I just join my cats sleeping most of the day. I feel like I’m slipping down a slippery slope and I’m just a breath away from a major spiral.

I don’t know what I’m writing for when I’m going to lose my job anyway. I can’t get out of this job because I still can’t find roles. I haven’t heard from the last one I’ve applied to and the jobs that match me are far and between.

The banks are hiring. Maybe I should try even though I may not be the right fit. 🤔

Ever since I got rejected from that tenure track position at my own uni, by my own undergrad college, my self-esteem got erroded.

I edited some stories yesterday but today was just total garbage. I was horizontal on my bed, brain rotting with my tablet. I sent only one email and I haven’t even received a response.

I don’t know what I’m doing with my life. I don’t know where I’m going. I’m boxed in because I live far away from Metro Manila and gas is going to kill me if I drive daily to a new job that requires to be in the office five days a week. I might as well buy myself an EV car, which is I’m not prepared for.

I don’t know. I need help. I’m slipping…