Feeding the hungry

16 packs of 2 kg rice. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Not enough news coverage of the widespread disaster because they killed ABS-CBN. It was the only network with strong provincial coverage. Now it seems like we’re experiencing news blackout and only tweets and FB posts keep us informed by people on the ground, if they have enough batteries and if cellular signal is present. The remaining skeletal news staff of ABS-CBN is still providing us with what they can despite limited bandwidth.

I went out of the house at 5 pm to buy supplies for myself and goods for donation.

I bought a lot of sanitary napkins, travel sized toothpaste, and packs of toothbrushes. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I thought about buying goods instead of sending cash because they are short-staffed and they may not have enough manpower to buy relief goods. The affected areas also may have shortage of goods in grocery stores, just like what we experienced when I was covering Typhoon Haiyan (Yolanda). I had to bring my own provisions from Manila because nothing can be bought locally.

Hygiene kits are equally important. As Cong. Joey Salceda told me when I interviewed him right after I got back to Manila from Haiyan Ground Zero, a sense of dignity is important for the refugees’ mental and physical health. Part of that is giving them access to clean clothes and personal hygiene products. Salceda is a veteran of disaster mitigation and response as he led Albay province—one of the most typhoon-prone provinces in the country—to zero fatality score. Albay was also a case study for my sister’s PhD dissertation on climate change adaptation. He is a political whore but local government management-wise, he makes sense…as far as I know. He used to be the chief research analyst at ING-Barings then he entered politics.

Anyway, I went to Ateneo to drop off the donation but… Damn it. I WAS TOO EARLY! Goods are to be accepted Nov 2! They don’t have staff/volunteers now. 🤦‍♀️ Good thing the President of Ateneo took in the goods at his residence.

Well at least I’m done with this because I will be too busy next week.

After Ateneo, I went to UP to feed stray cats with my excess food stranded in my fridge. People had been sending me food all week long for my birthday ❤️. But then it’s only me now left at home so I have a lot of leftovers.

Meat. Lots of it. Kitties are carnivores so they’re loving it. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com

OMG, I’m now officially THE Cat Lady!

I sent the pics to the girls and Twin I said that we should feed cats next week when they come home.

I had fed a white stray dog seeking shelter outside our gate a few days ago 😔 Poor dog. I wonder where he went during the storm 😢

This is what my friend TT had been telling me. I’m too much of an empath. Ah well, I have enough space in my heart for this type of thing. ❤️

Romantic time alone

Power out. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This is a dreadful time to romanticize my life but yep, I did. So everyone is gone so it’s just me and the cats. I’m not apologizing for sleeping most of the day. The power went out at around 4 pm. I reported a power transformer explosion incident (which sounded like it) to Meralco and after 4 hours, power was restored despite the inclement weather. Kudos to the linesmen of Meralco for doing repairs round-the-clock.

Cats sleeping on my dried laundry. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I didn’t bother cooking. I just cooked rice in the rice cooker and had cold cuts. Slept and cuddled with the cats.

And of course social media is so toxic today. The whole of Mindanao is flooded. Children have died in Maguindanao and Cotabato. Farmlands and homes are flattened. Then people—opposition and admin–have the gall to quarrel online.

I had to express my disbelief and anger at the callousness of people:

There are members of the pink movement who are toxic. They said they will not help because Cotabato is red, Mindanao is red. You know, this kind of attitude and noise alienate the people who we must convince that they made a wrong choice.

Yes, we are tired of the stupidity of the electorate but this is not the time for hubris. Help but then we demand accountability from those who are in power. That’s how we turn the tide.

A revolution is not an overnight thing. It is a long and slow build up.

Don’t be myopic.

And I keep sharing this call for donations because Community Pantry PH still couldn’t raise enough money for relief. I also donated whatever meager resources I have right now. Tomorrow I will check Angat Buhay HQ or Ateneo if they need volunteers or what other resources they need. I need buy a cavan of rice and boxes of ready-to-eat food.

https://twitter.com/raffymagno/status/1586398360436502530

We all know that the government is incompetent so we do what we can. We need to educate the electorate and wean them away from social media that is propagating lies and disinformation that allowed the Marcoses to be in power. And here the asshat himself is asking why the Mindanao tragedy happened. Damn you, cretin! What parallel universe are you living in?

To answer this from a more educated standpoint, I shared with a veteran journo why PAGASA’s storm warnings were not heeded by people on the ground:

My sister’s PhD dissertation on climate change mentions the localization, not only of the language, but also of the concepts introduced/reported by disaster mitigation agencies so it’s not PAGASA’s burden alone. It needs close coordination of MDRRMC, PDRRMC and National DRRMC. PHIVOLCS under Punongbayan and Solidum explained it in a paper very well (I think I have posted it here on FB) that’s how they were able to save lives during Pinatubo eruption. Disaster mitigation agencies should have good comms people so important information are dispatched immediately to local government units. I learned when I was communicating with some of these agencies, they don’t have budget for proper comms or even training. Communication in such agencies are just afterthought. Last time I had talked to them, they were arranging a training under UPLB CDC. Not sure if this pushed through. The science may be right but cascading it down to the grassroots is a whole different story. Before Yolanda (Typhoon Haiyan), how do we even explain and localize the concept of “storm surge”? “It is like a tsunami,” is the default answer. But how do you localize tsunami and the idea of it? How do you localize 500 mm of rainfall? Mass media plays a major role in this one. But mass communication is not enough to move people, it is the local targeted comm that moves them.

