Inside the walls

To start the day, I cooked egg fried rice (with dried seaweed and Vienna sausage) and special egg drop soup for us.

Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com

We didn’t bring our bikes to Intramuros because 1) it was going to rain; 2) it was too hot. We first went to Fort Santiago because it was the nearest spot near our parking area. When you’re in Intramuros, you go on foot because parking areas are few and far between so better stay where you are parked. I covered the Department of Finance for years and the Bureau of Treasury was just right there, plus my old newspaper’s office was just spitting distance so I know how hard it is to find parking space there. I was always in danger of being towed by the Manila Traffic officers everyday when I parked around the area.

Anyway, it was a lovely afternoon to visit so I can help my kids strengthen their Araling Panglipunan (Social Studies) knowledge without using rote learning system, plus I want them to see two of the oldest churches in Manila.

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I think the last time I was here was a decade ago when my mom received an award and the ceremony was held here.

The moat that demarcates the ancient/pre-hispanic fort of the old rajah of Manila. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
One day I will have the patience to sketch this. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
The old supplies warehouse of the Spanish military. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Rajah Sulayman Theater (the old military school and where the prison cell of Jose Rizal was located). Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Media Naranja (“half orange”), the top of the most gruesome dungeons I’ve seen. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Media Naranja is also the area where the ships of the Galleon trade (Manila-Mexico) stopped, if I got it right. If you look down through grills of this courtyard, you will see the prison cells below. It was an inhumane prison because there were openings on the side that allowed the water from Pasig River to flow through when the tide was high. The prisoners would be soaked, if they were lucky. If there was a storm, they would drown.

Fort Santiago fell into the hands of the Japanese and Media Naranja was where 600 Filipino and American prisoners of war were found, already decomposing.

Underneath this cross is the mass grave of the 600 prisoners of war left to die in the dungeons. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This is the first time I’ve seen the dungeons after 1987 when we had a field trip here. The last time I was here in Media Naranja was when I was with my cousins from the US but the dungeons were under construction because it was already crumbling so I wasn’t able to show them these.

The feeling I had when the girls and I entered the dungeons was similar to the one I had when I was in Corregidor in 2007. It was heavy. The air was oppressive, not just physically.

The tiny entrance to the dungeons. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Right off the bat, the heaviness was all around me. If you’re claustrophobic, better not go inside. It’s also eerie and macabre.

The cells of the prisoners. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

They had photographs of how the American military found the 600 decomposing prisoners when Manila was liberated from the Japanese.

Torture chambers. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I don’t know why this lady wants her photo taken with such gruesome reminder. 🙄 Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Tiny entrances and exits in the dungeons. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
You really have to squeeze through this exit to escape the heaviness of the area. Its aura was sad and dark.
View of Quezon Bridge atop the dungeons/Media Naranja
The stairs leading to the top of the walls. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

You can climb the walls of Fort Santiago and it was made that way for the guards to patrol the area. My mom told me it was where she and my father had their dates when they were in college 🤣. My father’s campus was south of Manila and my mom’s campus was north of Manila so this is some kind of halfway for them. When I told my kids this story, they were like, whaaaaat? Hahaha! The top of the walls were already made into a park but they couldn’t imagine how it looked like up there because they were too lazy to climb.

View of Manila Cathedral dome and the bell tower of San Agustin Church. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Resting first while watching pigeons do their synchronized flights. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Our Lady of Guadalupe Chapel within the walls of Fort Santiago. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Art installation (a cross) leading to Our Lady of Guadalupe. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

We walked out of Fort Santiago towards Manila Cathedral. I wasn’t able to get a good photo of the facade of the church that I can use to practice sketching parts of Intramuros.

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We couldn’t enter the church because the temperature reader registered my body heat at 37.5. I was so hot at that time and was sweating a lot, hence, the reading. The guard didn’t let me in. Oh well.

Just a glimpse. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

So in the classic Hispanic arrangement of plazas, adjacent to the church should be an administrator’s building. In this case, it was the Palacio del Gobernador, the residence of the Governor-General before an earthquake destroyed it in the 19th century. After that, the Spanish governor-general lived in Malacanang Palace along Pasig River and it has been the residence of whoever is the head of the Philippine government until today.

Palacio del Gobernador. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I know this building very well because it used to house the Bureau of Treasury (BTr) and I covered the Treasury bill auctions here every Monday and Wednesday—the event that determines the benchmark interest rates in the country. In 2018, BTr transferred to the Ayuntamiento de Manila (Manila City Hall), just right across the plaza after the reconstruction of the building was finished.

Ayuntamiento de Manila. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

They were able to reconstruct this well. It is very pretty inside and the last time I was here was in August 2018 when I hosted an economic briefing that was televised.

