Missing persons

The president of the Philippines is nowhere to be found. Insiders say he is abroad for a secret holiday. He left last Friday while Mindanao was drowning. He really doesn’t fucking care. Then he appeared in a Zoom meeting at 2 pm when Mindanao is already underwater and Metro Manila is hammered by strong winds and rain. If he was in the country, he should be in the meeting in person!

Then his disinformation team published photos of him allegedly in Ilocos. These people 🤦🏻‍♀️…The devastation is south!!! Why the heck would the people care if he’s in Ilocos?!

Well it doesn’t even matter. We just want to show the people who voted for him that he doesn’t fucking care. NO EFFORT ON THE GROUND. No plans whatsoever.

Meanwhile, his VP is equally incompetent. Just sent thoughts and prayers and is also nowhere to be found.

Nobody is leading the recovery efforts, nobody is being an adult in the room.

In contrast, the president of South Korea convened an emergency meeting just HOURS after the Itaewon tragedy. Late President Noynoy Aquino cut his official overseas trip short when a similar catastrophe happened.

God, I’m so tired of this situation.

I really, really envy Brazil right now. Lula won over Bolsonaro—kicking out a far-right madman who had plunged Brazil into chaos at the height of the Covid pandemic and caused more damage to the Amazon rainforest. Of course, Bolsonaro came into power with the help of disinformation and social media.

I’m cooling down my anger with some bubbly, savoring the last two days of my holiday. I only have tomorrow to sleep as much as I can before I get inundated again with work.

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Then I need to drive back to my hometown to deliver my range hood and check the progress of my house this coming Friday. Stay the night there then drive back to NAIA to fetch the girls in the evening.

But I don’t have to think about this yet. I should enjoy the last 24 hours of my holiday. Today I just slept again, cooked one meal, and spent most of my time horizontal on my bed.

Romantic time alone

Power out. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This is a dreadful time to romanticize my life but yep, I did. So everyone is gone so it’s just me and the cats. I’m not apologizing for sleeping most of the day. The power went out at around 4 pm. I reported a power transformer explosion incident (which sounded like it) to Meralco and after 4 hours, power was restored despite the inclement weather. Kudos to the linesmen of Meralco for doing repairs round-the-clock.

Cats sleeping on my dried laundry. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I didn’t bother cooking. I just cooked rice in the rice cooker and had cold cuts. Slept and cuddled with the cats.

And of course social media is so toxic today. The whole of Mindanao is flooded. Children have died in Maguindanao and Cotabato. Farmlands and homes are flattened. Then people—opposition and admin–have the gall to quarrel online.

I had to express my disbelief and anger at the callousness of people:

There are members of the pink movement who are toxic. They said they will not help because Cotabato is red, Mindanao is red. You know, this kind of attitude and noise alienate the people who we must convince that they made a wrong choice.

Yes, we are tired of the stupidity of the electorate but this is not the time for hubris. Help but then we demand accountability from those who are in power. That’s how we turn the tide.

A revolution is not an overnight thing. It is a long and slow build up.

Don’t be myopic.

And I keep sharing this call for donations because Community Pantry PH still couldn’t raise enough money for relief. I also donated whatever meager resources I have right now. Tomorrow I will check Angat Buhay HQ or Ateneo if they need volunteers or what other resources they need. I need buy a cavan of rice and boxes of ready-to-eat food.

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We all know that the government is incompetent so we do what we can. We need to educate the electorate and wean them away from social media that is propagating lies and disinformation that allowed the Marcoses to be in power. And here the asshat himself is asking why the Mindanao tragedy happened. Damn you, cretin! What parallel universe are you living in?

To answer this from a more educated standpoint, I shared with a veteran journo why PAGASA’s storm warnings were not heeded by people on the ground:

My sister’s PhD dissertation on climate change mentions the localization, not only of the language, but also of the concepts introduced/reported by disaster mitigation agencies so it’s not PAGASA’s burden alone. It needs close coordination of MDRRMC, PDRRMC and National DRRMC. PHIVOLCS under Punongbayan and Solidum explained it in a paper very well (I think I have posted it here on FB) that’s how they were able to save lives during Pinatubo eruption. Disaster mitigation agencies should have good comms people so important information are dispatched immediately to local government units. I learned when I was communicating with some of these agencies, they don’t have budget for proper comms or even training. Communication in such agencies are just afterthought. Last time I had talked to them, they were arranging a training under UPLB CDC. Not sure if this pushed through. The science may be right but cascading it down to the grassroots is a whole different story. Before Yolanda (Typhoon Haiyan), how do we even explain and localize the concept of “storm surge”? “It is like a tsunami,” is the default answer. But how do you localize tsunami and the idea of it? How do you localize 500 mm of rainfall? Mass media plays a major role in this one. But mass communication is not enough to move people, it is the local targeted comm that moves them.

