Fireworks viewed from my neighbor’s roofdeck. This photo is owned by callmecreation.com.
Took a break from posting travel stories to say Happy New Year 🎉 to all of you. May 2020 be less stressful, filled with love and laughter, and more financial freedom so I don’t have to sacrifice one thing for another.
Christmas tree outside Manor Hotel, Camp John Hay, Baguio City on 25 December 2019. This photo is owned by callmecreation.com
God bless us all
I need to discipline myself again. I realized that I gained all the weight I lost the past year when I self-medicated again with food. I didn’t want to go through days of out-of-whack sleeping patterns again because I was taking pills that balanced my brain but messed with my sleep. And work. Although at that time, it helped me get through the dark days so I stuck with it. But I wanted my sleep back. So now I am off it for a year now and haven’t seen my shrink. I know it’s not recommended to just drop out of therapy but I did. Anyway, something happened again and I blamed myself… I went through self-flagellation and binged on junk food again. I was comforted by food. I knew I hit rock bottom when a friend found me in the dark munching on corn balls. I went through two bags. But it has to stop. I am taking my life back.
Maricaban, Batangas, Philippines. This photo is a property of callmecreation.com and is on @callmecreation on Instagram
A colleague and I were talking about making our own side hustles to 1) earn extra bucks and/or 2) break from the soul-sucking work that we have. Editing always reduced me to tears but it seems like I am destined to do this job. I have been doing this since 2008. I need some kind of release.
And also some way to earn some extra dough. Some years ago, a friend offered me a writing gig, which is a weekly column for one of the local business dailies here. I wasn’t sure about it since I may run out of things to write about.
I am going to rectify this by practicing on this blog. When I’m confident and brave enough (as I will be a target of criticisms and whatnot) I will take that offer.
Getting it together
It has almost been a year since that tumultuous event that rocked my world 💔. I don’t know how I was able to get through it all but I did. Thanks to the special people 💕 in my life that kept me afloat.
The last few months were better; I was able to pull myself together and had fallen into a steady rhythm. My household is coming together as well.
I love coming home to my home. I don’t own it but it’s mine. My girls have settled down as well.
Money may be tight but we’re getting by.
God has not forsaken me, inspite of it all. ❤️
There are reasons why you have people in your life, even though they may have just lingered for just a bit and flew away. Once you have realized what those reasons are, maybe it’s a bit easier to let them go.
As my friend said:
Someone once told me to try to just leave it to fate. If magkikita kayo, then magkikita. If hindi na, hindi na…itapon sa langit.
(Someone once told me to try to just leave it to fate. If you will meet again, then you will meet again somehow. If not, then…you throw it back to heaven)
So itapon na lang sa langit (so will I just throw it back to heaven)?
Everything about this set-up on my staircase landing is all wrong. The shelf is off-center and it’s sloping (shoddy work from a carpenter). But it doesn’t matter, my Totoro collection is still cute anyway.
My home is taking shape, little by little. I will be filling up this wall with paitings to make up for the sparse furnishings.
I’m still figuring out where to put this.
I also made a reading nook/hideaway for my girls in one huge closet in my room.
With a sizeable bookshelf above.
And my girls put up their own wall decorations to personalize their space.
I have all the time in the world to make this apartment my own. No rush. It has to be just right.