My bestfriend asked me how am I doing now that I’m temporarily single? (the girls are still with their dad) I said, it’s just wonderful not to worry about what to eat and when to eat. I’ll just cook and eat something if I feel like it. I’m not dictated by someone else’s body clock. When I suddenly felt like installing the curtain rod brackets in the girls’ room, I just did it. I just cater to my own whims.
Well, except for the cats and cat stuff.
Kimchi is so fat. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
They kept waking me up because their food bowls were empty. Then they kept bothering me until I cleaned up their litter boxes.
They kept meowing outside my door so when I opened it for them, they plonk themselves at the foot of my bed until i give in and fill up their food bowls. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
And I have to order cans of wet food and bags of kibbles and kitty litter online…
So I take it back. I’m still a slave to my other children. 🤦🏻♀️ They’re the reason I left my hometown early…
It has been a while since I wore my contact lenses because the one on my left eye doesn’t seem to stick. Or if I manage to put the contact lens on my eye, my vision remains blurred so it’s hard to drive. I thought my astigmatism worsened.
Well, it’s worse than I thought. My nearsightedness jumped from – 2.75 and -3.75 to -4.00 and -4.25 with astigmatism remaining at 100. This is just in a span of 6 months 🤦🏻♀️. No wonder I’m having these random headaches. This means I’m legally blind.
I had to change both of my toric contact lenses and eyeglasses again. This time I got a new frame because I think my half-rimmed eyeglasses wouldn’t be able to hold my thickening lenses anymore, even if I am already using the ultra thin ones. I got myself an Ann Taylor catseye frame that was on sale. If I were to remain a thick-lensed, four-eyed monster, might as well be a stylish four-eyed monster. I’ll claim all these by Wednesday.
It was an expensive trip to the optometrist today. 🙄
New running shoes to motivate me. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I took advantage of the sale in stores today at Gateway Mall where I had my contacts and eye glasses made. I bought myself a pair of New Balance running shoes that were on sale to motivate me to walk again at the UP academic oval. My old Fila are still intact but the soles are already too thin that they hurt my feet. Anyway, they’ve been in service since April 2018 so I’ve already maxed out its utility.
Once I get fit again, I’ll proceed to buy hiking shoes. I want to go to Masungi Georeserve to restart since I got so out of shape after Covid. I’ll video document it for my YT channel and for our KG talk show.
Web-style viewing platform at Masungi Georeserve.
My cats have missed me after leaving them on their own for more than 24 hrs. Now they don’t want me out of their sight. They even watch me sleep 🤣
It was just a simple affair today. Last night’s dinner was early and we just ordered from fastfood stores because we’re all lazy. We retired early. For lunch today I grilled steak for my sisters and mom, brought chardonnay but they didn’t have a wine bottle opener 🤦🏻♀️
Steak for my sisters. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Meanwhile, I just indulged in blueberry cream cake (there was no cheese in it) because when I come back to my apartment, I will continue with my simple diet of lazy food. Sandwich or dumplings and soup.
Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I left home at around 3 pm, distributed some gifts to friends, and drove back to QC. But then K messaged me if we can have a quick dinner in Makati at around 6 pm. I arrived at 5 pm and did some revenge shopping. Bought tops from Uniqlo, shoes and bag from Hush Puppies, and necklace and earrings from SM. Because why not? It’s Christmas! It has been two years since I bought shoes and clothes for myself.
I quickly changed shoes and top and put on the jewelry in a bathroom at Glorietta 5 before my dinner with K. This gay friend of mine always urged me to look decent and to work out to lose my flabs. He even brought me to his gym once to force me to exercise. He has been pushing me to lose weight for 15 years already. 🤣 However, I’m really not an indoor girl. I’m more motivated if I exercise outside.
Anyway, during dinner we talked about a lot of stuff and as usual he told me about his sexcapades in Boracay during his break. I’m not really sure if his being gay made him promiscuous (because they can’t procreate) or it’s just in his personality. Whatever. It’s funny how we can talk about work when we’re from competing news wires.
