Sorry

The book is closed. I had to say all these things to him, to let go of my anger. To find my release. All he can say is sorry and take care.

I think I can move on now.

I remember
Walking in the rain
No umbrella
With your arms around me
How can I forget
That was the last time

I saw you
Waving down a taxi
Getting on without me
And you’re sorry
How can I forget
That was the last time

You’re sorry
You’re sorry
Sorry, sorry

I remember
Somewhere in a dream
A man without a face
It was you
You were quiet
I knew what you were thinking but
You couldn’t say it
Letting go of the feeling
Things ain’t what they are now
Rain is falling no umbrella
I remember you

You’re sorry
You’re sorry
Sorry, sorry

You’re sorry
You’re sorry
You’re sorry
You’re sorry
You’re sorry

I could be evil

You checked in on me today to make sure you’re still in my good graces. You’re scared I might snap and do something evil. That’s the only reason why you’re being nice to me now. Because you know very well I could ruin you as I know the loopholes in that thing that allows you to stay here. You know that I could mess up your business.

Plus I could also hunt down and haunt your little girlfriend on social media.

Because nice people could be evil when we finally snap; you just have no idea the extent of how evil I can be.

This is all I can say for now: have a happy life with your young bitch. If you get her pregnant, I will have the last laugh, you asshole.

I’ll just have heaven strike you down.

I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you.

Joy

Yoyoka is happiness in a tiny box. She made me smile even though there’s little to smile about these days. I never knew cowbells could drive the cobwebs away. Look at/hear her triple bass. She is John Bonham incarnate. And look at the joy while she plays. She was just 8 years old here. ❤️❤️❤️

And my 9-year-old couldn’t even keep her desk neat and orderly.🤦🏻‍♀️

I tried introducing my girls to rock through Cranberries but it hasn’t caught on yet. They do not like it that much when I play P.O.D. and Breaking Benjamin in the car. But there’s still hope. Slowly, Nirvana and Rage Against The Machine will make their way in.

And as for Yoyoka, continue loving Led Zep and Nirvana. The world needs you. Her family is sooo cool as well! Look at her mom rock out to Rage Against the Machine, with her aunt playing the bass. During quarantine.

I am saved again by music. Thank God for music.

Liar, liar, your pants are on fire!

I am convinced that he has this thing for this co-worker that he has been singing praises for months and months on end. He even wanted to get her for the other company where he is a partner. But he had always insisted she is almost half his age and she’s a lesbian. I won’t be surprised if there’s already something going on now that he’s free.

Sorry, been there. I’m not stupid. She’s the reason you’ve treated me really badly.

I hate you. I hope you rot in hell.

I am the worst person you will cross swords with. I am the person you should fear the most now.

Hell hath no fury than a woman scorned.

Retail therapy

To force myself to get back into the groove of working my butt off, I bought a new office chair from Ofix. It cheered me up a little bit today. I bought it on sale for 5k and was delivered to me today 3 days after ordering it from their online store.

New scratching chair for my cats 🤦🏻‍♀️.

It’s sturdier than the one I just replaced and the foam molds my butt. Thicker foam too. The gas lift doesn’t give way to my weight, which the older chair had been doing to me.

Goodbye, old chair. You now go to my yaya, who’s also attending online school.

Aside from the gas lift problem, the legs on this one got bendy so it’s tilted. I think one more weekend of him sitting on this would have done it in. It’s almost one month by this coming weekend since he sat on this…But it feels just like yesterday…

Anyway, I bought this gaming chair (it reclines up to 120 or 130 degrees) from Facebook Marketplace I think in May, for 3.5k. The good thing about this chair is that the fabric is holding up against the cats. Other than that, I regret buying this. Less than a month after I bought this, the reclining mechanism became wonky, it’s not locking. This made the back perpetually reclining.

This is a lesson for me: do not go cheap on yourself. You deserve better. No one else would buy it for you so go and treat yourself. Your 40+ year-old body will thank you.