Back again

Back in the city. 😑 Photo by CallMeCreation.com

If it weren’t for my cats, I won’t be rushing back to the city tonight. But then I miss my bed. There’s nothing like sleeping in your own bed, customized according to your preference and sleeping habit/s.

My room is almost finished. We still need to finish the metal works for the security grills and screens. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I think they will put another coat of white paint before they start sanding my wooden floor to its natural color and then stain. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Everyday I’m closer to having a home of my own. ❤️ A home that is customized according to how we live and I can change it however I want without having to deal with another entity who would object to my plans.

I had everything painted flat white so artworks would pop out. This clinical look can also be softened with curtains, beddings, books, or tchotchkes (if my cats will not destroy them). I still have the woven runner from Zamboanga/Sulu that I’m still figuring if it’s better to hang it like a tapestry or have it framed.

Kitchen viewed from the girls’ room. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Still no upper cabinets yet since the lower cabinets are complicated. I have a pullout garbage disposal unit under the sink.

They haven’t tiled the bathroom yet. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I could still hear the grinder cutting tiles outside. But I think all the tile work will be done by end of the month.

I had worked on the documents that I need to submit for my application for a new Meralco line and for a new water line. Our water utility people will be coming over on Monday to check the water pressure and configure if I would still need a water pressure pump and tank and if I do, what horsepower and how many cubic meters are needed.

After I got my barangay certificate of residency, I went to the mountain bypass road to buy my friend from my old TV network bird of paradise plants. The ones I gave him last year died because they were battered by winds on their condo balcony.

Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com

And I went to the flower vendors along the national highway to buy my mom her favorite flowers.

Lilium Casa Blanca. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Because my mom deserves flowers everyday. Always.

Day-long meeting

Lighted up acacia tree in front of the Student Union building. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I met with our water concessionaire’s shareholder (company AVP) and the OIC GM of our water concessionaire today. Because of my advocacy and continuous fight, the shareholder company was forced to change the management and suspended the 🤬 top officials until investigations are finished and proper charges are filed.

We met before 10 am at their corporate office and then I toured them around to show them the areas that are experiencing low pressure, mud coming out of their faucets, etc.

I told them that they have a reputational issue with the customers that’s why they’re still coming to me for complaints and are not going straight to them. Even though they are now fixing the shit left by previous management, the people still don’t know about it and thus they need a proper comms person to fill that gap–a proper community relations manager.

I recommened to them the steps that they should do, how to tap the local government units (barangay officials and their facilities) to conduct focus group discussions and needs assessment from these engagements. Monitoring and evaluation of information campaigns. I said that people should be properly informed and the knowledge is correct so that when the time comes the water concessionaire files a petition for tariff adjustment to help finance the network upgrade and other capex needs, we the customers will not be up in arms. I also told them they should take advantage of the local media in their information campaign by engaging with them.

They asked me to help in looking for a comms consultant to help them with that. I’m waiting now for a text message from a schoolmate so I can discuss with her this headhunting chore.

We parted ways at 3 pm. It was a long day.

My kids, on the other hand, went to a nearby city in the south to have early dinner in a bed and breakfast/art gallery with my sister and their cousin Kuya P. They sent me lots of photos.

Twin I looking at the exhibit.
Watercolors.
One of the dining areas
Another dining area

Meanwhile, I went to the semester ender Christmas bazaar inside our university campus.

Students are up and about before they go back home for the holidays. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I have all windows open right now to feel the cool December provincial breeze. I will leave tomorrow evening to be with my cats.

Getting there…

First coat of paint in the girls’ room. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Painting, cabinetry work, lights and switches… Will soon be a home ❤️🏡

My sort of walk-in closet. More of a walk-out closet. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Prepping my room for painting. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I’m taking photos of areas in my house to see what I need to buy more of (curtain rod hooks, TV wall bracket, clothes hooks, towel bar) and what I will no longer use or can’t fit in my house (a lot).

A Christmas tree won’t fit in my house, too. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Looking over a neighbor’s backyard. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

It was raining/drizzling the entire day yesterday so I couldn’t do a campus walk. I’ve been out of exercise for almost 3 months and got bloated again. 🤦‍♀️

So I went out under the rain last hight to buy an eyeliner from Watsons. My girls were out with friends from 2 pm and only came back at 8 pm after dinner with friends (with a friend’s parent, who remembered me from high school).

In front of my undergrad college. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
The strays that are taken care of by some faculty members of my undergrad college. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

My walk wasn’t enough so treadmill it is.

Burned only 188kcal. But I ate so much. 🤦‍♀️

Got tired, uneven sleep = early night. I fell asleep holding my phone.

Staying here is helping me adjust my body clock again. Listening to forest sounds and having more fresh air lull me to sleep. Now I’ve woken to early bird chirps that you hear from forests.

G.O.A.T.

I’m still love struck with how the game last night was played. It’s a fitting retirement for Messi, who is now elevated to Diego Maradona level.

I miss playing football. At least Twin I now understands why I love this sport because we watched it together last night and she was equally excited as I was. She said she is now interested in joining the girls’ team once we have transferred here in my hometown. I told my nephew, who teaches football under xxx team, that his cousin wants to join.