When I drove him to his condo, he told me he’s happy that I’m my perky self again, unlike the previous dinners/lunches we had this year when there was still some kind of shadow lurking behind my eyes. Especially last year when he came to the rescue and pulled me out of my apartment and treated me to a pre- new year’s eve lunch to help me verbalize what just happened i.e. the breakup. I rarely went out to dine this year and if I did, it was with him. I knew he was trying to cheer me up. So he is in the best position to judge how far I have come. He was the one to message me after the breakup to get out of my bed and take a shower and brush my teeth. He always asked me if I was able to sleep. He did it everyday for a couple of months after the breakup.
That’s how friends are. They prop you up when you’re dead until you live again.
Every girl needs a gay friend. Someone to remind her that she looks like trash so she needs to smarten up. Someone to criticize her shoes and makeup. Someone to tell her that she’s fat so she needs to exercise and nags her until she does. And someone to tell her that the world will be alright after a breakup.
My tire burst ahead of New Year fireworks. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
My tire burst while I was driving along a provincial road. Good thing it was along a populated area dotted with vulcanizing shops. And they were still open even if it’s Christmas Eve.
Good thing the vulcanizing shop is nearby or else I would have to change the heavy tires myself. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Good thing also that it didn’t happen while I was driving at 90 kmph along the expressway! God knows what would have happened to me.
Small tire shop still open. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
And when I reached my hometown, it was just pure luck that I chanced upon this small tire shop that was about to close for Christmas Eve. I bought two new 205s for the front and had the old front wheels transferred at the back. The lone old back wheel was demoted as a spare tire.
The last time I had a tire issue was last year when we went to Anilao in August. At that time I didn’t make it an issue that J left me to do all the work under the rain.
I was soaking wet.
Looking back I don’t know if he knows how to change tires or he just really didn’t care. I was hurt at that time but I didn’t want to dwell on it because I needed to function. I HAD NO MORE HEADSPACE for such things at that time.
Anyway, after my business with the tires today, I got home ate a very late lunch (at 3 pm) and slept. It was a tiring ordeal.
My mom’s Christmas decor. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Obviously they don’t have a cat.
Speaking of J, I had a strange dream him about him this morning before I woke up at 9:30 am. We were in my bed in my room here in my mom’s house. When my mom opened my door, she asked me in a plain curious way why J is still here. I couldn’t explain. I was searching for good excuses but I couldn’t come up with any.
When I woke up, I ruminated over it. It was probably my subconsciousness asking my rational self why is J still dwelling in me. And I couldn’t come up with any explanation other than the obvious. Then I calmly told my rational self that I will get over him in due time. I’m still fixing myself. This time last year I was a zombie who couldn’t sleep. Nowadays I sleep too much and I’m feeling so much better than 12 months ago. I was playing music tonight and sang for almost 3 hours. (Although my younger sister said I have so much pent up emotions to be able to sing for 3 hrs straight).
Am I still angry? I don’t know. I can’t hold on to anger and I don’t know who should I be angry at. Him? I have already accepted that he’s not a nice person. Am I angry with myself for ignoring that fact and that I have many flaws that’s why he was like that to me? I shouldn’t be hard on myself. It’s not my fault. ⬅️ I’m still coming to terms with this.
However, I do hope he’s having a nice Christmas, wherever he is.
I love hams (jamón in Spanish or hamon in Tagalog spelling). Not the canned kind; it’s the one that people had painstakingly cured for some months. Every Christmas since the Spanish colonial period, well-to-do Filipinos make jamón as the centerpiece of the noche buena (“evening of goodness”, which is Christmas Eve), kinda like the turkey for the American thanksgiving. It is served after the misa de gallo (Catholic midnight mass) and the whole family (or rather the extended family) would gather in the comedor (“dining room).
This tradition has been passed down to us and I remember there were lean times when we were kids and didn’t have the jamón and my lolo (abuelo in Spanish; grandfather) would just cook his legendary American Southern fried chicken (he used to be a cook in the US in the 1920s or 30s). I would only taste jamón during Christmas that’s why I’m so fond of it. It evokes Christmases in Batangas, where my parents are from, and later on Christmases spent in my hometown after my grandparents had passed. Jamón reminded me of the times I would go home from Manila for Christmas and go AWOL after Dec 16 and only reappear in our office after Jan 2. I would make ham sandwiches to take to my room while I reread the entire Lord of the Rings book set, including Silmarillion and The Hobbit for a week or less.