I didn’t mention that I was the one arranging the communication training of PAGASA with my undergrad college and I was already talking to the dean of the graduate school (who happened to be my sister in my Greek-letter organization) of my undergrad campus about the needs assessment and the curriculum for the training. It all started two years ago with a Twitter discussion on science communication (my undergrad specialization) and disaster mitigation communications and/or the failure/lack of it. Then somebody from PAGASA reached out to me on Twitter asking for help regarding this one. One thing led to another. This couldbe a working dissertation for me if I were to pursue my PhD. My Greek-letter sis and another friend who used to be the chairperson of my grad school in UPD and I were discussing about writing a proposal about this, which could be extended for my PhD—if I I suddenly go crazy and think of going back to school.

I’m big on communication campaigns and grassroots communication and how it can mobilize science into something practicable.

10 hours after, my cats are still like this. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

All in all, I became stressed with all these Twitter exchanges with toxic people.

So what do you do on Friday nights?

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Well, I’m trying to save my own ass by attending a safety workshop for Filipino journalists because they’re killing us literally.

It’s supposed to be 5 days of safety training (physical, digital, and mental) but since we’re all working, we will have this staggered. There are so many important things to discuss, we couldn’t fit it into a one-night session. We arrived at a consensus that when one journo gets a death threat, we should all make noise and amplify it, write stories about it—for our own safety. Because we’re brushing off threats, one journo was just picked up at the airport in Mindanao by the police and got detained for the wrong reasons. 🤦‍♀️ Many violations were committed with her arrest and she wasn’t even given a chance to have a lawyer. 😤 Then Percy Lapid was killed and this government has turned it into a shitshow.

This is exactly the reason why we should all be on our toes.

I’ve met some former students there at the workshop and I’m glad that they’re very active in journalists’ causes. One of them wanted me to go back to teaching because only a few practitioners are mentoring new blood. I said I had to give up teaching because checking papers was a nightmare.

This morning I drove the girls to the airport.

We waited for their aunt to come out of immigration so we stayed at the parking area of Terminal 1 before picking her up at the arrival bay. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Then we rushed to T2 because their flight to Cebu was moved two hours earlier. But then because of the typhoon, their flight got pushed back later than their original departure time 😑

After I dropped them off, I went to MC Home Depot at BGC, which was a futile exercise. My contractor was not happy with the water pressure pump and pressure tank there so I proceeded to Wilcon Depot along C5.

They say this is good enough pressure and tank size for a 2nd storey bathroom and kitchen sink.
I think this is too much. They said this is good enough pressure for a 3-4 storey house. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Still, my contractor said he needs to check the specs. So I moved on to buying a range hood.

I bought this Rinnai range hood because its fan is metal, unlike the others which use plastic fans. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Plus it’s low maintenance. I only need to degrease the stainless steel filter. Others need carbon filters or papers. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Even though it’s single motor, the thing is huge and the suction was strong. The air pushed out of the vent was equally powerful. There’s also a cup at next to the fan that will trap oil and grease. I only needed to wash it every now and then.

I paid 9k for this one even when the 4-5k ones are already decent. But this Rinnai is low-maintenance so I gladly forked out 5-4k more. I don’t want a plastic fan dying on me soon.

I also checked out Rinnai ranges as well.

I also stopped by Tiendesitas today for cat supplies. I bought my kitties a new toy that they’re enjoying now.

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Photo by CallMeCreation.com

When I got home, my neighbor gave me some of the deliveries that they received on my behalf since no one was home. Some friends sent me boxes of charcuterie for my birthday. 🥰

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Yum. Breakfast tomorrow 🤣

I evaded the MandaramBong

I was too early. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I arrived early at the conference today because 1) I wanted to do ambush interviews so I can go home and avoid Marcos; 2) I didn’t read the program 😂

I really did it. I wore pink accessories in silent protest. The Leni R watch was very obvious.

Pink!

I had four interviews, four stories, and a follow-up interview. Not bad.

I left the venue right after lunch so I won’t have to suffer Marcos.

Went to Ikea to 1) eat at the cafe and write my stories; 2) buy household stuff that I neglected to buy a long time ago. Their shipping rate of PHP 300 for small items is too much so might as well go there when I have coverage nearby. I almost carted off a kitchen sink and ceiling lamps 🤣. I need to check first with my contractor.

This! I hate this! Photo by CallMeCreation.com

It took more than an hour to get home. Geez.

Twin I’s results came back: Bilateral ethmoid sinusitis. Congested nasal turbinates.

The pediatrician already gave me Rx for it yesterday, as she anticipated.

What’s curious is that Twin I also has aplastic left frontal sinus, which I hope is just a developmental issue that will correct over time. But then I have to wait for what the doctor will say. The rest of her sinuses are intact, the report said.

Her hematology results are normal except for her RBC count, which is above normal. If I got it right, she couldn’t breathe, hence the low O2 level. Which could be traced to her congested nose.

Her prothrombin time test is normal, so blood clotting is normal. Her nose bleeding could be traced back to her undetected sinusitis that irritates her nose and causes too much mucus production. When it dries up, my girl picks her nose vigorously and there you go—bleeding. 😑 So just like the pediatrician said, her membranes might be thinner than normal.