This sounds wonderful because they will be more exposed to team sports and more physical activities.

Meanwhile, my sister expressed her defiance against this government through the Christmas decor she installed in my mom’s house.

They’re so pink!

I plan to go back to QC on Dec 22 because Ate C will be leaving for her home province so I need to come back for the cats. In the meantime, I’m bringing something to read with me while I laze around my mom’s house.

Kimchi wants to come. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I packed books this time as should be reading physical books instead of doom scrolling on social media. I missed reading but I get easily distracted now by my phone. I should have a digital detox and do analog things like drawing and reading. I’m a bad example for my girls. 🤦‍♀️

This has been with me for quite some time and I never quite found the time to open my hoarded books. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

We left QC at around past 10 pm tonight because we fetched my nephew, his gf, and my sis-in-law from Araneta Coliseum after the UP-Ateneo basketball game. Araneta Center was clogged with cars and traffic was terrible. It took us about an hour to extricate ourselves from there.

So tired.

Maintenance

Two-hour massage before I drive off tomorrow to the South.

I had done last-minute maintenance stuff before I subject myself to an hours-long drive to my hometown tomorrow. I just finished a two-hour massage c/o Zennya because I know my back will be frozen after the drive.

But before that, I needed to do car maintenance like what any responsible car owner should do.

Engine oil flushing and change and other preventive maintenance checks. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Car wash and interior vacuuming. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I gave Twin A my Tokyo-finds watercolor palette and now she’s trying them out. Twin I, on the other hand, was influenced to do the same but she is using the set that I bought for them from Lazada two years ago.

Making art. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Will be bringing our bikes tomorrow and we will try to go to that pond at the back of a research facility on campus. Draw, grill hotdogs or chicken wings, and have a picnic.

But it’s rainy in the next few days 😑

Meanwhile, I’m just gonna watch the Messi and the rest of Argentina.

I think I won’t sleep tonight. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

UPDATE: GOAL! I LOVE YOU MESSI!!!

As an ex-goalie, I feel bad for the French goalkeeper 😂. Well, a penalty kick from Lionel Messi is a death sentence.

WHOA! ANOTHER GOAL FROM ARGENTINA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s raining yellow cards!!!

OMG!!! Last 10 mins France scored 2 goals 2 mins apart!

The French owe it to Mbappe. Fantastic game!

Ugh! I can’t take the suspense. Overtime is killing me.

UPDATE

OMG! Messi!!!

This is the reason why football is the most beautiful game. OMG!!! Messi scored again! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Update:

NHOOOOOOOO! HANDBALL. PENALTY KICK!

MBappe is a beast! Whooooo!

3-3 in an overtime. This brings us to a shootout to break the tie. My heart can no longer take it.

Emmanuel Macron is so ecstatic!

This is the best World Cup game I’ve ever watched. It’s so beautiful. This is what football is all about.

This has come down to the penalty shootout! Best of 5.

Brillant save by Argentina. ❤️

Ahhhhhh congratulations to Argentina. Brillant game. Just beautiful. Messi will be sainted in Argentina after this.

Cheers!

Better things ahead.

So enough of the boo hoo episode and I must forge ahead. I read some past entries under the tag “anger” and what I’ve written last night is the recurring theme and I keep saying the same things over and over.

That means I’ve exhausted the topic. Eventually, I will get tired of it and I will no longer have any fucks to give.

Good.

The fact that I am no longer triggered with what I wrote last night (unlike before when I still get triggered everytime I did write about him) means I’m getting there. Take note, I’ve been off my meds since July and the topic didn’t send me palpitating nor I was sleepless. In fact, I fell asleep easily last night, with my phone on my hand as I dozed off while watching a reel. So this means the topic is no longer that grave as before.

Cheers to me!

Yes, I’m still angry but it’s no longer the heaviest weight on my mind, unlike before when it was occupying so much headspace. I realized now (after ruminating over this) that forgiveness is not needed for me to become indifferent to him. Just like with my past exes (and boy, they did some despicable things), I just grew up and no longer cared. I didn’t have to forgive them—I just didn’t care anymore.

I think this thing with J will just go down the same way…my anger will just dissipate, not because I had forgiven him, but because I no longer give a fuck anymore.

So yeah, the self-help books may be wrong with this one; they keep on saying need to forgive the person (or yourself) to be able to move on. I don’t have to because one day I will just stop caring since it will no longer have any bearing on me. And besides, it’s ok to keep that anger because that will keep me from engaging with such people.


Today we just ran errands and kept within the 2 km radius of mu apartment because OMG the traffic was really bad today. I keep hearing it being talked about while I was in the supermarket and reading about it on some FB and Twitter posts.

Here I was, waiting for the girls to finish their Kumon session. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

The girls went to the Kumon center for their last session for the year and I followed to fetch them so we can go grocery shopping.

The most ridiculous thing today is that my onions cost PHP 250 for less than a kilo 🤦‍♀️

My contractor sent me these photos. Yey! My house is almost complete.

My window and fire exit.
Tiny kitchen window.

Let’s see if by next week there will be more significant progress…