We no longer went to San Agustin Church because it was already late and it was about to rain. There’s always the next time. Rizal Museum was closed, as well as the other notable museums like Balay Tsinoy and Casa Manila because it’s Black Saturday. San Agustin Church also has its own museum. I also wanted to show the girls the old site of Ateneo de Manila and University of Santo Tomas but it was already getting dark and big fat raindrops were already pelting the windshield of my car.

While driving out of Intramuros, I showed the girls the old and present offices of the newspaper I used to work for. I told them Intramuros was like home to me for almost 6 years.

I drove along Roxas Boulevard and showed the girls where the notorious dolomite beach was. Then we proceeded to SM Mall of Asia because we needed to buy Twin A a new mattress since her current one is already giving her backaches because it was already sagging. I know that it was substandard because it was the foam that came with the bunk bed. The girls also wanted to buy something from SM Department store with their birthday money.

It was a nice day out.

Tomorrow later today, Easter Sunday, the girls will resume their review while I will be spending the entire day drawing or sleeping because Monday will be hectic with back-to-back-to-back calls.

Good, Good Friday

The carroza of the Santo Entierro (dead Jesus). Photo by CallMeCreation.com

We went to UP today because the girls finished late with their review. We didn’t have enough time to go to Intramuros before the sun sets, so we just decided to have long walks for exercise in UP–the nearest open space. Since today is Good Friday, we were just in time for the carroza procession of the statues of saints in black and the Santo Entierro (dead Jesus). Traditionally there would be a mass before 3 pm afterwhich the Catholic church will go dark after the last carroza enters the church gates after the procession.

We watched this kind of procession in Pampanga in 2019 when we went to see the actual crucifixion of a man, which aas his annual panata (pledge).

There, the long procession with the grieving Mary at my back. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
While my girls ran into the sunset. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Cris-crossed the UP Lagoon. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
And had their leisurely walk at the academic oval. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

They stationed themselves at the amphitheater while I had one lap around the oval to have my exercise.

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Then we stayed at Quezon Hall so I can do my stretchings until the sun went down.

Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Tonight they’re staying with their dad and will just come back in the morning to clean their bikes so we can drive to Intramuros or Baywalk and bike there.

My exercise was short so I continued my workout at home.

This is a reminder that I can still reach my foot from behind. More yoga please! Photo by CallMeCreation.com

My yoga mat is still dirty I ought to clean it tomorrow. But my freshly vacuumed bedroom floor will do for now.

More muscles! Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This is a love letter to myself (and my girls when they get to read this in the future), reminder that I should take care of my body not because I need to attract men but to make me feel good and to protect myself from non-communicable diseases. Diabetes runs in my family and my father died of diabetes complications. I don’t post such photos on social media but posting this on my nameless blog is like an accountability to myself and for my girls to read when I’m already gone.

So tomorrow, Sabado de Gloria, we clean and oil our bikes and off we go to the Old City to see old churches. All the saints’ statues and even the cross will be draped in black cloth until the Easter salubong (Mary Magdelene meeting the Risen Christ) at dawn.

My daughters’ day

11th year. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I just ordered stuff via Grab today so we can relax and we can attend to school work and my work. One of my good friends from the industry also sent the girls a cake, matcha strawberry.

This is for tomorrow. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Then they spent the rest of the day with their dad, who took them to Estancia Mall in Kapitlyo, Pasig. They came home in time for a shower and straight to bed.

The girls were happy. They’re easy to please and they don’t ask much. They’re happy with their bunnies and my sister offered to have them framed.

Twin I asked about their other twin sisters—the cats. They declared that their birthday is on the 12th of April 2020. So I said, Ok, I’m gonna make their sketches as well.

Kimchi, the fat cat. Art and Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Sushi. Art and Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Laziness has set in today because my body knew that this is supposed to be a week-long holiday…And yet I edited and interviewed somebody from Singapore whom I need to visit when I get there. I also set up an interview on Monday with an aviation company. I think I must draft today’s interview by tomorrow or else I may forget the details after this week. My brain cells are already protesting.

Tomorrow I will cook as my daughters’ friend is coming over.

My call with my new manager and outgoing manager will also be tomorrow for the turnover of duties. I don’t know when they will formally announce the transition so that all communication and PRs should be directed to me from now on. Drats, I just had 400 business cards printed with my old designation.

It takes a long time for paperwork to be settled 🙄

I want to have a week-long break before chaos officially starts.

Happy birthday to my twins!

Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

All my sacrifices to bring you where you are now are all worth it. I’m sorry if I let other people hurt you. Never again.

May you always be happy, God-fearing, and understanding. I love you to the moon and back.

In the depths of my depression, you were the only reason that kept me going and made me want to get better. You two made me a better person. I didn’t know the kind of strength that I had been hiding until you came along.

