I couldn’t keep myself from answering back to my manager. It’s supposed to be a holiday for me today but I had to take this call with my manager.

It’s a long story but she was rude. She doesn’t know how to communicate. I got fed up fought back. We ended up the call with both of us highly strung.

I don’t know how long I would be able to last like this. It’s not as if I’m not trying to see what’s out there, applying for alternatives, but things are not panning out.

A friend told me tonight that I shouldn’t go head-to-head with a bitch with the same intensity. “Bring it down a notch lower, but you don’t have back down from your truth. Just don’t fight fire with fire,” my friend said.

“I know it’s really hard for you but just think of your kids. You can’t quit while you still don’t have another job,” she added.

I know, I know. That’s why I haven’t done anything of that sort yet.

It’s just a horrible way to start the week.

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I just stayed at home today because of that scheduled check up call with my manager. I don’t want to be doom-scrolling on my phone either.

What did I do today? I assembled furniture. Again.

They have outgrown their Megabox plastic drawers and clothes that no longer fit there end up piling on top of the drawers. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Now this section of my home looks neat and no longer induces headaches.

Yesterday we indulged because we’re just overjoyed we’re out of the hospital. We had hotpot even though I should be strictly monitoring my calorie intake.

Then Twin A and my sister shopped before going home, because why not? I’m just puzzled with today’s teen fashion. Who the hell thought that it’s cool to wear your jeans inside out?! Yes, SM is selling jeans with the seams on the outside! Thank goodness my daughter isn’t into this kind of trend.

Because I was away for several days, Kimchi became clingy. She follows me wherever I go/station myself.

Ok let’s start assembling the Ikea dresser Malm I ordered several weeks ago. I ordered two for my girls and they arrived before we went to PGH.

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Fuck it. I forgot to lock the screws. 🤦🏻‍♀️ I had to disassemble everything.

Damn it.

Not following directions!

Since the official notice that we will be discharged the next day was super late, I couldn’t book any of my mom’s drivers to fetch us. My siblings have work.

I decided to book a hotel next to Ayala Center to spend another night so my older sister can pick us up today. I wanted to celebrate and have a comfortable sleep after camping in our hospital room’s bench for several nights.

The four-day long weekend has flushed out humanity from Metro Manila and now I get to enjoy the city without the clogged streets. It took us only about 30 mins from PGH to Ayala Center, which could have taken an hour or so on a normal day.

I plopped on the bed and slept for an hour and a half to make up for the lack of sleep the past few nights. My head was already pounding before it touched the pillow. After convincing my daughter we need to get out and walk, we hopped to Ayala Center and treat ourselves.

We checked out OneAyala, the former Intercontinental Hotel, which Ayala Land converted into a mixed use development. It directly connects to MRT, has four floors of shopping and dining areas, offices and Seda Hotel on the top floors, with the ground floor serving as a transport hub. I was surprised that OneAyala was huge, remembering how narrow the function rooms in Intercontinental were. Then I remembered there was a road at the back of the hotel and a parking area. Ayala Land claimed those and made one huge building with the ground level opening up to EDSA.

In the activity center, there was a Thayers event that I joined just for the heck of it. I mean, I already have a lot of toners back home (currently using Shiseido) but it doesn’t hurt to get a free bottle and a discount card for purchases at Watsons.

And every trip to the hospital gives Twin A a reward of Japanese food.

I knew people are out of the city when I saw restaurants only half-filled on a Friday night. Even the malls are not brimming with people. Usually the bridgeway connecting Greenbelt and Glorietta is teeming with humanity. Not this time.

After a long walk back to the hotel, I booked a two-hour Zennya massage. How I missed Zennya!

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Our IDS said they made an initial reading of the MRI scan/s and said they’re clear! The thickening of the colon lining is no longer there and the lymph nodes are all gone. It’s really TB and they have been resolved. Twin A has no malignancy or any symptoms of autoimmune disease, her TB is also gone!

We’re just waiting for the official reading of the scans.

Thank you, Lord!

IDS said during the course of TB treatment, there are instances that lymph nodes will increase as the infection is still putting up a fight (“nanlalaban”) and then they dissipate. Our team of doctors are just making sure nothing is off, especially with quality of tests and reading of scans and test results vary wildly from hospital to hospital. Since Twin A’s TB is atypical, our doctors have to be thorough. Plus genetics is shit.

Part of the thorough examination is the running of TB quantiferon test. Our IDS said she expects it to be negative, otherwise a positive reading means Twin A’s TB strain is drug-resistant. However, the result would be released next week since it’s a holiday tomorrow and on Monday.

We’re going to be discharged tomorrow.

I spoke with IDS and hema-oncology fellows on separate occasions/rounds. All of them said the tests are so far all normal, nothing remarkable that would prompt them something is wrong. Even the stubbornly high uric acid is normal. I checked our billing statement to see if they did some blood protein test or CTC or any kind of test to screen for cancer, so far none. I only saw a TB quantiferon test, lactic dehydrogenase (liver? cancer?), erythrocite sedimentation rate >>> which could just be checking for infections?

She’s going to have her MRI scan tonight, which will determine if there is something big to check/get tissue samples from, hema-onco fellow said. I guess it translates to if there are large lymph nodes present.

I’m storming the heavens with prayers. 🙏 Everything will be all right.

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I thought we wouldn’t be back like this but here we are. I got a smaller room because I assumed we would be here for only a few days… Keeping my fingers crossed.

Left home at 4 am, arrived at 5:30 am, got admitted and got into the room at around 8 am. X-ray, blood tests, urinalysis, etc done. Scheduling of MRI and biopsy still underway. Much to Twin A’s dismay, she is again inserted with IV.

I’m still left in the dark. I don’t know what they’re thinking. I was able to talk to our hema-oncologist’s fellow tonight and asked, if there’s malignancy, shouldn’t my patient feel sick? She said yes, she should be having fevers and losing weight. But she gained 50% weight within a year and she even had volleyball training this school break and she was fine, I said.

I don’t know if I’m ok if they’re suspecting some autoimmune disease. But I am definitely going to freak out if it’s still malignancy and lymphoma is still in the mix.

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Whew, pedia resident said my daughter’s uric acid has gone down to normal even without the maintenance medicine and her bilirubin and other indicators of liver health are all ok. 🥲

We’re just waiting for her creatinine result and off we go to MRI soon!

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