Public shaming

I will troll her until kingdom come.

You see, I used to cover her at the Philippine Competition Commission when she was still a commissioner there. She was one of my favorite commissioners to put on a hot seat during press conferences (the other one is Comm Joey Bernabe). I used to love covering both of them and she once told me that I keep them on their toes whenever I attend their presscons. She was really good and made sense. Her specialization at the UP School of Economics was health economics—everything that concerns private healthcare funding, universal healthcare, public health finance, etc.

Then she ran for congress.

She’s now swallowed by the system (or maybe there was a corrupt politician hiding in her all along) and has co-authored the bill that would create the Marcos slush fund a.k.a. the 1MDB 2.0.

What are sovereign wealth funds? These are created by states so that their excess reserves can go somewhere more productive instead of sitting in the national treasury. What states have excess funds in an age of budget deficits? Oil countries. Malaysia, Norway, Kuwait and other Middle Eastern states.

What is a Sovereign Wealth Fund (SWF)?

A Sovereign Wealth Fund (SWF) is a state-owned investment fund or entity that is commonly established from:

  • Balance of payments surpluses
  • Official foreign currency operations
  • The proceeds of privatizations
  • Governmental transfer payments
  • Fiscal surpluses
  • And/or receipts resulting from resource exports

And as a public finance and macroeconomy reporter of 8+ years, let me tell you this:

  1. We used to log BOP surpluses but that changes month on month. I used to do magic and produce news articles just from a table of national current accounts (oh the pain of writing BOP stories)…. BUT it’s more frequent that the numbers are in ( ).
  2. We privatize government assets because we are always short on cash.
  3. We didn’t have fiscal surpluses. We never balanced our budget and the smallest budget deficit that finance reporters of my time recorded was PHP 60bn (if I remember it right) and that was before the global financial crisis. Arroyo had to backpedal on the zero-deficit plan because by 2008 our economy went shit.
  4. Receipts from resource exports? We don’t have OIL AND GAS to export, unlike the countries I mentioned above. Our mineral resources aren’t generating enough receipts for us to create an SWF. Indonesia has coal and nickel, while we have the low-grade variety of these minerals.

(Not well versed in govt forex operations and transfer payments as source of funds for SWF so I won’t touch on those).

Tapos obsessed na obsessed tong gobyernong to magtayo ng SWF, kala mo may excess funds tayo. HOYYYYYYYYYY we have always operated on a deficit. Kapal ng mukha netong mga to!

HOY STELLA! Slush fund ng Marcoses ang tinutulak mo. Di kami bobo.


To calm me down, I resorted to sketching this scene at the Singapore Botanical Gardens before I started editing today.

Started with globs of color. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

This government is driving me nuts.

I bought more frames when I was at the Mall of Asia/Ikea. Just because. If I produce a decent sketch or painting of something, maybe I can frame it and give it as a gift.

My hoard. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

And I bought a wok as a gift to my cousin who wanted a paella pan (but I couldn’t find it.

Wok not too heavy so it’s good for flipping fried rice or stir fry vegetables. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Of course, Kimchi just had to sit on it. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

‘Tis the season for cheers and melancholy

I finally installed our parol outside. The fairy lights had been there since last year and I won’t take it down even when we move out. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I was just too busy to do the usual Christmas decorating to cheer ourselves up—well, it’s mostly to cheer me up. The kids don’t care. This is the third Christmas that we haven’t set up a tree because…cats. 🐈

I’m still looking for the Christmas lights that I usually string around the balustrades. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This is the last Christmas that we will be spending here in this apartment. My neighbor, the quietest neighbor I have who lives next to my unit, will be leaving sooner than us. She will be pulling out their stuff on Saturday. Her daughter will be going abroad to work while she will be moving into her sister’s house in Kamias. They stayed here for 19 years. She said she would have stayed longer (because she liked the location) if it were not for my crusty landlady’s mismanagement of the units. Her apartment (D) is full of termites. She often complained to our landlady about the disrepair of her unit but the latter doesn’t listen. Meanwhile, I don’t take shit for an answer that’s why I get things done. I use my own resources to fix things and bill her later. Oftentimes, I just don’t bother billing her because she will just complain that I’m a very expensive renter. Yada, yada, yada. 🤬 That’s why until now the roof at my cooking area still leaks.

Some people shouldn’t be landlords.

Still waiting for Lazada to deliver my 3x3m waterfall fairylights. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

My mom said the next family that will get this unit will be lucky because I improved the bathroom (and it is pretty, my mom said) and will be leaving a lot of better fixtures like the higher end faucets, a big bathroom exhaust fan, and the custom wooden counter in the cooking/laundry area. And I kept refreshing the white paint and the closet paint. The only damage I have to fix is the bedroom door knob that I destroyed when the cats were locked inside my room.

