table or a peg board to accommodate all my keyboards. 🀣

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