Jamón

I love hams (jamón in Spanish or hamon in Tagalog spelling). Not the canned kind; it’s the one that people had painstakingly cured for some months. Every Christmas since the Spanish colonial period, well-to-do Filipinos make jamón as the centerpiece of the noche buena (“evening of goodness”, which is Christmas Eve), kinda like the turkey for the American thanksgiving. It is served after the misa de gallo (Catholic midnight mass) and the whole family (or rather the extended family) would gather in the comedor (“dining room).

This tradition has been passed down to us and I remember there were lean times when we were kids and didn’t have the jamón and my lolo (abuelo in Spanish; grandfather) would just cook his legendary American Southern fried chicken (he used to be a cook in the US in the 1920s or 30s). I would only taste jamón during Christmas that’s why I’m so fond of it. It evokes Christmases in Batangas, where my parents are from, and later on Christmases spent in my hometown after my grandparents had passed. Jamón reminded me of the times I would go home from Manila for Christmas and go AWOL after Dec 16 and only reappear in our office after Jan 2. I would make ham sandwiches to take to my room while I reread the entire Lord of the Rings book set, including Silmarillion and The Hobbit for a week or less.

Not all jamóns are created equal. The Filipino hamon is the sweet kind given the Filipinos’ propensity for sweet food. It’s cured in wet brine with other spices. Then it is brushed and baked or boiled in azucar or brown sugar (especially in sugar plantation areas of Central Philippines or Western Visayas) or pineapple juice. I heard some people smoke it.

Meanwhile, my mom’s favorite is the Chinese ham. She told me of her good memories of when they were young, my lolo would bring home a whole hind leg of pork that he cured in salt and some spices and dried for months. And he would hang it over the stove to be smoked and he would cut small pieces of it for them to eat slowly. For this type of ham, I think I like the local Chinese ham by Majestic and Excelente. I remember bringing home one entire leg of ham and my mother enjoyed every bite of it.

But the best one, which Jeffrey Steingarten even waxed lyrical about, is the jamón Iberico. After I gorged myself with it with some red and white wine and tapas in one Aboitiz party (where I think all the Spanish families of the Philippines congregated for one night), I have concluded it is the best tasting ham there is. And the most expensive.

The most expensive ham (Jamon Iberico de bellota) since a leg of this costs USD 4,500. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Jamon Iberico has some salt to it but it is faint. It is cut very thinly, almost paper-like, for you to taste its gentle but complex flavor. Other people may mistake it for prosciutto but the latter is too salty. Jamon Iberico can stand on its own without cheese and toast when you’re drinking wine before dinner.

I may be committing a crime here but I ate my jamon Iberico de bellota with rice for today’s brunch (I was so hungry!) I couldn’t drink wine and I had to give some bottles away so I had the jamon with C2 tea (OK, you can nail me to the cross now).

Brunch of jamon Iberico on rice, Korean side dishes and veggie salad.

It was lovely, lovely, lovely.

For dinner tonight, I heated on my tamagoyaki pan some slices of Filipino hamon to make ham sandwiches for dinner and brunch for tomorrow before I drive off to my hometown to spend the Christmas with my family sans the twins.

Speaking of diving off, my car ripped me off again. I had to have my clutch/water pump fan changed and have new blades installed this evening or else my engine would overheat and my compressor would need to work double time. My old clutch fan was already freewheeling, hence, it was no longer efficient and providing cool air for my diesel engine.

Don’t mind the scratch; the deed was done a long time ago. Phoyo by CallMeCreation.com

After I’m done with my tiny house’s construction, my next project will be a new car. A roomy car that can take three folding bikes and a tent.

Solo

My girls were just fetched by their dad and I’m home alone with the cats. It’s not a strange feeling because I was like this exactly a year ago except that then I was locked up in my room crying my eyes out. This time I will be cleaning like crazy and finishing all my DIY projects, like repainting the top closets and the closets in the next room. Maybe tomorrow I’ll start missing the girls.

I’m scared for my girls though because there’s a low pressure area building up near Guam and that may hit the Visayas again. I pray that it won’t be as severe as Typhoon Rai. But that dang thing looks massive.

