If only Youtube was accessible then…

My father would have been spending his final days drinking all these concerts. He would have been watching the lost clips of The Beatles, Everly Brothers and Simon and Garfunkel. He would have been discovering NPR Tiny Desk Concerts. He would be watching Sting’s versatility with the guitars and listening to his voice that doesn’t seem to age.

He would have been watching with me live concerts that were inaccessible to us before Youtube came along. Youtube was founded a few months before he died in 2005. Internet speed then was barely 512kbps; the videos would have been forever buffering. That would have pissed him off.

Our love for music came from my father. People always told me that he went around town with a guitar strapped to him. He was part of a “combo”, or in today’s language, a band. One of the reasons why my mother went nuts over him. When we were growing up, we were always surrounded by music. I remember he and my brother made some huge DIY wooden speakers (which looked like the cahon (beatbox used in acoustic performances). They put together our sound system that involved amplifiers, microphones, and cords. Meters and meters of cords. Tape decks. He justified the expense by saying that I kept on joining singing contests that’s why we needed those (LOL!).

One time when we were in high school, at the height of alt-pop rock and grunge, my younger sister learned the guitar. She asked if she could have one. That afternoon my father came home with a guitar on his back. He just needed an excuse to buy himself a new guitar because he smashed the last one we had. All first three children had piano lessons but I was the only one who stuck with it for a couple of years. We three girls played in a rondalla (originally from medieval Spain) in elementary school. My younger sister and I played the 14-string bandurria while my older sister played the guitar. I can also play the 12-string octavina. Playing those were brutal on my fingers that I had very thick callouses for years. Tuning these things every time we played was a pain. 14 strings! And almost every other week the number “0” string would snap and I often had to go to the store and stock up. Because of that I learned to string these instruments. I can string a guitar! I also learned how to tune strings by ear without those electronic devices that most people use nowadays.

So when my girls picked up the ukelele, it was easy for me to learn it (in just one night) and I know how tune it (hello Youtube!).

I was always at the piano when I still lived there. My neighbors suffered whenever I learned a piece by oido (Spanish for “by ear”) because I would repeat and repeat the song until I got it right. I have little patience for learning a song by reading notes because published transcriptions came too late and I wanted to learn the latest song that caught my ear as soon as possible. Learning the power chords was invaluable. I have yet to master the diminished and augmented chords but I no longer have the time and patience.

When I left my parents’ home, I lost my access to a piano. It was only in 2016-ish i was able to buy myself a Roland keyboard as I promised myself I would. Now my problem is timing because I have neighbors and I have to be conscious of their working/waking hours…

I wish Youtube existed then for my father. He would have been like me now, drowning in concerts.


We weren’t able to ride our bikes yesterday because it rained hard but we were back on the saddle this late afternoon because I was already unproductive.

Lonely bench. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Stray cats around Vinsons Hall. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Ordering macha and milktea near Bahay ng Alumni. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
We stopped by the Carillon Tower to drink our tea before riding back home. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I won’t be able to bike tomorrow since I would be doing some grocery shopping. My freezer is already empty.

Missing this

UP Sunken Garden. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Rode our bikes again today but this time we went straight to UP and we stopped for a bit at the academic oval to listen to the birds whistling, chirping, calling to each other. People are still not allowed here but we bikers could, only for a bit, when we pass by School of Economics and College of Educ and turn right at Asian Center to go to the old Shopping Center and then to the old tennis court.

It was so eerie and yet beautiful. The absence of humans is unnerving but mesmerizing.

After a sip of water from our bottles, my daughter and I went straight to buy our veggies at the old tennis court. Because we are running low on veggies. I can’t seem to stock up on a lot of it that would last us a week because I have a small refrigerator. And since I was able to fix the clogged tubes in my fridge, it is now perfectly working and really cold, hence, I no longer have an excuse to buy me the Hitachi or Panasonic fridge. So I must shop frequently for veggies.

I have another bag of veggies at my pannier rack at the back. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Hmm I wonder if I can fit a tent, sleeping bag, and pannier for food and camping stove on my pannier rack 🤔 Then cooking utensils in my bag at the handlebars. 🤔🤔🤔 Minimal clothes and toiletries on my backpack.

The question is, can I bike to my camping destination? 😂

Back again

National Science Complex. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I was writing this piece that has been in writing purgatory for weeks… and glanced at the watch above my speaker that said it was already 4:00 pm but I still haven’t had lunch.

Then daughter asked if we could go biking. I glanced at my flabby tummy and as much as I want to lie down and rest my exploding head, I acquiesced that I needed the exercise.

By past 5 pm we were already on our saddles. We first cycled our way through almost all the streets in our village. By 6 pm-ish (I think), we biked our way into UP through one of the side gates and went to the National Science Complex.

Taking a water break. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I missed this place. There’s still this twitch inside my gut, somewhere deep down, as this place holds bittersweet memories. But I’m better now, I think. For now. When we stopped by the benches, I took in the view and I felt… I don’t know, probably a mix of nostalgia and wistfulness. There’s a perfect word that embodies those feelings but it escapes me now.

I’ve come to love this place since it’s secluded and peaceful. And it’s where we found our kitties.

Free to run. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

There was also a family there with little kids with their bikes but that was it. We had the place to ourselves. I laid on one of the concrete benches there and stared at the sky that was already turning orange grey. I listened to the chirping birds flitting from one branch to another. Then the cicadas took over, signalling to us that we should be heading back home.

