Half-working, half-daydreaming while planning trips

Sunlight. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I spent the morning just bathing under the gentle sunlight streaming through my curtains. I decided I will not exert much effort since most of Asia is dead starting today. I just helped a colleague upload his story in the backend and that’s it.

It’s Lunar New Year’s eve today but unfortunately we couldn’t go to Chinatown to see the lion and dragon dance. But in years past I did that, visiting some Chinese-owned investment houses in the Binondo area to chat with some of their traders and taking photos for my news outfit’s social media account.

I remember punctuating the Lunar New Year with the Lantern Festival in Hong Kong with J in 2019. We had the lion dance inside our office and then after work J and I walked around Sai Ying Pun area at night.

Lion dance at our Hong Kong office. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

My family is really not wholly ethnic Chinese so we really don’t celebrate it unlike some of my friends with Chinese or hispanized Chinese last names.

My mom told us that we’re Chinese on her father and mother’s side but the Chinese last name was already lost. It was common in Batangas (and also in some areas) for Chinese immigrants to adopt Tagalog or Spanish surnames to avoid discrimination. Since Batangas faces the West Philippine Sea (formerly South China Sea), some parts of the province like Nasugbu and Lemery were centers of trade with the Chinese and other Southeast Asian neighbors. So of course there were Chinese traders who wanted to emigrate to the area but I heard that Batangueños were pretty hostile to the Chinese. I don’t know if this is just some kind of legend but I was told that’s the reason why there are no native Batangueños with Chinese last names and most often than not, they had Tagalog last names (in our case, our last names are Spanish). On my father’s side, one Spanish ancestor was industrious enough to claim land “as far as his eyes can see” by fencing up tracts of land up to the mountain in our hometown. That’s how his forebears became rich (this story was reminiscent of the movie Far and Away).


Some unread books. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I finally transferred my “books-to-read” for 2022 on my bookshelf that was once occupied by Gundams and then later by stuffed toys. I need to finish these books first before I buy more. Tsundoku in action. I now have all the things I love in my room: music, art, and books. Now I really don’t have any reason to venture out of my room. Hehe.


I was looking for activities or places we can go tomorrow but it seems like there are limited things we can do given that I have unvaccinated children with me.

Celossian Flower Farm in Baras, Rizal. Photo from https://www.howshewanders.com

I think we can visit the flower farm and Pililla Wind Farm tomorrow. The first and last time I was there was when J and I explored that area three years ago. We dined at the palaisdaan (fish farm) in Theresa, Rizal.

Wind mills. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Waiting for the sun to set at Pililla Wind Farm. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
View of Laguna Lake, specifically Talim Island, from Pililla Wind Farm. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Palaisdaan (fish pond-restaurant) in Theresa, Rizal. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Mount Pugad camping is for another holiday…Probably during Holy Week. We need a longer holiday to be able to camp here.

Photo from Klook
Photo from Klook
Photo from Klook

I’m still figuring out the logistics. The ideal time to camp here is now, before the summer heat could kill us.

Solo

My girls were just fetched by their dad and I’m home alone with the cats. It’s not a strange feeling because I was like this exactly a year ago except that then I was locked up in my room crying my eyes out. This time I will be cleaning like crazy and finishing all my DIY projects, like repainting the top closets and the closets in the next room. Maybe tomorrow I’ll start missing the girls.

I’m scared for my girls though because there’s a low pressure area building up near Guam and that may hit the Visayas again. I pray that it won’t be as severe as Typhoon Rai. But that dang thing looks massive.

Satellite image courtesy of US National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration.

I started using NOAA when somebody taught me that surfers in the Philippines use this to monitor where and when the big waves will be. I used this when we did a vigil before Super Typhoon Haiyan made its landfall on Guian, Eastern Samar–a popular surf town. When I was on the ground doing my reporting, we were aiming to get to Guian but I was already too tired jumping from Leyte and Samar that week, driving for several hundreds of km each day. The farthest I got to in Samar was the town of Marabut, which was flattened to the ground.

Marabut’s poblacion, where homes and public buildings were left with no roofs. The people hid in caves. (2013) Photo by CallMeCreation.com

When Super Typhoon Rai made its first landfall a few days ago, it was on Dinagat Islands and Siargao, another popular surfing island-town. The video below shows how strong Typhoon Rai was, destroying the sports complex where evacuees were taking shelter.

Lord, have me mercy on us all.