Satellite image courtesy of US National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration.

I started using NOAA when somebody taught me that surfers in the Philippines use this to monitor where and when the big waves will be. I used this when we did a vigil before Super Typhoon Haiyan made its landfall on Guian, Eastern Samar–a popular surf town. When I was on the ground doing my reporting, we were aiming to get to Guian but I was already too tired jumping from Leyte and Samar that week, driving for several hundreds of km each day. The farthest I got to in Samar was the town of Marabut, which was flattened to the ground.

Marabut’s poblacion, where homes and public buildings were left with no roofs. The people hid in caves. (2013) Photo by CallMeCreation.com

When Super Typhoon Rai made its first landfall a few days ago, it was on Dinagat Islands and Siargao, another popular surfing island-town. The video below shows how strong Typhoon Rai was, destroying the sports complex where evacuees were taking shelter.

Lord, have me mercy on us all.


I was too lazy to cook today so this is what we had for brunch. In the photo is my brunch while the girls had rice instead of yakisoba. And the soy sauce is half chili oil; the girls don’t like that. I was too lazy to cook this evening so I resorted to easy samgyupsal and veggies for me and the girls.

Lazy cook. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I don’t have the patience now to cook one-pot dishes because I was cleaning non-stop because my landlady’s handyman was fixing the regular problem of leaking roof.

I only have until 2023 to suffer this old apartment…Wheeeee!

New old books from my friend B. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Tsundoku strikes again!

My friend, who just came back from Singapore to spend the Christmas here, sent me her old books as she was cleaning their condo while in home quarantine. Of course, I welcomed the books. I would spend my free time this holiday break reading these and those that I had hoarded in the past. Tee hee!

My problem now is I have too many books to move again.

I had been spending my idle time scrolling through Pinterest and Instagram for bookshelf/office ideas to house my books. I still have a lot of them in my mom’s house and I’m afraid they would be dumped on me once I move in my flat.

Central and Southern Philippines need us

This is reminiscent of Typhoon Haiyan, a Category 5 typhoon that ravaged central Philippines in 2013. I covered the disaster and drove down to ground zero where there was so much death and destruction. I had PTSD after that coverage and it is known in the journalism community that covering disasters is also like being in a war zone. It messes up your brain.

We did our grocery shopping tonight for our household and for the victims of Typhoon Odette (which became Cat 5 upon landfall in Siargao). I bought boxes of Century Tuna, boxes of instant cup noodles, boxes of rubbing alcohol, packs of 3-in-1 coffee, sachets of shampoo and toothpaste, bottles of mineral water.

Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Based on my experience covering disasters, victims in evacuation sites do not have the means to cook. At most all they may have are sources of hot water so ready-to-eat stuff like canned tuna and cup noodles are best during the first few days after a disaster. Hygiene kits are also important. Clean water is also a priority.

Then the girls and I went straight to Leni Robredo Volunteer Center to drop off our donations.

Some of our donations. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Sacks of rice. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Volunteer orientation. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
My girls. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I couldn’t volunteer because Ate C already left for Tacloban today and her grandpa’s house was destroyed by the typhoon so she needed to be there to help in rebuilding it. Although the girls could already fend for themselves, I fear accidents may happen like microwaving metallic objects 🤦🏻‍♀️

They wouldn’t push through with the trip to their paternal grandpa given the dire situation in Visayas. They don’t have power there because a lot of transmission lines are down. Many vehicles are stranded at the ports and the seas are still violent. Cebu and Siargao airports are destroyed. I fear for a friend in Cebu, I hope he and his family are ok.

Bohol is devastated. No clear idea how Panglao is now but that island is so flat that I expect that everything was washed out. My heart breaks for that little paradise.

Panglao island. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I will be donating again after my salary is deposited before Christmas.

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Dia de los muertos

Last night the traffic was so heavy in our usual route that I had to drive an extra 20 km to take another route. It took me 2 hrs and 45 minutes before we reached our apartment.

So today I did all the DIY stuff that I left hanging. Stupid me, that made me exhausted today.

