I just want to exist today.

No need to reach goals, no need to work on self-improvement, no need to be a ray of sunshine.

I cooked, cleaned up after myself and the girls, cleaned cat litter boxes, ruminated under a hot shower, and tidied up my room so I can spend the rest of the day watching videos on my tablet comfortably…

I hadn’t realized that this past week exhausted me, especially since I needed to rein in my temper and not react immediately to a number of BS I encountered.

My body is protesting so I needed to rest a bit. Tomorrow I don’t have to hit 9 km.

Just be.

I attempted to watch a Korean drama.

I still can’t.

I should cancel my subscription to Viu. I’ve been on it for a year but I haven’t watched a single thing there. Maybe I’ll just stick to Gokushufudou and the like in the meantime.

Trauma doesn’t get erased in a couple of days, months, or two years.

Be kind to myself.

In time, I will…in time.