I was too lazy to cook today so this is what we had for brunch. In the photo is my brunch while the girls had rice instead of yakisoba. And the soy sauce is half chili oil; the girls don’t like that. I was too lazy to cook this evening so I resorted to easy samgyupsal and veggies for me and the girls.

Lazy cook. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I don’t have the patience now to cook one-pot dishes because I was cleaning non-stop because my landlady’s handyman was fixing the regular problem of leaking roof.

I only have until 2023 to suffer this old apartment…Wheeeee!

New old books from my friend B. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Tsundoku strikes again!

My friend, who just came back from Singapore to spend the Christmas here, sent me her old books as she was cleaning their condo while in home quarantine. Of course, I welcomed the books. I would spend my free time this holiday break reading these and those that I had hoarded in the past. Tee hee!

My problem now is I have too many books to move again.

I had been spending my idle time scrolling through Pinterest and Instagram for bookshelf/office ideas to house my books. I still have a lot of them in my mom’s house and I’m afraid they would be dumped on me once I move in my flat.

Dreaming of books

I wish I have a huge wall in my future flat to house a big bookshelf like this. But I have to content myself with a few shelves scattered all over the place because I need to prioritize windows over the need for bookshelves. Light vs books. We’re not even talking about keeping the flat cool because the two rooms and main living area would be airconditioned.

But for a writer/editor, not having enough books in my house is hurting my brain 😜 They’re sort of my security blanket. My escape from this uncertain world. They were my friends when I withdrew from society.

I’ve swapped our rooms so it makes more sense. But when I showed this to the girls, they protested and they want me to bring back the loft beds and want the smaller room so that there would be less area to clean. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Well then, if that’s what they want, I will swap again and retain the original plan drawn by the contractor. I will have a bigger cave all to myself.

My fridge finally arrived and it’s much bigger than my old one. Twin A, who is over 4 ft or nearly 5 ft, stood beside it. The freezer has 3 shelves so it’s roomy enough and it can fit a month’s worth of meat and fish and other frozen food. I can finally lessen the frequency of my grocery run.

Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Tomorrow is Greenhills day so I can sell my iPhone and iPad 7 as I got myself a new iPad 9, 256GB. I can look at keyboards and pen for the iPad so I can also make it my alternative laptop when I travel–for emergencies. I’ve experienced traveling for my holiday and some work emergency sprung up because some deal is closing or whatnot. I don’t want to be lugging around a heavy laptop when I go to the beach or I go roaming in Vietnam or Cambodia.

I need to cheer myself up because tomorrow midnight will be my first death anniversary.

I am no man!

Eowyn and the Witch-King of Angmar. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I have revisited Lord of the Rings recently and got enamoured again by Eowyn, the unlikely hero of the Battle of the Pelenor Fields. She has a small role in the entire lore, even just in the Third Age, but she left a lasting impression on me.

A sword rang as it was drawn. ‘Do what you will; but I will hinder it, if I may.’

‘Hinder me? Thou fool. No living man may hinder me!’

Then Merry heard of all sounds in that hour the strangest. It seemed that Dernhelm laughed…. ‘But no living man am I! You look upon a woman. Éowyn I am, Éomund’s daughter. You stand between me and my lord and kin. Begone, if you be not deathless! For living or dark undead, I will smite you, if you touch him.’

She went into the battlefield incognito and only Merry knew who she was (in the movie; but in the book Merry didn’t know who she was until she revealed herself to the Witch-King). Eowyn went to her doom to protect the people that she loved. And Merry went with her, thinking that she shouldn’t die alone.

I’ve been feeling down lately, maybe because of the weather. I needed some pick-me-up, like a good book or movie so I went to read and watch LOTR since it is both a good book and movie/s. I want to tap into that inner Eowyn in me and be badass when the sky seemed so dark. Funny thing was, for 20 years, I used Lúthien Tinúviel as my pen name instead of Eowyn, the White Lady of Rohan. Now I don’t know why I wanted to fashion myself into a half-royal, half-divine entity when Eoywn is more kickass. I’m not even attracted to the Tale of Lúthien and Beren; they just figured in my subconscious mind because Tolkien associated himself and his wife Edith with Beren and Lúthien. It’s even written on their tombstones.

I’ve been known in our house as the Tolkien geek. My brother even gave me an illustrated notebook of LOTR as a birthday gift more than a decade ago, which I still keep. It’s where I wrote the character sketches for my novel that I worked on but burned and deleted 10 years ago.