I refreshed the white paint on the wall where my living room windows are. I also finally changed the curtain rod brackets downstairs and was able to hang the Christmas curtains that I bought from Shopee one night I wasn’t able to sleep. I’m afraid I overdid the Christmas thing.

Looks kitschy. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

But I think it looks better at night, less overpowering.

I have to make it grow on me because these damned things cost me PHP 500. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

And I did not stop there. I added curtain rod brackets in my room because my annoying cats keep on climbing the curtains and they’re not exactly light.

Since I felt so energetic today, I proceeded to sand my closets because the paint is peeling and Kimichi kept scratching the corner so it was worn.

I turned my impact drill into a sander. I uncovered several layers of paint. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I chose Boysen Skyblue for my closets. There was something off with the Tiffany blue that came with the apartment when we moved in so I decided to go for a lighter shade of blue.

Unfinished. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I didn’t paint the upper cabinets yet because I was so tired and I looked like a Smurf because I was already blue all over. And my paint was the quick-dry type so it was sticky, smelly, and hard to even out. At least I was able to fill out with wood filler the scratches that Kimichi made and I was able to cover it with paint. Now I’m getting high with the smell.

As I was letting the paint dry, I grilled marinated chicken outside while my kids and our househelp, Ate C, lighted candles for our departed loved ones. Today is Dia de Todos los Santos (All Saints’ Day) and tomorrow is Dia de los Muertos (Day of the Dead) but in recent years Filipinos started visiting the grave of loved ones on 1 November instead of 2 November. Traditionally the holidays are 31 Oct-2 Nov but was truncated this year to only the 1 Nov. Dia de los Muertos is more known to be a Mexican holiday but most Spanish and Portugese colonies have their own way of commemorating the dead. In the Philippines, it’s more subdued compared to the Mexican one. When I was a kid, some people spend the night of the 31st in cemeteries to hang out in their family mausoleum or tombs until Nov 1 and have some kind of family reunion there. Filipino Chinese families light joss sticks and offer food and flowers. In our family we just clean the tombs, offer flowers, light candles and say our prayers. We stay until the candles have died out.

Lighting candles in front of the apartment. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This is the third straight year we just have lighted candles in front of our house. In 2018, the traffic was so bad that I just opted to stay at home. Last year and this year, obviously, we had to stay home because of Covid-19 restrictions. My mom is already contented that I brought her last week a huge pot of mums and the purple hydrangea for my father’s niche at the columbarium near my mom’s house.

Since I’m making the most of my stay here in this apartment, I will be filling up the walls with crafts and art. Next time that will go home to my mom’s house, I’ll be taking my old drawings with me and put them in frames and hang them in my room. I bought some frames from Photoline in SM that were on sale last week.

J left his drawing on my refrigerator door and when we broke up, I shoved it in my closet and let it stay there almost 11 months. I decided to take it out again and put it in one of the frames I bought. He drew this scene from Istanbul when he was demonstrating to the girls how to use their color markers.

Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I had hung his drawing in the place where his workstation was. He may not be a nice person, but for old times’ sake this is how I am choosing to remember him: a traveler. I am just one stop.

Soon this room will be filled by my old drawings/paintings and cross-stitch projects. And probably new ones too. His drawing will just be one of the many that I will have on my walls.

The circus starts

My boss couldn’t help it. She messaged us on MS Teams, flabbergasted, after reading the news that boxer Manny Pacquiao is running for president next year. And other clowns like Panfilo Lacson and Tito Sotto are also vying for the president and vice president seats. Then here comes wishy-washy opportunist Manila Mayor Isko Moreno and this Willy Ong (where did he come from???) announcing their candidacy yesterday.

Isko’s announcement crumbles the idea of a united opposition. I guess he is another weapon by the Marcoses so the opposition under Leni Robredo’s banner–if she decides to run for presidency–would be broken. He is, after all, a politcal butterfly. Isko knows he doesn’t have the machinery to win but if he is under the good graces of the Marcoses, his future by 2028 would be assured if Bongbong–God forbid!–wins next year.

And Duterte is running for VP, without a president yet, so he will be assured that graft cases and ICC human rights cases would not be heaped upon him if an ally wins the presidency.

