I’m f*cking drunk

Started at 6:30 pm at Boat Quay
11 pm somewhere near Boat Quay

I don’t remember exactly but I think I had 6 pints of beer. Colleagues were paying for it so I didn’t count.

And this is the first time I rode a taxi with curtains and neon lights inside. My colleagues and I were joking that this is a signal that we should be partying some more inside the cab. But being a Monday night, we questioned the wisdom of doing so.

Party taxi 😂 Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Now that I’m in the hotel where other colleagues are billeted as well, I realized that I was not alone with my frustrations with the company. I got a lot of pats on the back for speaking up and for pushing the envelope. I told one colleague I was always in danger of getting fired for speaking my mind out and for operating outside the box. He said he was in the same boat and he said this trip is a good way of knowing that we are n the same page. Now we will keep pushing the envelope until we get fired.

Hello, it’s me. Again

Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I only had one hour sleep yesterday because of all the errands and packing I needed to do. I barely slept in the plane because the seat for some reason did not recline. I went about my day very groggy 😑

I regretted booking this hotel because it was very out of the way. I couldn’t check in early to rest so I went out again for forex. I wanted to go to Arcade near my office but guess what? The MRT from Outram going to Raffles Place broke down. No trains. Wow.

So I had to take the bus but I didn’t know which to take. I just took what seemed would pass through the areas near Raffles Place.

When it went through Chinatown, I jumped off.

Hello, Chinatown! Photo by CallMeCreation.com

It has been quite a while since I’ve been here. I have stayed away from this area because it was always crowded. Anyway, I got a good deal on the forex. UOB and DBS (via ATM) and at the airport offers PHP 42 = SGD 1. At some of the money changers at People’s Plaza, it’s about PHP 40.1 = SGD 1. I only got SGD 20 from the ATM to replenish my MRT card but the rest were exchanged in Chinatown.

Was debating whether I should go to Vivo City to buy myself a belt because the one holding up my jeans is falling apart. But I was already getting hungry at 1 pm and already sleepy. I just crossed to Chinatown Point and ate at Song Fa. Sadly this area is already taken over by restaurants and the stores I used to frequent were gone, like Hush Puppies and other apparel stores.

Chili sauce + hoisin. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

The Fairprice here is a favorite of mine because they have a lot of offers. The discounts are not that much but when you spot a good one, like a laptop bag (can’t remember if it was Targus) grab it. For some reason I was able to buy a laptop bag there when other Fairprice branches don’t carry items like that. Anyway, I bought the staples like 3-in-1 coffee that my bro and sis-in-law like so much. And I’m also a coffee runner for my friend from my old TV network for years. Same brand. I don’t know why they like it so much.

Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Found some stuff for my girls as well. They loved the matcha we bought at Mitsukoshi and they had been searching for it at the grocery stores but we weren’t lucky.

These should last them for a while. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

The rest are my spice mixes and drinks I will consume in my hotel because they cost twice at the vendo or at 7-Eleven.

I was debating whether I book Grab but I can’t remember where I can wait for such at Chinatown Point. In the end I suffered through MRT transfers with my grocery bags. I really regretted booking an out-of-the-way hotel.

It was old and big so there were a lot of people. 😑 But at least there was a 7-Eleven beside it but that’s it. The MRT station nearest it is quite a walk and it has been raining all day so it was very inconvenient.

At least I got a big room. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Finally able to put my feet up. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I was again weighing if I should go out for dinner or feel sorry for myself eating noodles in my room. Then I realized I didn’t have chopsticks or a fork. That decided for me. Maxwell was just two MRT stops away.

I was hankering for a Tong Fong Fatt Chicken Rice but it was closed. So I thought about the much ballyhooed Tian-tian because it had earned a Michelin Bib Gourmand…

The queue! Oh que horror! Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Aw geez. Might as well buy it since I was already there. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Yep, just as I remembered it…not so great. Tian-tian < Tong Fong Fatt

It was raining still when I got back to the hotel.

It will be like this for the entire week. 😑 Photo by CallMeCreation.com
A long very hot soak for my tired body. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I think I was already out by 8 pm.

Art to revive me

White gouache for highlights. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

The prospect of buying a tube of white gouache revived me. The sight of artists making an alley near Maginhawa pretty lifted me (Alley 44). That’s how visual art, music, theater/movies, and literature give me life when the drudgery of everyday existence engulfs me.

Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Photo by CallMeCreation.com

But before I could sit down and make art, I needed to run errands.

Arroz caldo, a comfort food. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Blaaaahhhh. Still need practice. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

Emotinally drained

I didn’t know I was that exhausted yesterday because I slept with my lights and PC still on. It was a terrible way to end the week.

Our CEO had a townhall meeting with us in APAC and I couldn’t help but raise the question about hiring. I told him I have zero reporter in Singapore and it is ridiculous that they are not prioritizing it and are prefering to hire freelancers instead of fulltime reporters.

I got scolded by my APAC boss, like you shouldn’t tell him that we are preferring freelancers over regular hires.

Then we had a call with our cameras on and she said what happened to you? You look terrible! I said yes, I’m so stressed and I really don’t understand your point.

So it seems like they did their own hiring and already submitted their choice for an editor/reporter in Singapore with the management and it has been stuck there for 3 months. And they didn’t tell me. So what’s this all about telling me in January to double down, drop everything to do hiring and replace my colleague who left then all of a sudden they tell me we can only do freelancers?!

This is so fucked up. I’m giving up.

Because I drove all day

I needed to relax and practice with my heat gun.

Barren. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Against the blue sky I stand alone. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I made an impression of the photo I took during one of those lonely bike trips to Eastridge (Binangonan-Antipolo) almost three years ago. I had that photo printed and framed and it still hangs on my bedroom wall, to remind me that despite all that I’ve been through, I still can stand proudly even though I am alone.

So what warranted this stress-busting painting session? Well, I drove south again to check on my tiny house and apply for a new Converge line so by the time we move in, I will already have a 500Mbps internet connection.

The back of the girls’ bedroom door where they can hang their towels and pants. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Broom/vacuum cleaner closet. Because this structural post needs to disappear. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Fire exit in my bedroom. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
The fire exit platform that I think I will turn into a secret balcony. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
My pseudo-balcony. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Digging for the foundation of my new stairs. The entire width and length of this will be laid with pavers so I will have a wide patio. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This area will be protected by polycarbonate roofing so my patio and grilling area/brick pizza oven will be protected somewhat from the rain. It would look like the one below:

Photo from renaissancepatio.com

Beyond the stairs up to the perimeter fence/wall will be my laundry/utility area. In the future, I can convert the space under the new stairs (it will be a lot bigger with a deck midway) into a workshop of some sort for my DIYs or it can become art studio if I try my hand at acrylic and oil—the super messy media. I did oil painting twice and I never liked them. It’s too messy and my asthma doesn’t like the fumes from the oil paints and thinners.

Anyway, I will fill this area with potted flowering plants and line the walls with creepers or I can hang orchids on coconut husks. The area on the right beyond the stairs will be my veggie garden and the composting area (which my mom had been doing for 30 years).

Pathway going to the garage. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This pathway leads to a holding area/screened porch that leads to a front garden and garage. The front garden may be demolished to make way for a three-car garage. This pathway is currently messy because of the construction but this used to be lined with plants. I will revive this with flowering plants and have bougainvillea and yellow bells creep along the perimeter wall. The door on the right is my mom’s studio unit which is currently one giant room with walk-in closet and ensuite but with no kitchenette. Beyond that is the main house.

I’ll go back to painting.


And nope. I cannot push my luck. The second painting is blaaahhh because I’ve exhausted all my creative juices in the first painting (above). I’m pushing myself too far.

Oblation. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

Broken cat and a heat gun

My cat must be broken. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I snuggled with my cat, Sushi, before I had that call with my APAC head this afternoon. We leveled off and I told her that I was so close to quitting, among other things that I had to tell her, like I was being poached by another publication and that competitors are also hiring all over for Southeast Asia so there is always a threat that

Anyway, that is that. I just have to struggle with nobody in Singapore office, at least for the next six months or so. That means I would have to travel there frequently.

I relaxed a bit today so stomach acids are less bothersome today so I have no diarrhea. Hopefully, this continues so I won’t be harassed when I travel next week.

Meanwhile, my heat gun finally arrived.

This heat gun makes my life easier. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I don’t have to wait overnight for my watercolors to dry completely. The drawback here is that the hot air from the heat gun pushes the liquid too much so it makes the color marks look messy.

Recreated the Metro Manila view from Padi’s Point Antipolo. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I have to practice using the heat gun. It tends to wash out some colors so I need to layer a lot.

I’m not happy with this one. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

More practice. More practice. More practice.