We had a good exercise; we got home at 7 pm. ✅ calories burned ✅ fresh air ✅ a way to get out of the house without having to be near another human being.

We’re going back there on weekend and we may bring snacks and we’ll see if we can lay down on the grass or the benches and stare up at the clear sky.

Wrong kind of Asian

A friend from way, way back was seeking my professional advice (via Zoom) how she could jumpstart her business development work for an advisory firm in Singapore since my job runs alongside hers. I am very familiar with her line of work even though she is in the legal sector. I gave her the step by step how she should do the three prongs under her departments. (Maybe I should do this for a living 🤔)

Long story short, she told me she was getting a lot of resistance from her subordinates, like they don’t believe in her. She had to assert herself to her subordinates and told that she is a lawyer, a CPA, and and MBA holder who graduated from one of Singapore’s top schools and that she has every right to be in that firm.

I told her the ugly truth: Singaporeans look down on Filipinos and they think you should not have been in your position. Then I saw in her face that it finally dawned on her what that was all about. Like it finally made sense to her why she is receiving this kind of hostility from rank and file staff. They only view us as maids and office cleaning ladies. I get that all the time, I told her. And if I tell them I am Filipino, they would insist I must be part Chinese. An ex-colleague in Hong Kong said the same. Then a Singaporean challenged me, my editing, my English… I just let it go. She didn’t last because she couldn’t cope.

So I told my friend that is the reason why I always had to assert myself, that I am as good, if not better, than others. Most Filipinos in our big company (there were only a handful of us) are not just rank and file; in fact we hold key positions. The head for Asia Pacific (before she left last year) was Filipino and we were contemporaries when we were still with local media. We almost had the same background. We are not mediocre. And when an editor from far away accused me of plagiarism because she could not believe an Asian, much less a Filipino, could write very well in English–and a technical finance article at that–I pushed back. I didn’t back down and gave a good fight. It reached headquarters and in the end she had to apologize to me.

As I wrote here before, J did not understand the hierarchy even among Southeast Asians. That we are the wrong kind of Asians so we always get the shorter end of the stick. I told J before that he won’t feel it because he is the “right” kind of Asian.

So I told this friend that she has to brace herself (she’s new in SG and her entire year she was at the university where the environment is more forgiving) because she will get a lot of that treatment so she has to fight her way through.

I guess I also have to fight my way through all the time.

Because Saturdays

Because Saturdays are for bento and leftovers. Clockwise: leftover Century tuna recycled into sauteed tuna salad, thin scrambled eggs sliced into noodle strips, blanched salted spinach with sesame oil and seeds, and seasoned rice with dried seaweed. Dividers are dried seaweed. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Soybean paste soup with rehydrated kelp, soft tofu, enoki mushrooms. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

We didn’t go out today because I tried fixing and cleaning my six-year-old LG refrigerator. And it took all my energy and it knocked me out by 2:30 pm. It was leaking again so I guess one of the drain tubes got clogged again, same as last year. I tried contacting the repairman but he never responded. So I took matters into my own hands and tried to do what that guy told me to do when this happens again.

As of this hour it hasn’t leaked yet so yey for that. If my fix didn’t address the issue in the coming days, then I guess I have to make that trip to Anson’s in Cash and Carry Makati and buy that Hitachi fridge. If not the Panasonic one.

I need a bigger freezer since we make fridge cakes and ice cream at home.

I read in an FB group about money saving hacks that you can go to Anson’s in Cash and Carry to haggle the sticker price if you pay cash and if you ask nicely ( for a manager’s discount). I know enterprises need to push out inventory as fast as they could and if inventory doesn’t move in xx days/months, they’re losing money. The brands I’m going for are not as popular as Condura/Samsung/LG so I can try my luck. If I can bring it down by PHP 5,000 then I’m good.

Meanwhile, I also need to visit a paint center and check if I can match the color of my closets, which is close to between light blue and Tiffany Blue. Because cats. I patched the scratches with filler but that means I need to cover the wood-colored filler with paint. If I can’t match it, then I would have to sand everything, put a primer, and paint it with teal or light blue.

I’m keeping myself busy so I don’t live inside my head. It’s the most dangerous thing for me these days. If a raw nerve gets plucked, just like last week, it results into basura days.


The IATF has now allowed children above 5 years old to go outdoors but not in malls, restaurants, or any enclosed space. Which is the right thing to do because Indonesia is suffering the consequences of their lax rules.

We still can’t go back to Anilao because the danger of Taal Volcano spewing ash all over the province is high and it could happen any time. We’re waiting for the big one again, just like in January last year. Resorts in Anilao and elsewhere in Batangas had shut down. Right now we’re in Alert No. 3, some communities have already been evacuated.

I’m racking my brain with things that we can do so we don’t go stir crazy and the kids won’t be glued to their computers all the time. Camping is a bit iffy these days given the monsoon rains.

After four months

Sunset and sunflowers. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

We were able to go biking inside UP this afternoon after four months! I missed being in wide open spaces. I even missed shopping in that vegetable stall at the old tennis court.

Veggies and fruits. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I can say they’re a lot cheaper than the stalls lining CP Garcia Ave. This sackful of veggies and fruits would have been PHP 1,000 there or at the supermarket but I was able to get these for PHP 200 less. And the volume is more than the usual.

Car-free. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I had let my daughter, Twin I, bike freely here. It has been a long time since she biked without having to worry about cars. I did some brisk walking. We tried biking to some parts of the campus but it was already dark.

Another day is dying. Photo by CallMeCreation.com