Raison d’ etre

Angono, Rizal. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

There are reasons why you have people in your life, even though they may have just lingered for just a bit and flew away. Once you have realized what those reasons are, maybe it’s a bit easier to let them go.

As my friend said:

Someone once told me to try to just leave it to fate. If magkikita kayo, then magkikita. If hindi na, hindi na…itapon sa langit.

(Someone once told me to try to just leave it to fate. If you will meet again, then you will meet again somehow. If not, then…you throw it back to heaven)

So itapon na lang sa langit (so will I just throw it back to heaven)?

All wrong

Everything about this set-up on my staircase landing is all wrong. The shelf is off-center and it’s sloping (shoddy work from a carpenter). But it doesn’t matter, my Totoro collection is still cute anyway.

Virtual Reality games at The Garage

I brought my girls to City of Dreams Manila this week to try the new virtual reality (VR) games by Bandai Namco at The Garage.

Because they are already bored to death at home.

But this adventure was not cheap. For PHP 450 per person/game. What was I thinking?!

The girls were allowed to play Mario Kart since they could already reach the pedals. Much to their dismay, they couldn’t play the ski VR game as they were too short to reach the ski handles and too light to turn the skis using their body weight.

I tried all games, including that horrrible Hospital Escape Terror VR game. 😭 More of that later.

Mario Kart was fun but was too short. 😣 You can play as Mario, Luigi, Princess Toadstool, and another character that sounded like Japanese. The goal there is to be the first player to reach the finish line through fire, water, cliffs, and what-have-you. You have King Koopa to foil your attempts at winning first place.

With the help of VR sensors strapped on your hands and wrists, you can grab bananas, hammers, and turtles to throw or hit your competitors with to slow them down.

I got disoriented with the foot pedals because I am a stick shift driver, ergo, I use my right foot to slam on the accelerator and brakes. My brain is wired to use my left foot for the clutch and NOT the brake.

Or I’m just making excuses because I sucked at Mario Kart. (who fails Mario Kart???)

The most fun part of this game is when I jumped off cliffs and needed to use a hang glider. It really felt like I was flying (or I may just be whoozy due to lack of sleep and hunger that time😜).

As for the ski game, all I can say is I am a terrible skier. If it was in real life, I would have ended up dead within a few minutes after strapping myself onto the skis. I keep flying off cliffs, ravines, and down into abysses.

Now for the Hospital Escape Terror

I will never ever try that game again in my entire life. Ever. 🤬

Only a minute into the game I was already having panic attacks and I could feel vomit coming up to my throat. That game is so claustrophobic and felt real that my heart was palpitating like crazy.

The goal of the game is to get out of the hospital alive within 9 minutes (and it seemed like forever), which was impossible given that hospital is filled with crazy creatures thirsty for blood while you are strapped to a wheelchair. And you only have a flashlight on your hand.

I really couldn’t go through it. Screw PHP 450, I would rather not risk having a full-blown panic attack. Judging from the screams of terror from the other players before me, my decision to quit the game was wise or else I would have died of a heart attack. For real.

Little by little

My home is taking shape, little by little. I will be filling up this wall with paitings to make up for the sparse furnishings.

I’m still figuring out where to put this.

I also made a reading nook/hideaway for my girls in one huge closet in my room.

With a sizeable bookshelf above.

And my girls put up their own wall decorations to personalize their space.

I have all the time in the world to make this apartment my own. No rush. It has to be just right.

Dying day

I love sunsets. They are a reminder that even a chapter closes, another one opens.

I may not know what will come my way but I am sure that He will always have my back. What I have been through the past months had been tough but I will definitely come out stronger and wiser.

I am stumbling. I am weak. But I can always pick up myself and continue fighting. I need to survive.