This has been home for four years now—five when we leave next year. It sheltered us during the most tumultuous time in our lives. It has broken me as well. I will be leaving the bad jujus behind when I shove the last piece of my stuff into the moving truck in May. I will have a sort of fresh start as I won’t have the bad memories that I still carry in this apartment.

Speaking of Christmas and bad memories, I usually look forward to this season because it meant two-week breaks and I can read a lot of books during my off-time. But since 2020, December also reminded me of the toughest moment in my life. And I was still dealing with shit until February this year. Good thing I was still under therapy at that time so I was able to bounce back faster than I did in August. December 2020 was just trash and all the expletives that you can throw at it.

Thank God for art. I may not be good at it but it has kept me sane.

Inking. I’ll ink first before coloring, which is the opposite of what I normally do. I think I’ll use a jaune tone on the church walls. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

So December is something I look forward to because of the long break and it’s also something that I dread because some bad taste in my mouth remains. I still get triggered. But it will be all right. I have many things to occupy me so I won’t be living in my head again.

Aside from improving my sketching skills, I am also busy with my house.

Photo sent by my contractor.

My contractor said this small cabinet is not the kitchen cabinet but this is something that will go under my TV. 🤔

Hopefully, I will be busy with my new house for an entire year so I won’t have room in my life to brood.

However, the problem with writers is that we think too much. We have this propensity to perform mental acrobatics because that’s what we do for a living. I know several writers who live in their caves/writing dens (like me) and rarely come out.

George Bernard Shaw. Writingcooperative.com

Hmm…I want a writing shack like that.

The pomp and the ornate vs my simple tiny house

Cathedral of the Immaculate Conception, Cubao. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

My mom stayed with me overnight because she is attending the ordination of priests at the Cathedral of the Immaculate Conception in Cubao. One of the new priests is a family friend.

Just like anything that has something to do with the Catholic Church, the ceremony is ornate and full of pomp. And loooong. So is the church itself.

So here I am, 2 hrs into the ceremony, outside the church and sketching my way out of boredom.

Looking for better angles. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I have all the time for the details… Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
The details are testing my patience. The sun is beating down on me. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

It’s drizzling now so I’ll just finish this later. At least the entire pencil sketching is done on-site. 🤣

Where shall I bring my mom after this…


After church, we went to SM MOA so that my mom 1) can buy new underwear (her excuse to go to a mall); and go to St. Paul’s to buy her 4 volumes of 2023 prayer books. Along the way, we encountered a guitar center. Twin I is saving up for an acoustic guitar.

Photo by CallMeCreation.com

And I thought I found the perfect guitar for her. Not too big, sounds ok and has an inlet on the side to plug it into an amplifier.

The black one looks so cool. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

After ticking off everything in my mom’s checklist, we drove to my hometown.

My granite countertop. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Entire wall/s and under the counter will be installed with cabinets. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
It’s a tiny kitchen by normal home standards but it’s bigger than my current one in my apartment. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
One of my kitchen cabinets. Better build (wood laminate) compared to Ikea’s MDF. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
No tiles yet in my bathroom but I see now the concrete niche for shampoos and soap. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
This is where the TV will be hung. My contractor said he will build shelves around the post to make it disappear. Good. I have too many books. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
It’s blurry but this closet is tall. I modeled it after the Ikea Pax I designed online. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
My huge bedroom window. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

The welding works will be done in January so my stainless steel staircase, water reservoir tower, and fire exit platform will be made. February will just be cabinet works and finishing like painting and installation of shelves. By that time I can pull out my books from my apartment so I can put them in the shelves. That way I would know if I need to install more.

I’m excited.

Trampoline day

So here we are in this stage where my girls want to hang with their friends more than with me. I’m a cool mom so I had been driving them to places where they meet up with friends.

Trampoline playground at Ayala Feliz. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

So this afternoon I drove them to Ayala Malls Feliz in Pasig along Marcos Highway. I loaded their Timezone cards and left them there while they waited for their friends.

I went around a bit but shopping isn’t really my sport so I just went to a foot massage place and did a 70-min session, which was just so-so. Then I just waited for the girls at Agave, the Mexican restaurant in front of Timezone and had this:

Churros and hot chocolate. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I did some finishing touches to this but I’m still unhappy. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
So I am remaking it for someone who liked the first sketch. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Still half-way through but tthe light is already fading.

I think my astigmatism or myopia has gotten worse. I feel a dull pain pounding behind my left eye, which is radiating now to my forehead and crown.

Another visit to the optometrist is in order. 😑

And oh, I found a random guy playing beautifully on my dream piano.

Several videos later…

I can’t stop watching!

Healing

It was raining when I was walking around Botanical Gardens. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Woman, why are you walking all around Botanical Gardens when it’s raining?!