I didn’t mention that I was the one arranging the communication training of PAGASA with my undergrad college and I was already talking to the dean of the graduate school (who happened to be my sister in my Greek-letter organization) of my undergrad campus about the needs assessment and the curriculum for the training. It all started two years ago with a Twitter discussion on science communication (my undergrad specialization) and disaster mitigation communications and/or the failure/lack of it. Then somebody from PAGASA reached out to me on Twitter asking for help regarding this one. One thing led to another. This couldbe a working dissertation for me if I were to pursue my PhD. My Greek-letter sis and another friend who used to be the chairperson of my grad school in UPD and I were discussing about writing a proposal about this, which could be extended for my PhD—if I I suddenly go crazy and think of going back to school.

I’m big on communication campaigns and grassroots communication and how it can mobilize science into something practicable.

10 hours after, my cats are still like this. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

All in all, I became stressed with all these Twitter exchanges with toxic people.

I am so done

Stress level hit the roof before I signed off from work tonight. I received an email from HR regarding the contracts of my reporters and damn, here we go again…

I emailed my managers and asked them, why are we back here? If this keeps on cropping up, I will lose people. I also would be put in a precarious position and if push comes to shove, a competitor will love to have me and this company will just eat my dust.

Thank God for cats. They help me get rid of stress, albeit temporarily. They lower my blood pressure.

Here is Kimchi judging me again while I do my stretching. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
And then she proceeds to mock me. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I don’t know how people can last long in this job. I remember an erstwhile bureau chief quit and asked to be demoted because she said she could not keep up. She just had a baby and there was no way she could balance being a mom, wife, and bureau chief. The only two good things about my situation is that I can work from home and I don’t have a partner. The rest are crap—in the sense that I manage the second largest if not the largest of newsroom in APAC just by the number of reporters I have. Moreover, I must be on top of the situation in 11 markets—five of them are very active whereas the others have only one or two markets (Aus and NZ) that they cover. I must monitor 11 laws/rules and regulations, 11 political situations with their own idiosyncrasies and only two markets use English as an official language—the rest are incomprehensible. AND YET I could not travel freely to these markets; I have yet to test the waters and push the envelope.

This day is just…😤

Meanwhile, a little victory due to our pushback against this Bible-thumping liar, history revisionist, and overall bitch apologist of the Marcoses.

And here are the feedback of some sellers. A friend who has a store on Shopee says this is all true. She lost customers. If there would be orders, it would be for an PHP80-item, hardly a thing that would move the needle. All the big spenders are gone. Nothing happened during 10-10 sale. She says she’s stuck with a high inventory and she couldn’t open a TikTok store or an IG store because that requires regular content. She has no room in her life for content since she’s taking care of her baby. She said this is not a matter of life and death for her since she’s just doing this as a “passive” income (her definition) since her active source of income is her online job. This boycott really hurts the sellers who are relying on Shopee for their main source of income.


Another stress-reliever of mine is planning my house.

Updated floorplan of my tiny house. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I probably have my dimensions wrong again since I’m not working on grid paper. But this is the latest layout that my contractor and I have agreen on. Just this morning, we reduced the width of the girls’ bedroom. I’m not entirely sure if I got the girls’ doorway right because I just based this on my conversation and gesticulation of my contractor i.e. there would be a corner there for their door and for my closet. But I couldn’t understand how my closet would not block their doorway. I must have misunderstood something. Anyway, I would be able to see once the partitions are up next week.

My girls prefer to have this shelving unit in their room instead of a full-blown closet because they want shelves and more shelves for stuff and books, not clothes. I have already bought them drawers for their clothes.

Photo from ikea.ph

On Friday I will pick up in Paranaque the Rockwool insulation/soundproofing for some dry wall partition to deliver to my construction site. That was an extra expense (around 22k) but I want this done well. If I can have granite kitchen countertops, why not have a soundproof partition wall?

This is how my future home looks like viewed from space…

Our houses according to Google Earth.

Yup, that entire forest at the back is my view. I will clear some of that in the near future when I’m ready to have my vegetable beds. That red encircled part of the red duplex is mine—at least the second floor part. On the extreme left in the yellow circle is the garage but that would be extended to be a communal garage to accommodate two SUVs and a sedan.

Let’s see on Friday if the house is already taking shape.

How many times are we going to get fucked over???

This is how fucked up we are. We still do not have a Department of Health secretary. The rollout for the boosters for children has halted. My kids are partially vaccinated (still no boosters yet).