I read all the Tolkien books (including Silmarillion and all the appendices) every year during Christmas breaks before I had children. (Once you become a mother, you don’t have time for other things, such as reading epics). I tried keeping tabs on the genealogy because lineage matters in these books. And oh, Tolkien’s being a Catholic is all over the Middle Earth lore, maybe that’s why it brings comfort at times.

“Deserves it! I daresay he does. Many that live deserve death. And some that die deserve life. Can you give it to them? Then do not be too eager to deal out death in judgement. For even the very wise cannot see all ends.”

There are criticisms that Tolkien doesn’t flesh out his characters well and he is more into the events and lore. Perhaps it is true. His weakness in drawing characters is compensated by his larger vision, the narrative, and his ability to transport me into another world—his world—with his words. His stories are about the journey and not the destination.

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.


Sushi destroyed my leads table. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

My cats. My obnoxious and destructive cats. This is my version of “Teacher, my cat ate my homework!”

She just loves being on top of whatever I’m working on. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Look at that. And she stayed there all morning. Shameless cat. 🐈

Tsundoku part 2

Each book doesn’t cost more than PhP 165 at Booksale. These are for my girls but I could borrow the Cornelia Funke book and The Girl Who Chased Away Sorrow. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

The sky was so dark this afternoon and my body is not cooperative because I have my period. I would have wanted to just stay in bed but I needed to drag my girls away from the computer so we went to Booksale in Cubao.

Lots of cheap books! Heaven for a bibliophile like me. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

We took our time as there are really good books there if you’re not against rummaging through the stacks. I didn’t buy any for myself because I have 20+ books on my shelf that I have to finish. I keep buying books. I must stop until I finished all of them. I still have books I loaned to my mom that I must get back.

I skipped the paperbacks. I have tons at home that I still need to finish. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I recommended to my daughter to get the Cornelia Funke book because I already owned two of her books (Inkheart series). I really, really need to get my hands on Nancy Drew books for my girls. The book sellers in UP used to have them but of course they’re no longer there since the pandemic started. I miss the book sellers 💔 I miss Bookay-ukay 💔💔💔

I used to have a lot of science fiction and fantasy books but they’re mostly in my mom’s house. I hope she hasn’t given them away… She gave away a lot of my books before because she said they took up so much space 😭 I think I have completed all the Diana Wynne Jones books. For the life of me, I cannot stand the Robert Jordan books. I don’t know why.

I am now scouring Carousell for Nancy Drew books. Instead of buying, I ended up uploading a big leather bag that I barely use to sell. Proceeds would go to buying a smaller leather bag. Hehehe. Talk about capital recycling.

Tsundoku

Tsundoku is acquiring reading materials but letting them pile up in one’s home without reading them

Wikipedia

For the second straight year, I haven’t been to Big Bad Wolf book sale, which is basically a huge warehouse of books marked down to 60%-70% of their normal prices. This time, though, they managed to have an online book sale until 7 July and during the first hour I was able to snag some books for my girls–boxed sets–but overall there are only a few good titles and most of the books for me got sold out in a few hours. I only managed to get one, which is a memoir by Salman Rushdie during the time he went into hiding after the fatwa on him was issued following the publication of his Satanic Verses.

I still have tons of books on my shelves that I have yet to finish. Always on the “to read” pile. Tsundoku.


My mom just messaged me on Viber that there is a growth of something where her malignant mole had been. She had surgery years ago to have that removed but now it seems like there’s an outgrowth. She went to two doctors today and she will have new sets of doctors to see on Monday.

Lord, please don’t let it be full-blown cancer. 😞 It’s a difficult disease and she’s past 70.

I need to go home soon. 🥺

So many drastic changes this past 30 days. One of my househelpers is pregnant (I’m not surprised) so she will be going home to her province on 15 Aug. Another person gone from my household. J had been urging me to send her home earlier because there’s an excess labor here at home and they’re not being maximized and I’m just wasting money. But I said I’ll just wait for her to resign on her own since it was just a matter of time that either she will get pregnant or get engaged, whichever comes first. I was right.

One of the people I had been helping for years has turned his/her back against me. For a petty reason. I guess I was not a friend at all, despite all the help I’ve been extending to this person.

Another reporter is resigning. Now I’m at my wits’ and how to bridge the gap.

Lord, give me and my mom the strength to deal with all of these.