And when you have flown out of my nest, I hope you always find ways to come back home.

Love, Mommy.


Since this sketch is in my sketchbook, I scanned it and printed it on Kodak photo paper so both of them can have copies.

Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

And I left it on their desks so that’s the first thing they see in the morning.

Opium poppy

Opium poppy flowers. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I was searching for pretty purple flowers to paint for my mom and I came across opium poppy (Papaver somniferum) flowers. They are so pretty but illegal 🤣 So I would have to content myself with photos from livescience.com.

So here, side by side, the Ming dynasty version of an opium poppy flower and the 2022 (my) version. I guess what the Ming dynasty painter saw was the giant poppy so he used magenta (which I also used) and a combination of indigo.

Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I’m running out of frames again. Hahaha! I would have to order frames online. Seeing my improving watercolor drawings framed gives me a serotonin boost so it’s ok to spend that much on frames and art materials. I don’t think I’ve been this happy in the past year when I was still living inside my head and in the past. Now when I think about him, this is the image that flashes through my mind:

https://www.instagram.com/tv/CcEolYxPaGg/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

Obviously he’s not. He has a lot of women to fuck around with. That’s the rude awakening that I needed, the reality check that I no longer matter so I shouldn’t waste my time moping around and grieving over somebody like that.

How many times has art saved me? I can no longer count.

So wait, is this my justification for ordering Daniel Smith watercolors from Amazon??? 🤣🤣🤣

DANIEL SMITH Watercolor, 5ml tubes, Jean Haines Master Artist Set 10 Watercolor Tubes (total 10 pieces) 285610223

DANIEL SMITH Watercolor Set 5ml Tubes – Alvaro Castagnet Watercolor Set – 10 Tubes, 285610016

In the meantime, my cat, Kimchi, loves to sit on my Kuretake.

Kimchi, my spoiled cat. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Overeducated, undervalued

Liza Loza, a graduate student at Washington University in St. Louis, taught a discussion section for which she was not paid.Credit…Neeta Satam for The New York Times


It’s tough to be in liberal arts in the US, given that there’s an oversupply of PhDs there and not much job options for the academically inclined. I have been reading about this disparity for years that’s why I didn’t pursue a PhD because it seems like there is no need for me to do that—just yet. Although we in developing countries are better positioned than our counterparts in the US because we have job alternatives, plus there is still demand for PhDs in liberal arts since there aren’t enough teachers in colleges and universities with PhDs of value (I’m not talking about masters and PhDs from just anywhere). MBAs, however, are a different issue. There are too many MBAs here that they just obtained from somewhere with little value, just bragging rights even though there’s nothing to brag about it. That’s why it pays to graduate from a top university in a developing country like the Philippines because anything else is negligible in the bigger world. There is little brand recognition from anywhere else.

If I were these PhD candidates/PhD holders in the US, I would transfer to Asia where their degrees hold more value.

I’m speaking as a person who has come from a family of PhDs and the minimum educational attainment is a master’s degree and lived and breathed academic life.

In our sibling chat group where we discussed this NYT article, I told my brother to tell his son (who took the same undergrad course as I did) to work on apprenticeship more since in liberal arts it holds more value. Take courses or acquire additional skills in adjacent fields like fine arts to be more marketable in visual communications. That’s why a former colleague was very smart to take up a second degree at the UP College of Fine Arts (Visual Communication) after finishing her journalism degree while working. Her logos are now carried by startups. It’s better to be multi-skilled in our field. We now have data science + journalism, visual communications/multimedia/technology, and other hybrid disciplines.

For me, it was valuable that I took up a variety of courses in my undergrad so I couldn’t be pigeon-holed in one linear area. I was so thankful I took up edcomm and other social marketing related-subjects that I could use for communications strategy consulting. However, I need half of myself affiliated with an educational institution if I were to get consultancy jobs in this line. Maybe when I quit fulltime journalism.


I’m gonna finish this tonight. Trying on wet-on-wet technique with Kuretake.

Now the pain starts. Art and photo by CallMeCreatio.com

UPDATE

Finally, after so much procrastination. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

This is so satisfying even though using tiny brushes was painful. I think I need to scan this before I frame and give this to my mom. I think she would like the color/s.

My best friend has asked for this.

Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

While my sister-in-law asked for this one for their new townhouse.

Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I have to dispose some of what I’m making because I’m running out of walls.

But before I could start scanning my old drawings, I must update the OS of this old laptop to the new Ubuntu version. My scanner is so old (Canoscan LIDE 25) that there is no driver for Win 8 or Win 10 that it can only be used with Linux. This scanner is perfectly serviceable and I don’t want to buy a new scanner since I don’t regularly use it.

Acting as tech support again. Photo by CallMeCreation.com