Love hurts Part 2

Here is Kimchi this morning, taking a nap with me. Squishy. 🐱🐾

Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Here is me a few hours later after giving her and Sushi a bath.

Photo by CallMeCreation.com

They hissed their way out of the towels when they were being dried. Sushi in particular wanted to kill us and acted like she’s dying at the same time.

It’s Maundy Thursday today, (and in the Christian calendar) it’s when Jesus washed the feet of his disciples. It was His act of humility and service and his demonstration that we must love one another and that there is no ranking in God’s love.

“I have given you an example, that you should do as I have done to you” (John 13:15).

Love hurts. Love is humility. Love is service. There shouldn’t be any hierarchy in love because—I don’t know, you just love. I would die for my children if it means I could save them. Just as Jesus died for us to save us, without any hierarchy of who among us he loved the most.

I loved even though I hurt, thinking that love could turn a heart of stone softer. However, there are just some things that love can’t conquer so I just leave it up to Him. I did not seek revenge but instead I sought peace because it’s hard to live with so much hatred. In the end, it will just be up to God.

17 Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. 18 If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. 19 Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: β€œIt is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord. 20 On the contrary: β€œIf your enemy is hungry, feed him; if he is thirsty, give him something to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head.” 21 Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Romans 12:17-21

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We didn’t go yet to Intramuros because the girls aren’t finished studying for their finals on Monday until Wednesday next week. They should clean their bikes tomorrow morning so we can go in the afternoon. Friends had been posting on Facebook that the provinces are clogged and the traffic even going to Quezon Province is intolerable. A classmate of my girls said it took them 9 hrs of driving to Baguio.

This is the reason why I love staying in Metro Manila during Holy Week. The roads are clear and we can just do cartwheels in the middle of Makati CBD πŸ˜‚

In the meantime, I transplanted some of my flowers and sowed some petunia seeds.

I hope they don’t die. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

So far so good. My existing flowering plants are doing ok.

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The morning glory that I transplanted to a hanging planter because it is starting to grow vines. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

And finally, I now have a yellow bell! I had been looking for this plant for a long time because this one creeps along walls and fences. By next year, this will be ready to be transplanted in my new house and creep along the wire fence that we had erected between our lot and the neighbor’s. I can make a trellis out of yellow bells.

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Now that I’m done doing manual labor, my creative side is itching right now. I want to order more watercolors. I held back and just ordered Staedtler mechanical pencils because it’s easier to sketch with it and not bother sharpening my pencil all the time. I’m now impatiently waiting for it.

Makeshift easel. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Yellow bell. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

My daughters’ day

11th year. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I just ordered stuff via Grab today so we can relax and we can attend to school work and my work. One of my good friends from the industry also sent the girls a cake, matcha strawberry.

This is for tomorrow. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Then they spent the rest of the day with their dad, who took them to Estancia Mall in Kapitlyo, Pasig. They came home in time for a shower and straight to bed.

The girls were happy. They’re easy to please and they don’t ask much. They’re happy with their bunnies and my sister offered to have them framed.

Twin I asked about their other twin sisters—the cats. They declared that their birthday is on the 12th of April 2020. So I said, Ok, I’m gonna make their sketches as well.

Kimchi, the fat cat. Art and Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Sushi. Art and Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Laziness has set in today because my body knew that this is supposed to be a week-long holiday…And yet I edited and interviewed somebody from Singapore whom I need to visit when I get there. I also set up an interview on Monday with an aviation company. I think I must draft today’s interview by tomorrow or else I may forget the details after this week. My brain cells are already protesting.

Tomorrow I will cook as my daughters’ friend is coming over.

My call with my new manager and outgoing manager will also be tomorrow for the turnover of duties. I don’t know when they will formally announce the transition so that all communication and PRs should be directed to me from now on. Drats, I just had 400 business cards printed with my old designation.

It takes a long time for paperwork to be settled πŸ™„

I want to have a week-long break before chaos officially starts.

Happy birthday to my twins!

Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

All my sacrifices to bring you where you are now are all worth it. I’m sorry if I let other people hurt you. Never again.

May you always be happy, God-fearing, and understanding. I love you to the moon and back.

In the depths of my depression, you were the only reason that kept me going and made me want to get better. You two made me a better person. I didn’t know the kind of strength that I had been hiding until you came along.

And when you have flown out of my nest, I hope you always find ways to come back home.

Love, Mommy.


Since this sketch is in my sketchbook, I scanned it and printed it on Kodak photo paper so both of them can have copies.

Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

And I left it on their desks so that’s the first thing they see in the morning.

Weekend errands

New paintings on the wall. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I started the day with hammering picture hooks on the wall again to replace my sister’s red and black painting of hell with more wholesome pictures—of flowers. Twin I, who sits on that table, agrees with the changes.

