Dead tired

Leaving her love marks a.k.a white fur on my mostly dark clothes. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This Singapore trip was jinxed from the very beginning. Little things have gone wrong the entire trip but they’ve added up. They were small annoying things that I didn’t bother blog about.

So then on my last day, I bought a bag from Fossil but it was incomplete and I only realized that when I was already at the train going to the airport. Aside from that, I only had 30 mins to spare to eat before they started to open the gates for boarding. My last meal was around 11 am. I just had coffee at 1 pm so I was already low on sugar by 6pm.

At Terminal 2 at NAIA, I had my SGD exchanged to PHP at a good rate but… I dropped my atm cards and didn’t realize it until my Grab was already at Edsa Makati/Rockwell. The girl at the money changer messaged me (found me on FB) and told me that my main atm cards had fallen off my wallet at 1+ am. I was just so tired from clearing Immigration because the queue was long since there weren’t enough gates and another long-bodied plane arrived from either the US or Australia = passengers started choking BI.

I had asked the Grab driver to turn around to claim them so I had to pay double my original fare. Got home at 2+ am but slept at past 3 because I had to get rid of my dirty clothes or else I won’t be able to bring up my luggage that was around 19kg heavy. My year-old Delsey is very tempting for my cats that had made everything their scratching posts.

I was just so tired the entire day. Stayed in bed and did little else but chat with a former nanny of my girls who now works as a housemaid in Oman. More of that later. My cats missed me so much that they stuck to me like glue in my room, same with my girls.

I had a two-hr Zennya massage and zonked out. So here I am at 1:30 am…


G worked for me as a nanny to Twin A. She and R left (when the girls were almost 3 years old) because of the girls’ dad who didn’t treat them well (she just revealed it to me today).

Long story short, she ended up in Oman as a housemaid but her employer holds her passport. Her original contract lapsed and was sold off (yes, her term) to another abusive employer so she can pay off her placement fees with the agency that brought her to Oman.

She is basically a slave because 1) she doesn’t have a contract with her current employer (one of the many ways a placement agency fucks with undereducated Filipinos); 2) her passport is held hostage by her employer; 3) she only earns PhP 20k and she has to pay for her toiletries and those things add up. She sends 15k to her family (older brother and sister, ageing mother, and her 7-yr old son) a month. She is the only one with a job and this culture of mendicancy is killing Filipinos.

She tries to save 1k a month for emergencies for her child but there are always fuck ups that drain her savings. Like her 32-yr-old brother is undergoing dialysis for stage 5 chronic kidney disease. They had to pull him out of the hospital because they couldn’t pay. He no longer has a functioning kidney or little else was functioning. Dialysis is PHP 2500 per session and he needs to have it 3x a week. G is hopeful he can have a kidney replacement but I told her kidney donation is so remote that it’s basically a death warrant. Kidney donations here have come mostly from family members and yet the kidneys still get rejected. Moreover, people are known to fly to China to sell kidneys because of the lucrative human organ trade in that part of the world.

I can’t straight away tell her brother will soon die. Dialysis that they cannot afford will not sustain him. A kidney operation costs 100k.

I had given her some little financial assistance but what I’m doing now for her is much bigger. 1) she lost 9k from messes with Gcash (that e-wallet is 90% unreliable) so I had contacted friends there to help sort it out; 2) contacted a fellow journo at ABS-CBN whose beat was labor/overseas Filipino workers (OFWs) to help in releasing her from her situation in Oman.

G complained to POEA about her agency but all she got were threats that she will be put to jail and her phone taken away. She said the embassy always sides with the placement agencies and the Omani government has no fucks to give to foreign domestic workers. Well, basically all MENA governments don’t have any fucks to give. Period.

Mind you, there are hundreds and thousands of OFWs in the MENA area who are enslaved by the system. Their passports are held by employers who physically beat or rape housemaids. They get paid so little. Many have their cellphones confiscated and cut off from families. G only gets 30 mins to eat and little rest. She locks herself up in her room to avoid being beaten or raped. She goes to the supermarket to buy shampoo and send remittance but that’s it. She doesn’t want to get nabbed by the police for working without a contract and they do random checks regularly. OFWs like G are made to believe they owe the placement agencies thousands so they are basically tied forever to working without contracts.

