I was searching for pretty purple flowers to paint for my mom and I came across opium poppy (Papaver somniferum) flowers. They are so pretty but illegal 🤣 So I would have to content myself with photos from livescience.com.

So here, side by side, the Ming dynasty version of an opium poppy flower and the 2022 (my) version. I guess what the Ming dynasty painter saw was the giant poppy so he used magenta (which I also used) and a combination of indigo.

I’m running out of frames again. Hahaha! I would have to order frames online. Seeing my improving watercolor drawings framed gives me a serotonin boost so it’s ok to spend that much on frames and art materials. I don’t think I’ve been this happy in the past year when I was still living inside my head and in the past. Now when I think about him, this is the image that flashes through my mind:

Obviously he’s not. He has a lot of women to fuck around with. That’s the rude awakening that I needed, the reality check that I no longer matter so I shouldn’t waste my time moping around and grieving over somebody like that.

How many times has art saved me? I can no longer count.

So wait, is this my justification for ordering Daniel Smith watercolors from Amazon??? 🤣🤣🤣

In the meantime, my cat, Kimchi, loves to sit on my Kuretake.