But she commented that the orange opium poppy flowers looked like corals. 🀨

A nap after lunch then off we went to Marikina to indulge my container gardening hobby. Bought several clay pots. πŸ˜‚ At least my flowers live compared to my vegetables. I will try growing vegetables once again starting tomorrow. Will see if my compost will be worth the hard work.

At Flora CafeTina in Marikina. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

After this, we went to Tiendesitas to buy cat supplies and to check out Decathlon to see if I can buy fins.

Ransacked. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Everybody bought swimming/snorkeling/diving gears in preparation for the Holy Week exodus to the beaches next week and Decathlon no longer has my size. Even online. I am giving Twin I my old fins because she again outgrew the new ones I bought a few months ago.

So now I have to order online from Divers Point Co. (after we got home) for that Beuchat freediving fins I had my eye on for a year now.

BEUCHAT MUNDIAL ONE LONG FINS

And the diving buoy.

DP FREEDIVING RING BUOY

And a fin bag

DRAWSTRING BAG FOR LONG FINS

I hope my orders arrive on time. I didn’t buy weeks ahead because some fuck-ups may rear their ugly heads again, just like what happened last year when the world shut down for the nth time due to COVID surge after I booked our reservation at Blue Ribbon. This time, even if it rains, we will forge ahead. I’m so tired of delays and more shit keeping us from diving again.

For other diving needs like reel and line to attach myself to the buoy, diving flags/early warning device, diving belt and weights, I would just have to rent them from Blue Ribbon. I’ll buy them next time in-store from Divers Point when we go for another Anilao trip or when I push through with my Palawan trip.

After our disappointing trip to Decathlon—I only got to buy a new water bottle cage for my bike—we had an early dinner at Pancake House. To keep me from doom scrolling on my phone while we waited for our food, I tried sketching again.

Initial sketch. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Along the hallway. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

We stopped by Mr DIY for some notebooks (for Twin I), a stuffed toy pillow for the swivel chair (for Twin A), and cat leash…

Kimchi giving me the side-eye as she was really annoyed with me. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

…that our cats rejected with their whole being. We tried it on them and they hated us from their core of their souls. See how Kimchi just kicked it out of the way. It was the body leash—the least invasive version of it (compared to the body wrap) but still they hissed their way out of them.

So no cat walking for us.

Tomorrow let’s see if they change their minds. πŸ˜‚

More poppies

Red and violet opium poppies. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I got addicted to painting opium flowers (pun intended) πŸ˜‚ so I continued scouring the interwebs for different colors of this illegal flower.

Orange! Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I sent some of the photos of my latest drawings to my mom without telling her who made them. She doesn’t know I went back to drawing again. She exclaimed that they were pretty so I told her she can have some of them because I made them.

My kids said I’m better at flowers 🀣 My landscapes are pathetic. 🀣🀣🀣 Oh well. πŸ’

At least I’m happy doing this, whether they’re good or bad. I’m not selling anyway or doing an exhibit so it’s ok.

Tomorrow I’ll try other PLANTS.

Opium poppy

Opium poppy flowers. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I was searching for pretty purple flowers to paint for my mom and I came across opium poppy (Papaver somniferum) flowers. They are so pretty but illegal 🀣 So I would have to content myself with photos from livescience.com.

So here, side by side, the Ming dynasty version of an opium poppy flower and the 2022 (my) version. I guess what the Ming dynasty painter saw was the giant poppy so he used magenta (which I also used) and a combination of indigo.

Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I’m running out of frames again. Hahaha! I would have to order frames online. Seeing my improving watercolor drawings framed gives me a serotonin boost so it’s ok to spend that much on frames and art materials. I don’t think I’ve been this happy in the past year when I was still living inside my head and in the past. Now when I think about him, this is the image that flashes through my mind:

https://www.instagram.com/tv/CcEolYxPaGg/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

Obviously he’s not. He has a lot of women to fuck around with. That’s the rude awakening that I needed, the reality check that I no longer matter so I shouldn’t waste my time moping around and grieving over somebody like that.

How many times has art saved me? I can no longer count.

So wait, is this my justification for ordering Daniel Smith watercolors from Amazon??? 🀣🀣🀣

DANIEL SMITH Watercolor, 5ml tubes, Jean Haines Master Artist Set 10 Watercolor Tubes (total 10 pieces) 285610223

DANIEL SMITH Watercolor Set 5ml Tubes – Alvaro Castagnet Watercolor Set – 10 Tubes, 285610016

In the meantime, my cat, Kimchi, loves to sit on my Kuretake.

Kimchi, my spoiled cat. Photo by CallMeCreation.com