I just didn’t have the energy yesterday. I wanted the nastiness of travel for work and the tension I had been carrying the entire week to melt away. I just want to lay flat and never move.
I arrived in Manila at half past 12 midnight of Sunday (yesterday) but technically landed at 12:12 am. Before I could get my car at ParkNFly, it was already 1:30 am. Got home at 3 and had to unpack immediately because my face cleanser was inside my luggage. I was able to sleep (had Kopiko before driving) at around past 4 am.
Half my day was already gone by just catching up on sleep.
My girls loved the gifts I brought them. Twin I said, she would prefer HK than going to SG. Now that I thought about it, they would enjoy HK more since there are better things to do there than in SG. There are hiking areas in other islands, we can go around the New Territories, or just go traipsing around Hong Kong and Kowloon. Just crossing Victoria Bay from HK to Kowloon on a ferry would already be a treat for them.
We could stay in Kowloon as hotels would be cheaper. I did that the first time I went to HK decades ago.
Anyway, back to my humble abode, my small but warm home. Being nestled in it was like having a hug.
Now I have to do a refresh of my workspace so I could mentally tackle Monday, which is giving me so much anxiety.
It’s 10 pm. My manager is after me again. The editor who edited my story with another reporter couldn’t understand why my manager is being dictatorial and why she dips into every edits being done to me or every story I edited.
I told him (the editor) that I don’t know anymore and I give up.
Now I know why I shopped too much in HK: I was trying to self-soothe. I was dealing with bosses face-to-face for a week and I was a walking mass of nerves and unhappiness.
To think this is just Monday. I have many more Mondays to deal with until I get out of this situation.
I cleaned my kitchen and brought order back.
I am comforted when I see my small house clean and neat. However, it doesn’t melt my stress away.
I wish I could get out tomorrow to draw or just walk. My health is not getting any better with the way my manager is crushing me.
I am shortlisted in one short-term consultancy gig at ADB.
Let’s see how I will make the other gigs happen after Holy Week.