I’ve been bogged down emotionally by somebody who sent me an email that made me feel like I’m the most evil person there is. Like I never did anything good.

I let two of my bffs read the email and one of them said, this person sounds like she is going through something that’s why the email comes across as hysterical and very, very hurt. It’s like the world has hurt her so much and I just happen to be one of the actors in it.

I haven’t responded yet as I feel I should be unemotional and detached before replying. You can’t put out fire with fire.

Now that I feel like I’m in that stage that I am objective and distant, I think I can type that email. Tomorrow probably.

You know, holding on to hurts like that is not going to help one to reach peace or find happiness. Everything is temporal, so all of these things — the perceived unworthiness and insecurity — and like the world owes you something…all of these things don’t matter in the end. We just pass through this world. Everything is fleeting. Pain is not forever, just like happiness. It is a gift because you know that everything is temporary, it becomes more beautiful. Like the sakura; their beauty does not rest on the blooms alone. Knowing that they will only bloom for two weeks make them more precious.

I did my best today. I will do my best tomorrow. I did my best for this person. I will do my best for other people.