I don’t know what’s with Metro Pacific but they sent me this tub of artisanal ice cream from Carmen’s Best with this flavor: HE’S NOT WORTH IT!

Hahaha! These people know me well to give me this witty joke. 🤣 I was in my house in the south when this arrived in my apartment yesterday. Twin A said they’re going to save this particular tub for me because it was meant for me. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

I haven’t touched it yet but will soon because for some strange reason memories came flooding back. Old feelings of hurt and anger came surfacing again.

Maybe because my co-worker video-called me last night and we talked for an hour, which caused her to be late for a townhall meeting of their division scheduled at 11:30 pm. She hasn’t quit that f*cker guy of hers, who is just using her while he keeps a long-distance relationship with somebody who may arrive in HK by October. By then my friend will be ditched.

I told her to stop justifying him. She doesn’t deserve to be a gap filler.

I remember being in the same position, a stop-gap measure until someone better comes along. I loved that somebody with my whole being, someone who hasn’t even been mine. He was still hung up on the ex, lying his way throughout the entire time he was with me. I wasn’t a part of his life, I was kept in the shadows. I was nobody. I wasn’t important.

And yet I justified him. Everything about him, his behavior, his existence. Even if I was nothing to him.

Yes, the ice cream was right. He is not worth it.

My small couches fit perfectly. The size of my current TV is just right.

I’m so happy that it looks like a home, not just an empty shell of a house.

I later brought the lighter couch to my room because the fan is there and I need to be nearer my modem-router. After work, I brought it back to the TV area because I want my empty house to look nicer in my absence.

Meanwhile, my stairs need to be filled with cement and then tiled (with outdoor, brick-like tiles). Tomorrow the railings will be painted metallic black.

My laundry area will be finished by the end of the month. When we move in by the 16th, I hope the trusses or the roof will be up by then.

When I sent these photos to my sis in law, she said she felt teary-eyed because she’s happy for me, for what I have achieved so far with my house, with my career, and with my girls.

If she only knew the kind of hell I’ve been through the past three years, she would be crying right now.

I’m proud of myself, too. 😭 I’ve come so far.

I’m good at Tetris, which helped me improve my abstract reasoning skills—well for tests anyway.

What I’m trying to say is, I Tetrised my way into fitting two Ikea love seats in my car.

I will be delivering my own couches to my tiny house tomorrow to free up space in my apartment. Plus my cats had been leaving their marks on my brand new, unabused couches.

I’m going to have slipcovers made for these. Hmm 🤔 jewel tone maybe? Or pastels? Pastels are more forgiving of cat hair.

Next week, I will start moving my books, seldom used kitchenware/dinnerware, and my handbag collection. I’m embarassed to say that as a true-blue bag hag, I’ve added another one to my collection before flying out of Singapore. 😶‍🌫️ Bought two pairs of flats, too, but those were cheap as they were on sale.

I’m fearful and excited of this move. Being within arm’s-length of everything would change my life in terms of running errands. My undergrad college also has invited me to be a part-time faculty member. I initially said I can’t do it given that I’m always out of the country but a colleague in the academe said I should still consider since we can work things out.

But I hate checking papers. 🤬

I’m leaning towards not accepting. Unless they offer me a compelling compensation, I don’t think any concession would erase my distaste for checking papers.

Before I left for Singapore, I pulled the trigger and bought the Ikea love seats (both in grey) that had been in my cart for a long time. Glostad is still on regular price but Hemlingby was 50% off. Both were delivered yesterday and the assemblers came after. I paid for the assembly because I don’t want to spend 7 hours again building furniture when I am already running out of time.

Now my problem is I need to transport this immediately to my house via my car (with the second row passenger seats pushed back and third row seats pulled up) on Thursday because it’s too crowded in my apartment right now.

And finally, I found the perfect shoehorn for only PHP 150 at Ikea.

I was supposed to book a delivery truck for May 16 today but I was so busy until 7 pm because I was the lone editor for Asia Pacific today. 🤦‍♀️ I was so dizzy due to lack of sleep and for editing too many stories today.

Speaking of lack of sleep, I had hand-carried some baked goods from Yamazaki Bakery from Singapore yesterday for my girls. Because they love BreadTalk, they may like Yamazaki, which is not available here in the Philippines. They demolished it this morning and clearly I didn’t bring enough. Next time I will bring more Yamazaki products and make sure that I will bring a bigger hand-carry bag.

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Among the other concerts that I think I should watch in the coming months–aside from Alanis Morisette–is Mr. Big, which is having its farewell tour. It’s kinda weird that I have this hair metal band in my list of “must-see” acts but I had two of their albums in my collection when I was younger. They’re so underrated! You have Billy Sheehan, voted as one of the best bassists of all time, and Paul Gilbert, voted as one of the best shredders out there. The combination of this duo is *chef’s kiss* Add to that Pat Torpey (RIP, man), whose impeccable drumming made me sit up and listen carefully to their song Take Cover. Then there’s Eric Martin—only a few can have his range, like Steve Perry. The first song that captured me was Green Tinted Sixties Mind, not the very radio-friendly To Be With You.

Listen to this acoustic version of Take Cover, you will hear how brilliant Billy Sheehan and Paul Gilbert are here. The intro and instrumental parts of the song were pure ear candy ❤️

I fell in love with Promise Her The Moon when I was in high school. This version of that song made me emotional tonight in the sense I wish there was someone singing to me this song right now. One of the rare moments of weakness, a chink in my armor.