Not all jamóns are created equal. The Filipino hamon is the sweet kind given the Filipinos’ propensity for sweet food. It’s cured in wet brine with other spices. Then it is brushed and baked or boiled in azucar or brown sugar (especially in sugar plantation areas of Central Philippines or Western Visayas) or pineapple juice. I heard some people smoke it.
Meanwhile, my mom’s favorite is the Chinese ham. She told me of her good memories of when they were young, my lolo would bring home a whole hind leg of pork that he cured in salt and some spices and dried for months. And he would hang it over the stove to be smoked and he would cut small pieces of it for them to eat slowly. For this type of ham, I think I like the local Chinese ham by Majestic and Excelente. I remember bringing home one entire leg of ham and my mother enjoyed every bite of it.
But the best one, which Jeffrey Steingarten even waxed lyrical about, is the jamón Iberico. After I gorged myself with it with some red and white wine and tapas in one Aboitiz party (where I think all the Spanish families of the Philippines congregated for one night), I have concluded it is the best tasting ham there is. And the most expensive.
The most expensive ham (Jamon Iberico de bellota) since a leg of this costs USD 4,500. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Jamon Iberico has some salt to it but it is faint. It is cut very thinly, almost paper-like, for you to taste its gentle but complex flavor. Other people may mistake it for prosciutto but the latter is too salty. Jamon Iberico can stand on its own without cheese and toast when you’re drinking wine before dinner.
I may be committing a crime here but I ate my jamon Iberico de bellota with rice for today’s brunch (I was so hungry!) I couldn’t drink wine and I had to give some bottles away so I had the jamon with C2 tea (OK, you can nail me to the cross now).
Brunch of jamon Iberico on rice, Korean side dishes and veggie salad.
It was lovely, lovely, lovely.
For dinner tonight, I heated on my tamagoyaki pan some slices of Filipino hamon to make ham sandwiches for dinner and brunch for tomorrow before I drive off to my hometown to spend the Christmas with my family sans the twins.
Speaking of diving off, my car ripped me off again. I had to have my clutch/water pump fan changed and have new blades installed this evening or else my engine would overheat and my compressor would need to work double time. My old clutch fan was already freewheeling, hence, it was no longer efficient and providing cool air for my diesel engine.
Don’t mind the scratch; the deed was done a long time ago. Phoyo by CallMeCreation.com
After I’m done with my tiny house’s construction, my next project will be a new car. A roomy car that can take three folding bikes and a tent.
I have received beer–a lot of it–for Christmas this year. The ironic thing here is I can’t drink anymore (alprazolam + escitalopram + alcohol = intoxication) or else I may end up like Dolores O’Riordan drowning in a bathtub. I have more than a dozen bottles of craft beer (such a shame) and this two dozen beer cans. And a couple more I gave away.
I can’t give this to my brother since he has gout and does not really drink. My sister will get the craft beer as she and her high school friends will have their annual get together on the 30th. I will give this Brew Kettle to my high school friends/talk show co-hosts/ex-band mates. They are laughing at me now because I used to drink a lot with them before and here I am giving away alcohol without partaking. FB Memories reminded me of Dec 20, 2009 and we were in a bar in our hometown and they were serving wicked mixed cocktails in a glass vase and we all drank from the same vase and pitcher. Yes, pitcher. Obviously COVID is yet to be a thing. We were so hammered then.
I partied hard in my younger years. We used to bar hop a lot before and what I loved to do on weekends is to hear rock bands play live in bars. My bestfriends and I (when they still worked here in Manila) went to Xaymaca because some friends played there.
Now my guy high school friends couldn’t imagine me mellowing like this in our 40s, sewing during evenings and weekends 😂
At least I can look back and say, I did all that and still came out decent and somewhat successful. 🤣 We grow up and mature but we are still essentially the same goofy people that we were.