This is my toxic trait: I keep on buying plants, thinking I could keep them alive despite my busyness. I keep blaming the weather and pests as the reasons for my plants’ demise.

Now I’m convincing—no, lying—to myself that this time it’s different. That since I would be relinquishing my manegerial position and I’m transitioning, I would have more time to devote to my plants and finally set up my garden.

Or I would garden more so I can take away the stress my boss is giving me.

Whatever the lies I tell myself, I believed them and bought more plants to kill. 😑

I had a strange dream. A Filipino around my age who works for a global bank was very taken with me as I dialled up my charm offensive. He kept asking me out, so at first I thought it was part of work but later on it seemed like it wasn’t anymore.

I was in a dilemma. I liked him enough to say yes to invites but I don’t want to go through that again, be involved with someone I met through work and be used again.

I was about to say no to another invite, saying he is compromising his job, when I woke up.

It was a strange feeling. I never even knew the guy in real life—his face is not someone I encountered in the past. 🤔

Maybe it’s a warning. Maybe in the next few months I will have this encounter.