How do we solve this problem of ever worsening politics in this country? Everyone should probably read the Pedagogy of the Oppressed, so the intelligentsia would understand that we are not the ones who should be teaching the masses but rather we join them in learning how to get out of this oppression through their own experiences and social construct. I first learned about this during my theater + activism years, when we have “teach-ins” and when I attended classes for community theater. It’s not easy; it would take a revolution to change all this. (And I now sound exactly like my father!)

I don’t know how we would end this rotten system.


Meanwhile, I’ve been getting better but I easily get tired. Today is the first time in two weeks I went out of my room to take a shower and do my bathroom business at day time. I had ordered a new car battery to be delivered and installed at home because my old one died and my car wouldn’t start. I edited a story and wrote my own story, albeit a simple one, without my brain bleeding. I still had this headache after lunch and tried to sleep but I couldn’t so I just stared at the ceiling, at my ipad, at my cat.

I had been imbibing Berocca the past two weeks, the supplement that helped me get over the flu-like symptoms of Covid, especially the sniffles.

Berocca, every Philippine business reporter’s friend. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Every reporter I know has this in her/his bag when we still roamed the metro digging for stories. We still worked even if we were sick. Nowadays it sounds so reckless…Oh wait, I’m working even if I am sick. Oh well.


One of my best recent discoveries on Youtube is Rajiv Surendra, a very curious and very creative person who is like a Renaissance man. His enthusiasm for art was like that of mine before I lost myself in ugly relationships. Rajiv, however, is more talented than I am and I just attended classes and apprenticeship because I could, not because I was talented.

I remember attending writing workshops in Philippine High School for the Arts, script writing for play workshops, theater directing workshops, theater workshops, song writing workshops–all classes and workshops I could attend because I was curious and wanted to learn. Because I wanted a creative outlet. Just because.

Watching Rajiv reminded me of those times that I got excited by art, by beautiful craftsmanship, by learning new skills. I want that again–that zest for life. I remember I used to make my own writing pads, my own notebooks (I learned book binding in school), and I used to have sketchpads and watercolor notebooks with me. I lost all that.

I suddenly realized that I’ve been dead for 20 years.

Now that I live solo (I mean without a partner), I can rediscover that part of me again. To be curious again and have that eagerness to learn. To be creative again.

49 years and they’re still lying

The Marcoses have showered money again on all those social media trolls trying to revise history–Facebook and Twitter are sooo full of them right now. The Marcoses are also hiring actors and “influencers” to propagate their lies, especially that Bong-bong Marcos is running for president next year.

In service of the Filipino people, I am making available this book by Primitivo Mijares, a book which caused him to disappear (and his body was never found) and cost him his son’s life. I bought a hard copy for my mom on Amazon several Christmases ago. This book was not made available locally for a long time.

Today is the 49th year of remembrance when Ferdinand Marcos, one of the world’s greatest crooks, imposed martial law in the Philippines.

September 21, 1972. #MarcosNotAHero #MarcosMagnanakaw #NeverForget


I’m supposed to write something today and/or tweet on Twitter but I got so stressed with all the trolls that I abandoned the idea and focused on taking care of myself instead. Maybe next week. I need to get better because, as one of the people who got imprisoned during martial law told me via private message last week, we need to fight another day.

So today is my last day of confinement in my room. I don’t think I have the strength to go out and withdraw cash so I will have my househelp do that for me. In any case, all my transactions these days are online so cash is not a top priority right now. I finally was able to order meat from Monterey Community Market and have it delivered here. The transaction was seamless as well. I have yet to order vegetables via Facebook Messenger. Some friends have sent me food packs and groceries with fruits. One sent her love all the way from Singapore.

Sushi is as tired as I am. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

My cats never fail to visit me and keep me company everyday. They love scratches behind the ears and underneath their chins.

Kimchi in her odd sleeping position again on their cat bunk bed. Photo taken by the girls’ ate.

I edit two stories a day–the maximum I allow myself to do these days. Doing more would make my brain bleed. I still feel dizzy at times and have some random headaches. I need to sleep by lunch or early afternoon. I don’t know how long I will be like this. It seems like my biking to and from UP to buy vegetables is a lifetime ago.