This is a very nice clip about redemption and forgiveness. Mel Gibson has hugged the cactus long enough, Robert Downey Jr said. I didn’t know that it was Mel Gibson who gave RDJ his second or third chance…

All of us have hugged the cactus long enough and yet we’re still waiting for our redemption. Waiting for someone to give us a break.

This resonated with me in some way and I don’t know why.

I may just be hormonal (perimenopause sucks!) but I really feel the world is conspiring against me. That nobody likes me. I’m just a mediocre pain in the ass.

I need to sleep this off.

Yep, very hormonal. I just discovered I have my period today. 😑

The older I get, the more unstable my emotions become whenever I’m in the PMS period or during the menstrual period. My gynecologist already gave me a chart of what to expect during this horrible stage. The hot flashes are really bad—I wake up in the wee hours drenched in sweat even if my aircon is on. I can’t have deep sleep.

Then there’s the frozen shoulder. My Shanghai-based Chinese colleague told me that frozen shoulder is called 五十肩 (wǔ shí jīan), or “50-year-old shoulder” in traditional Chinese medicine (TCM), which is a common ailment of perimenopausal women. She said she had that on one shoulder and it lasted months or years and then all of a sudden it disappeared. Then her other shoulder became frozen right after. Then it disappeared when she hit menopause.

In short, I will be suffering for a while…

My sister pulled a strand of white hair from my head the other day. It’s legit white hair.

Ageing sucks because everything hurts. But it’s a privilege because not everyone grows old…some fade away young.