Tired. Need to pick up Rockwool insulation/soundproofing tomorrow and deliver to the construction site. And write two more stories before I bounce off to my week-long vacation.

I’m so angry I could tear a bull with my bare hands

If I didn’t go crazy before my APAC boss this afternoon and subtly threatened that I would go to the competitor if the company goes with its 6-month contract bullshit for non-office-based employees, she wouldn’t push the red button in London. Ghaaaad. Some calls and emails later, the global head said that there were some fuck-ups in HR that’s why our contracts were flagged again.

Ignore, she said.

I hate doing that to my APAC boss because she’s nice but my goodness, I need to stand up for myself and the rest of my team. I am underpaid compared to my peers in other news orgs. I am just sticking with this one because I like working from home, especially critical now that I am building my house and moving away from the city.

Let me just finish my house and I will revisit my options. I need to play hardball; if they would touch again our contracts, then I will have to ask for a much higher rate because the terms would be changed. The amount of work and the stress they are giving me should be compensated.


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I was so incensed today that I procrastinated. My brain refused to function so I did a quick sketch to relax me.

I really, really need that week-long break. I’m already too tensed, my patience is running thin.

My gear for urban sketching.

Doing the new color swatches relaxed me, too. I removed the student-grade Tokyo Finds watercolors and left the higher grade ones from the same brand, with Winsor & Newton and Holbein thrown in the mix. I wanted to go to ArtWhale this afternoon to buy more half-pans but I had to bring Twin I to the polyclinic nearby to have her checked.

At the nurses’ station at 2ndF, waiting for Twin I’s name to be called to the pediatrician’s office. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Her temperature was elevated but I refused to administer the antigen test because she has sensitive nostrils = ridiculous nosebleeds. She was frequently urinating. So the pediatrician recommended some lab tests to check for UTI and also to check the cause of her severe nosebleeds (she lets out a lot of fresh blood, like lots). She had her nose X-rayed to check for polyps.

Waiting for our turn at the x-ray room. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Then she would be referred to an ENT specialist if there are polyps. She surmised—as a nosebleeder herslf—that Twin I has sinusitis that’s why she always has mucus in her nostrils. Later it hardens and then my girl frequently picks her nose to remove the hardened mucus, then irritates her thin membrane in the process, causing her nose to bleed. She saw that her nostrils were inflamed.

Anyway, lab test results would be out tomorrow but I would be attending this huge conference in Manila so I need to leave here at 6:30 am. Because the presidential security group will close the doors of the hotel promptly at 9 am—for security. BECAUSE DAMN THESE BUSINESSMEN, THEY INVITED MARCOS AS GUEST SPEAKER.

I don’t know how I can stand to be in the same room with this demon. He who wanted the people in EDSA strafed during the 1986 uprising. He who milked this country of billions when he was a senator and I was part of the investigative team who tackled the pork barrel case for my news org. I still have the photos of the evidence submitted to the anti-graft court in 2013.

I must shove my earbuds down my ear canal to block out his voice during his speech, which would be drivel anyway.

Ah I need to sleep now. Long day tomorrow.

EXHAUSTING

Why Philippines? Why are you just accepting this? Why are you condoning the Marcoses’ and the Dutertes’ excesses and you let yourself suffer like this? Why??? My heart bleeds. I think I will die heartbroken because you let yourself be enslaved by your stupidity.

It’s really exhausting if I absorb everything that I see and read. I know it’s such a privilege to turn my head away and pretend these things don’t happen. But sometimes doing so is necessary for my mental health, especially today when I read that a former Supreme Court justice who is now the new Executive Secretary defending Marcos’ wastage of public funds (bringing along bloggers and other hangers on) to watch F1 in Singapore. I want to remind Mr. Bersamin that there is a law that prohibits government officials from using public funds or whatever from doing such thing/s. Singapore has been holding F1 for so many years but no sitting Philippine president has accepted the invitation of the Singapore government because 1) they know the law; 2) it is blasphemy to waste public funds (or even private money because the public perception is bad) on such frivolous things when the country has just emerged from a natural calamity and the citizens could barely eat , with the latest inflation rate is at 6.9%.

Oh yes, we’re back to Marcos-era macroeconomic situation = stagnant growth, high inflation (called stagflation), weak currency, and FDIs are disappearing.

I’m angry but I’m tired of being angry. Maybe living in my hometown will help me tame my anger. Maybe the trees and absence of air pollution will calm my very busy mind. Maybe regular cycling around my hometown and nearby towns would help ease the tension I often harbor because I get affected by macro and micro news, about things that I have no control over. More frequent visits to the sea to dive or Lake Caliraya to camp will remind me of the little things that make living here worthwhile.

I no longer know how to use my platform, my pen (keyboard) to help change the situation. They’re killing journalists like me and they will continue doing that. They have already killed ABS-CBN. Now they’re silencing individual media workers.

I don’t know how long I can take this with my sanity intact.

Let me just do my indoor exercises first so I can ruminate. Maybe my pent-up fury can be expended by dumb bell lifts.


I still have a long way to go. Long, long way to go.