I couldn’t write and I have a ton of things to write. It was so hot inside and claustrophobic so I worked in my balcony yesterday afternoon.

It’s holiday today but I must will myself to write. I need to write 😭

Nope. I just really couldn’t work today even though people kept messaging me on Teams, sending me off the edge. Our APAC boss even harped about the tariffs fallout, which I had already told my team to do eons ago. Even without her telling me, I knew beforehand that what we’re seeing right now is reminiscent of the Lehman Brothers spiraling of the markets.

Because that’s what Trump wants, by design, he and his team wants the world to go into recession, just like in the 1930s. They want to bring down the value of the USD, since they want to bring back manufacturing in the US and make US goods more competitive by crippling the world. They want to control shipping, that’s why BlackRock bought CK Hutchinson ports. They want the northern trading route—the Northern Sea Route (NSR) and the Northwest Passage (NWP). That’s why Trump wants to annex Canada and Greenland and befriending Russia—because the northern trading route is a shortcut to Europe and Asia.

He and his cronies want Wall Street to melt down so they, the oligarchs, can buy American corporates cheaply. Trump is forcing again ByteDance to sell Tiktok to an American entity because they want to control the narrative. Facebook and Twitter/X are already controlled by friendly camps like Zuckerberg and Musk. But not Tiktok, which is more powerful than the two combined. It is in Hitler’s playbook—control media, you control the world.

How to wrest control of trade and economy just like post-WWII America? Start major wars.

The thing here is, this will backfire. The rest of the world will trade among themselves and the US will just be isolated. The world will learn how to survive without the US. It’s going to be difficult because the US is the biggest consumer market but that will change because its people will be crippled by the recession. It will cut people’s buying power. Moreover, US manufacturing is decades behind China and the rest of the manufacturing hubs of the world. China has already automated manufacturing and logistics people had been saying US won’t be able to catch up.

Anyway, I just decided that I’ll just tackle everything tomorrow.

Keeping my blood sugar level down is a Herculean task. My concern now is how to keep my blood sugar from spiking because once it spikes, insulin won’t be able to do it’s thing immediately because I have insulin resistance. It will stay elevated before it crashes (hypoglycemia). I had been watching videos of PCOS-women who are suffering from insulin resistance/pre-diabetic—what they eat, what they do before and after meals, and what to avoid.

Cooled rice in the fridge overnight has lower glycemic index, so I had been keeping rice in the fridge when I still had a fridge. Toasting bread also has a lower glycemic index. If I can get away with eating rice, then I skip rice and only eat it once a day.

How to adopt a keto diet when you want to control cholesterol as well? I have a sad existence, food-wise.