I told G that once she gets to go home in December (she is being positive here) have a little money of her own and I can add to it so she can put up her canteen back home. I don’t know how she can cough up 30k in airfare but I don’t want to rain down on her hopes. All I am trying to do now is have her repatriated home for free.

G said she is remorseful that she didn’t take up my offer to send her to school. Another Filipino employer offered to send her to nursing school at night. She was being pig-headed and thought going to MENA is a ticket way out of poverty but she realized that with little education, she is just stuck as a housemaid forever. At least if she finished high school, she could have had a better job at the supermarkets in Saudi or Kuwait. She said working for factories in S.Korea or Taiwan required a college degree.

The Philippine economy is propped up by slaves. Our source of forex are stuck in their rooms and live in fear of being raped or beaten up. USD 37bn a year from the likes of them. Singapore-based maids are in the same situation. One Filipino maid was so malnourished that she only weighed 80lbs, fed only watered down instant noodles and little bread. She was locked up in her room, her passport held. She was released because a neighbor sounded off the authorities.

And here I am, close to having my maid finish college… And she got pregnant 🤦‍♀️ that’s another story for another day. All I’m saying now is, what kind of future will she have with only 3rd year college education?

People-watching

I didn’t have anything better to do. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I was debating whether I should go to Marina Bay to sketch or go for a literal cooler option (because it’s hot on the deck at Marina Bay) and go to a mall like Vivo City. I did go for the latter option but was disheartened by the generic look of the area and there’s nowhere to sit.

Then I went to Orchard Road, an area teeming with tourists with benches where I can station myself.

Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

I was fascinated by the geometric shapes and the changing angles/depths. I also want to try if I can pull off painting glass with watercolor.

My flight back to Manila is at 20:00H so I still have 7 hrs to kill. I wanted to reserve Singapore Botanical Garden next month since I have an entire weekend to waste for such pursuits. I don’t want to expend my energy by walking so much, so sketching along Orchard Rd is just right. Besides, it’s along the train line back to my hotel.

Should I ink it first before I color or I color before I ink? Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

Let’s see what I can come up with today.


I’m not proud of myself today 🤦‍♀️ Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I am human. 🫠 A woman.

40% off.


The Philippine e-Travel registration is so annoying. It still asks for vaccination details and I f*cking don’t remember them. Other countries like Singapore no longer ask for these things while we remain 10 years behind again. 😡 I don’t even know if the vaccines two years ago are still effective. I mean the gov’t continues to ask for obsolete details, which is ridiculous.

Waiting for boarding. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I left my cardigan at the hotel lobby when I was transfering bags and stuffing my luggage with my new purchase. Now I’m cold. ❄️

Inking in my plane seat to make me sleepy. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com
Moonlight over Metro Manila. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Under the weather

Sick again.

I took my time this morning in getting ready for office. It’s like flu but not yet flu. I’m miserable. I arrived at my table at already 10:30 am but I was already answering emails at 8 am. 🫠 Thank God it’s the weekend.

About to take a nap. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

At past 1 pm I was already freezing so I went into one of the small rooms that had been benefitting from natural solar heat and took a nap. It was really a terrible feeling.

The Providore. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I could have worked in my hotel room but I was meeting a freelancer candidate for interview at 5 pm and my ex-colleague friend for dinner at 8 pm. I need to tough it out today.


I hate my hotel

Going out and going back to my hotel involves a lot of walking. It’s fine if you’re not sick. But if you’re feeling crap, it’s hell. I should have taken the cab.

And the MRT station nearest my hotel involves more walking. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

This is what I don’t like about my trips to SG: I always catch some bug and I end up with colds/flu. It doesn’t help that the central airconditioning in SG buildings are too cold. Ours is set at 18 C and we already requested the building admin to crank up the temp. And to think that this is already an improvement over the previous temp of 16 C. 🤦‍♀️

Another contributor to my ill health today is that last night my body was so sore from I don’t know what. Maybe it’s my back to back meetings that involved too much alternating heat + cold buildings. I was at Suntec City and I decided to go straight home to my hotel after my last meeting. I went first to Maxwell to buy takeaway dinner (yey Tong Fong Fatt!) then ate it in my room while I edited.

My all-time favorite chicken rice: Tong Fong Fatt. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I took a long hot shower and by 8 pm I was already out. Then I got woken up by my phone that kept pinging at 11:30 pm. It was my friend who was inviting me to attend their firm’s conference on tax. But I don’t care about SG tax. 🤦‍♀️ Anyway, I couldn’t go back to sleep. I was awake until 2:30 am when I have a sit-in breakfast training/chat with a hedge fund guy at 8:30 am.

