Jagged Little Pill was my album. It’s personal. It’s phenomenal. You Ought To Know opened doors, like it allowed us women to express true anger and not mindful of what people are saying that it’s unbecoming and unrespectable to show this raw rage. That women should be nice and proper. That line “did she go down in you in the theater” was a shocker and yet it was also freeing, like it showed the world the humiliation we go through to please our men.
Forgiven resonated with me as a formerly Catholic school girl. The hypocrisy, the irony, the guilt-tripping that goes on and on. I always thought that it’s hard to please God, with all these rules, these sacraments, these rituals, these boxes. The questions she asked were the same questions I asked and more.
And it’s so revealing here, what Alanis said in this interview about patriarchy not allowing her to have You Ought to Know as the carrier single. Patriarchy telling her, no, you cannot be angry. No, you cannot be raw and uncouth.
And my college blocmate reminded me that I used to sing a lot of Alanis during those days. Whenever he hears Alanis, he remembers me driving around in our maroon pickup truck, blasting Alanis on our car stereo, windows open.
Alanis allowed us to be angry and not apologetic about it. And happy (Hand in My Pocket) without it being about love. And heartbreakingly sad (that song Perfect is still sad).
We are having a PS5 party here. My nephews and daughters playing The Last Of Us. Goodness knows when they will end.
Maybe I need to upgrade my TV to a 43″ screen…
And oh yeah, my living area got a little more sunshine as I put up the new curtains I had sewn a month ago.
I can’t buy a new TV though. Not yet. I’m already asking for a quote for a 6kW solar power, grid-tied system with hybrid inverter ready for batteries. I just don’t know if our roof can accommodate 20 solar panels because a 6kW system requires 10 panels and my mom wants to have hers installed as well.
My Meralco bill doubled this month and it’s shocking. I better have the solar system installed now so that when I retire, no electric bill will eat into my retirement fund every month.