Ah well, I needed to see trees. I’ve been sick physically so I needed something to revive me. So I spent the morning at the Gardens to sketch. I don’t want to stay indoors on my day-off. 🙄

Searching for the nearest spot I could station myself. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
So it was not only me who was crazy. Even the birdwatchers didn’t let the rain deter them from their hobby. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
While they’re taking their pictures, I was making a picture. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I didn’t finish this because I got hungry and I suddenly wanted to go to the onsen at Kallang Wave Mall. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I grew impatient while doing the background that I messed it up. I was already hungry, wet, and I felt that I’m starting to have colds again.

So off I went to Yunomori Onsen, which first I tried in 2018. I was staying at a hotel in Kallang at that time and I walked from my hotel to Kallang Riverside Park and then walked along Nicholls then I ended up in Singapore Stadium. Basically, I just followed the river. I was aching all over when I reached Kallang Wave Mall, which I found by accident. Lo and behold, like mana from heaven, there was the onsen to chase away my aches.

Reception at Yunomori Onsen. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

So this afternoon, I had lunch at Old Street—well, I still considered it as lunch even though it was already 2 pm. Then I went to the onsen to cure my colds and aching body. I stayed in the hot baths for an hour before taking a break from cooking myself.

I took this photo to show my girls. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I tried to nap. Ah well… Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Spent another 45 mins in the hot tubs and went at the ground level to choose where my friend and I would have dinner.

I wanted something local. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
After dinner, L and I walked along the river to burn off the calories. She’s thinner than me and yet she’s the one more concerned about the calories we stuffed our faces with. 😑 Photo by CallMeCreation.com
We walked around while talking about so many random things. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

We parted at the Stadium MRT station at past 11 pm; she was going home to her studio at Paya Lebar while I go to Dhoby Ghaut.

Sleepy now.

Looooong day

I always choose the earliest flight so I can maximize my day. In any case, I can sleep at the terminal and in the plane.

4 am at NAIA Terminal 2. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Before arriving at Changi Airport, I topped up my Starhub via app. No need to bother myself with looking for a convenience store, which I did since 2014. Then finally Starhub launched a wonky app in 2018-2019 so I could do everything online.

Then I got robbed by UOB at their money exchange kiosk in T1. Their exchange rates at the airport is nuts! PHP 11k for only SGD 239! I may have to use my credit cards more. Annoying.

Here is the worst part. My Dizo phone is not working here in Singapore. I bought this so I can use my Smart SIM so I can receive my OTPs for online banking and other transactions. And damn it, it’s not working. I didn’t check that it’s only capable of 2G, which I think Singapore has already retired.

I wasted PHP 1,300 for this thing. I’ll just give this away. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I was forced to buy a new base model Oppo (A17 = 4GB RAM, 64GB ROM) from Challenger @Jewel because I cannot NOT have my Smart SIM dysfunctional. I will just pass this on to Twin I when I come back (since hers is only 3GB, 32GB ROM) and I will use her old phone for my travels. I just need the SMS capabilities of a phone for an OTP.

OMG, I promised that I will not spend so much here but here I am…

Still feeling under the weather so I had bak kut teh to relieve my colds. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I have yet to arrive at my hotel, I was already tired….Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Park near my hotel along Penang Road. I could hear some of them speaking in Tagalog. Probably domestic workers on their day off. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I went to a ceramic exhibit at the nearby Visual Arts Centre. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
More ceramics. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
They are for sale. Some ceramics were dainty and lovely to have at home…but my cats will kill them. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Next door is a studio where they have art lessons for kids and adults. They have various courses there for different media. I talked to the manager there and it was interesting. You can have an a la carte class for SGD 45 for watercolor. Something nice to do on my weekend day off. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

At the back of the National Library. Interesting to sketch. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Resting for a bit at the National Library. Not much visual interest here. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Along Raffles Hotel. Looking for some interesting angles to sketch. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Finally found the Straits Art supplies store at North Bridge Road. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I found Holbein, Rembrandt, Schmicke, some Russian brands, and Old Holland. I held back and reminded myself that I just spent SGD 229 on a cellphone because of my idiocy.

Second-hand bookstore. I have to keep myself from buying random stuff that would add weight to my luggage. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I wonder if I can sketch this with complete details…Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Went to find a nearby Kopi Tiam because I was hankering for hawker food. I was generous with the chili oil because, again, of my colds. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Finally, my bed! I’m so tired. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
No closet and the sink is outside the bathroom.
And bathroom is all glass. Good thing I’m not with someone. It would be awkward seeing your partner pooping. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Big-ass TV that won’t get used. This is a 65″ Samsung. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Ah lovely. Tea to calm down my throat. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Sleepy. Big day tomorrow…Awards night in the evening. And there are only two journos. What am I going to do? How will I stretch myself. Better get some sleep.