Then we have a secretary of justice who lacks delicadeza that he wouldn’t resign from his post even if his 38-year-old son was arrested and taken into custody for possessing kilograms of illegal drugs. And he is one of the instigators/staunch supporters of tokhang—the war on drugs in which a lot of poor innocent children like Kian delos Santos were killed without mercy because of baseless accusation that they were drug users. Remulla’s son is not going to use the kilos of drugs by himself, right? And yet they insist he is no drug pusher/runner. Calls for Remulla’s resignation went unheeded. How do we know he’s not using his power to influence the case of his overgrown baby?

Only the rich and the powerful can get due process and always get away scott-free. This tweet from a reporter-friend proves that.

The Remulla son was arrested on 11 Oct. The news came out 13 Oct. They deliberately withheld the information until the rumors could no longer contain the information. When the story went public, the Remullas—who had reigned over Cavite for a looooooooooooooooooooong time, initially denied any connection.

And journalist Atom Araullo, like the rest of the rest of us in the industry, called out this special treatment.

WTF are we supposed to do???

I’m so tired.

Then we have police–even in civilian clothes–knocking on the doors of journalists’ homes in the guise of “following orders from above to ensure we are safe” after the death of journalist who is a vocal critical of Marcos and Duterte.

They’re really out there to intimidate us, to scare us.

My occupation in my insurance policies is WRITER. If I put JOURNALIST, my premiums would be higher.


I ate a slice of cake today…

So I needed to burn those calories today after being a sloth yesterday.

Need to burn 250 kcal because goodness knows how many calories that cake has.
Feeding strays inside the campus again. She (most calicos are female) looks like Sushi. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

During one of my walks after the monsoon rains of August-Sept, I saw a cat curled up like it was sleeping on the sidewalk across Kalayaan Dorm…but it was already dead. It probably died of hunger or cold…My heart broke. 💔

I told my girls about it so we started feeding strays inside the campus with leftover bones and kibbles that my spoiled cats no longer want to eat. The strays outside our compound’s gate have disappeared so I no longer have cats to feed that are near the apartment.

An old couple having their night stroll while I heave and push myself to burn more calories. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

After getting back from my walk, I unloaded the vegetables I bought from my suki veggie vendor. Then I did my indoor workout to burn off the cake calories some more.

That 145 bpm is my planking again. 😂
Working on my core muscles with killer planking + 200 crunches.

So I burned almost 500 kcal. Not bad. But I’m so tired. I should be resting because hormones are still out of whack but I just took 1 tablet of Berocca to give me an energy boost for the day. But heck, my head is still pounding.

Meanwhile, people had been sending me via messenger or tagging me on some Sandroisms (Sandro Marcos stupid quotes) on Twitter and Facebook since they knew I would be laughing my ass off. Everybody knows that he is my favorite person to troll on Twitter for YEARS. His brainless comments really make it easy for me to make fun of him.

Manila Bulletin has taken down the FB and Twitter post. But of course I preserved this golden quote card, and is kept with my other Sandroisms (screenshots of my trolling him on Twitter).

This made my day. 🤣

EXHAUSTING

Why Philippines? Why are you just accepting this? Why are you condoning the Marcoses’ and the Dutertes’ excesses and you let yourself suffer like this? Why??? My heart bleeds. I think I will die heartbroken because you let yourself be enslaved by your stupidity.

It’s really exhausting if I absorb everything that I see and read. I know it’s such a privilege to turn my head away and pretend these things don’t happen. But sometimes doing so is necessary for my mental health, especially today when I read that a former Supreme Court justice who is now the new Executive Secretary defending Marcos’ wastage of public funds (bringing along bloggers and other hangers on) to watch F1 in Singapore. I want to remind Mr. Bersamin that there is a law that prohibits government officials from using public funds or whatever from doing such thing/s. Singapore has been holding F1 for so many years but no sitting Philippine president has accepted the invitation of the Singapore government because 1) they know the law; 2) it is blasphemy to waste public funds (or even private money because the public perception is bad) on such frivolous things when the country has just emerged from a natural calamity and the citizens could barely eat , with the latest inflation rate is at 6.9%.

Oh yes, we’re back to Marcos-era macroeconomic situation = stagnant growth, high inflation (called stagflation), weak currency, and FDIs are disappearing.

I’m angry but I’m tired of being angry. Maybe living in my hometown will help me tame my anger. Maybe the trees and absence of air pollution will calm my very busy mind. Maybe regular cycling around my hometown and nearby towns would help ease the tension I often harbor because I get affected by macro and micro news, about things that I have no control over. More frequent visits to the sea to dive or Lake Caliraya to camp will remind me of the little things that make living here worthwhile.

I no longer know how to use my platform, my pen (keyboard) to help change the situation. They’re killing journalists like me and they will continue doing that. They have already killed ABS-CBN. Now they’re silencing individual media workers.

I don’t know how long I can take this with my sanity intact.

Let me just do my indoor exercises first so I can ruminate. Maybe my pent-up fury can be expended by dumb bell lifts.


I still have a long way to go. Long, long way to go.