I don’t believe that mumbo-jumbo this socmed influencer is saying in the captions. The fuck! I forgot to buy my pills to stabilize my estrogen and I’ve been off it for a week and now I’m so unhinged. My menstrual cycle is out of sync (it came back after 10 days), I have pimples, I’m bloated, and my mental capacity is zero. I was unproductive last Friday and I couldn’t figure out why. It was really basura day.

Then I suffered from debilitating headaches on Friday and yesterday. Then I bled. And bled. I’m aching all over. I wanted to kill somebody in the past two days. Oh Lord, save me from myself. 🤦🏻‍♀️

I walked to the weekend market this morning to get out of this funk that I’m in. It did help for a while but here I am, back to my aches and murderous intent.

After almost a half year, I’m back to long distance walking.

Plantar fasciitis be damned. I went out to walk again, about 3.5 km for an hour, after shopping for veggies and my pills from TGP. I needed to beat this sluggishness, irritability, and depression due to drop in estrogen with some serotonin boost from exercise. 

I did everything on foot—from going to the weekend market, to going to church, veggie shopping, and a trip to the pharmacy—I need to keep my body moving. I need to keep the headaches at bay because they’re just unbearable.

I can’t do anything about the nightsweats but I can take melatonin so I can sleep well. When I was in HK in February, I remember it was 11 degrees C and I saw some locals in puffer vests while I was sweating in my thin Uniqlo shirt. That’s how absurd my perimenopause symptoms were. Not a night passes by when I don’t wake up at 3 am because of too much sweating and it’s so hard to get back to sleep. Then I have to wake up again at 5 am to prepare my children’s lunch and breakfast.

My circadian rhythm is out of whack. Everything is out of whack. The bad thing is that the symptoms last for years until you hit menopause. 😵‍💫

Oooh my back hurts!