“She’s too good to be forgotten
Too good to be true
Before my world is torn apart
I’ll promise her the moon
I’ll promise her the moon”

It felt like the world was ending today. The power went out at the Ninoy Aquino International Airport early this morning (or was it last night?) so flights and their schedules, their gate assignments, and everything else got screwed up. Many flights were cancelled. Our Manila reporter’s flight was delayed four hours and I was messaging her while my PAL plane was still at the tarmac in Changi and her Cebu Pacific plane was stuck in the NAIA tarmac because they were still waiting for a gate to be freed up. 🤦🏻‍♀️

I was messaging my reporter friend whose beat is transportation, asking him if NAIA would be saner by the time my plane touches down Manila. He said, “expect the worst.”

And I opened the transport dept media group chat and this is what they said:

DOTr Press Release
01 May 2023

DISCUSSIONS WITH MERALCO ONGOING TO PREVENT RECURRENCE OF NAIA POWER OUTAGE: SEC. BAUTISTA

The Department of Transportation (DOTr) and power distributor Manila Electric Co. (Meralco) are discussing ways forward to prevent the recurrence of another power outage at the Ninoy Aquino International Airport (NAIA) Terminal 3 as well as other terminals, Transportation Secretary Jaime Bautista said Monday, 01 May 2023.

In a briefing, Secretary Bautista said DOTr officials immediately met with Meralco representatives even before power at the terminal was restored.

“We met with Meralco even before the power was returned. We also had discussions on how to move forward,” Secretary Bautista said.

Secretary Bautista explained after the power interruption at 1AM, a team from Meralco immediately arrived at the terminal to assess the situation. At 6AM, power from Meralco has been restored, with MIAA power restoration continued from 7AM until its complete full energization by 8:46AM.

The transport chief likewise noted that the MIAA immediately turned on its generator sets and partially supplied power to the check in system, immigration system, final security x-ray, arrival baggage carousel, elevators, escalators, air conditioning, and lights.

The NAIA Terminal 3 continued to operate using generators. Meanwhile, the power distributor was able to restore regular power at around 8:46 A.M., during which NAIA resumed using regular Meralco power, according to Secretary Bautista.

Teams from both the MIAA and Meralco performed equipment tests and diagnosis to determine the cause of the power interruption.

According to Meralco Engr. Noel Espiritu, the power outage was caused by either faulty wiring or short circuit, which resulted to a high amount of power current and fault indicator, adding that they are still looking into the cause of the power interruption.

“‘Yun po ang mga abnormalities sa sign ng circuit breaker kung saan kapag nasense yun ng fault indicator, yun po ay high amount of current na sya namang nasense ng fault indicator at dun nalaman namin kung saan i-trouble shoot, pero sa ngayon yun po ay amin pang tinitingnan ang eksaktong cause ng fault current,” Engr. Espiritu said.

Secretary Bautista said the MIAA will immediately conduct a “full electrical audit” for all terminals to avoid future power interruptions and passenger inconveniences. For the NAIA Terminal 3, the full electrical audit will take three months to be completed.

The result of the full electrical audit will allow the MIAA to determine which critical equipment and services will be needing budgeting and subsequent procurement.

The MIAA and Meralco will conduct a joint technical assessment with assistance from an independent third party expert to determine the power interruption cause, according to Secretary Bautista.

The DOTr will also coordinate with the National Intelligence Coordinating Agency (NICA) to investigate possible security issues.

Secretary Bautista expressed his gratitude to Meralco for its swift response to the situation and working with MIAA authorities to restore power.

Secretary Bautista likewise apologized to the affected passengers, who had their flights cancelled or delayed due to the power outage.

Affected passengers were provided water and food through the Manila International Airport Authority (MIAA), he said.

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My girls have now graduated from elementary school. ❤️ I couldn’t have been more proud. Despite the upsetting start that we had, the girls and I managed to come out of our ordeals with flying colors. They tried their best because they knew their momma was also trying her best to give them the world. They are really good kids. They are the reason why I wanted to get better and heal myself. I don’t want them to have a broken mama.

Even though I’m far away, I’m still there in spirit. I’m proud momma as both my girls are among the top five of their class.

This is not a valedictory address; Twin I was leading the prayer here. But for me it’s the same. I remember back in grade school and high school, it’s usually the salutatorian who led the prayer, playing second fiddle to the valedictorian who gave the speech representing the class.

My graduation gift to my children is a new house that we would be moving into 15 days from now. A new life with fresh challenges and rewards.

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I’m trying to pack my stuff but I just want to curl up in bed. I rushed this morning to attend church service but I got schedules mixed up. I was 30 mins late so I had to attend the next one to make my trip worthwhile.

I had this for late lunch because I was intrigued, trying to figure out how to do the tornado omelette. It’s sad though because I make better tasting pork cutlet and the omurice was bland while mine has flavor.

I’m excited to cook in my new kitchen. I have more prep space, it’s 100x much cleaner, and it is mine. I will make more memorable dishes for my small family in that kitchen. When my girls wake up in the morning, they will have this tornado omurice that will be much better than the one in the photo. Food made with so much love. Too bad my stupid exes didn’t value the domestic goddess in me. 🤣🤣🤣🤣 It’s their loss. 🔥

Domestic goddess x super journalist. You will never find another one like me. 😊 Ah yes, I need this self-affirmation because no one else will give it to me. It’s part of the exercise to value myself because previous partners didn’t. Part of the process of loving myself when no one would.

Congratulations to myself. I see my worth now. Will they, the exes, see my value now or in the future? I doubt. Who cares now, anyway? I deserve so much better, as one of my sources-turned-friend told me a few days ago.

I hope my friend whom I wrote about yesterday sees the wisdom in my healing process. I hope she can have peace. I’m not there yet because I’m still angry but at least I love myself more now. I’m placid—the best description for me now.