Breakfast c/o my colleagues from another publication. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Long story short, I was late + I felt like crap. But at least I was able to listen to the whole sit-in.

During the rest of the day, I was vacillating between elation (hey, I got so many stories, thank you, my lovely sources) and feeling shitty (tired with runny nose) and cold.

The whole theme this week: How to catch a thief through forensic accounting. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I told colleagues I couldn’t join them for dinner at some seafood restaurant in the East Coast because I think I’m coming down with something.

To make myself feel better, I went to Raffles City for something soupy for dinner.

Ramen to chase the colds away. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
A hot bath to stave off a full-blown flu. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

I think I’m ready to tuck in.

Inverted yield curve, recession and anxiety

US bond yields.

This is why our global CEO is warning us that the recession will be severe. The inverted yield curve has been deeper than in the tech bust of early 2000 and the global financial crisis. It has been deepest since the 1980s.

In the past, the inverted yield curves indicated that this will be followed by a recession. It will just be a question of how deep and long the recession will be. This graph shows a stock market crash will follow. The problem with this cycle is that inflation has been very sticky and there are no signs yet that the US Fed will stop hiking rates. The supply chain woes have supposedly been eased after Covid lockdowns and this inflation is supply-side, not demand-side so this should have started easing but it has not. It’s still so stubborn. The thing is, some macro indicators don’t make sense yet like jobs data indicate that unemployment has gone down despite the lay-offs in the tech sector. But then, how different is this inverted yield curve from others? Will this be the first time that an inverted yield curve will not be followed by a recession?

Meanwhile, I was so anxiety-ridden today that I woke up at 4:30 am for no apparent reason probably except for stomach acids. Yesterday, I had the painful job of saying to all candidates that we had called off the search for a fulltime reporter and even hiring freelancers is an uphill climb for me. I even had them go through difficult tests. One candidate from Boston practically begged to take her in because she liked how I mentored her during the test and that she will be taking care of her visa to HK since she can freelance there.

Very early.

I didn’t know what to do with my hands. This anxiety is wreaking havoc in my gut.

Inking. Art and photo by CallMeCreation.com

As I said a few days ago, art calms me down. That’s why I brought my art materials for times like this. I finished this piece by inking it with Uni Pin fine liner. Perhaps I should bring my sketchbook today to my meetings.


Meetings and more meetings. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Stopped at Maxwell on my way to the hotel, where I will continue working. I don’t want to work at my office that is like a refrigerator. I don’t know why SG offices need to lower the temps to the depths of winter. ❄️

Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Lesson learned

Well my instinct told me not to follow the crowd. I knew much better than the crowd I followed 🤦‍♀️.

I’m talking about hotel choices. The team (from the sister company) that I was following booked the hotel via our expense management system. They thought it was nice as it was falsely advertised in our booking system. However, something at the back of my head was nagging me, reminding me why for the past almost 9 years of flying in and out of SG I have not booked this hotel and its other branch. But still, hey, I thought it would be better for team spirit that I join them.

Well, crap.

Hotel service is zero. They haven’t cleaned my room since I arrived on Sunday. No drinking water; they just have a dispenser somewhere on the same floor and you fill the pitcher in your room yourself.

A member of the team from our sis company moved out. Others were like, ok we’re just gonna grin and bear it. Some of them came from hedge funds and global law firms so they are used to 5 star hotels. I, as a journalist, am used to crap since we’re mostly operating on guerilla mode and got to work with something we’re given with. So if I booked a substandard hotel because I didn’t listen to my instinct, I just bite the bullet and stay because it’s already paid for and hard to get refunds nowadays (it’s not immediately refunded in my credit card).

But then again, I deserve better, right? Well, I just charge it to experience. I will never ever book this hotel and its other branch. Blacklisted.

It didn’t rain today. Wohoo. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
I should have taken this as my work table. But that again this defeats the purpose of working in Singapore this week. I needed more collab with my the team in our sis company. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
View from our lounge area. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
We had team dinner at Blue Ginger in Tanjong Pagar area. Photo by CallMeCreation.com
Beef rendang. Photo by CallMeCreation.com

Really sleepy now.