I should really devote time to be creative and not just doomscroll to de-stress. I should also be reading books as I have a huge stack of them here on the shelf in my room. 🙃

I finally was able to wake up and bring Twin A to the weekend community market this morning to have breakfast. They can also pick their lunch and dinner for today instead of guessing what would they want to eat.

They’re asking me when can we go back to Anilao to dive. I said our calendars are full, maybe we would be able to do it in May? This coming week, they’re busy finishing their school projects and the week after that is their 4thQ final exams. In two weeks, we would be having our staycation in a hotel in QC for their birthday so they can see their dad and also have their elementary best friends sleep over. Then they will be going with their dad to his hometown after the 14th until end of April. I would be in Vietnam by third week of April.

So I have to squeeze in an Anilao dive in early May because by the second week of that mont, I’ll be back in Singapore. A few weeks after that, I will be in Kuala Lumpur. 🤦🏻‍♀️  It seems like Anilao would have to be done in early May or late May.

The annoying thing is that their dad always changes schedules. There would be huge changes that would ruin my schedule at the last minute. He doesn’t stick to a committed timetable. I will not adjust according to his whim or lack of preparedness on his part because my plane tickets and hotels are already booked and those are work-related trips.

I remember being so stressed with him regarding this matter. To solve my problema, I just shipped out my kids to my mom’s so that there would be less things to worry about. He’s just  so unreliable. At that time, I could do that because the girls were just in prep or kinder—a few absences from school then would not have been detrimental to their learning.

However, I had to time my trips during their school holidays when they were in grade school. That’s the reason why my overseas trips were limited since I had to work around the school calendar. Once they got a little older, I was able to fly more during school days since they weren’t that sickly anymore, unlike when they were younger. During those early years, one asthma attack would mean hospitalization.

Now that we’re here and my mom and sisters are just spitting distance from us, I’m more confident that they will be fine everytime I’m away since I have trustworthy people watching over my girls. Plus my brother and sis-in-law and their older cousins are just a kilometer away from us so they can also lend a hand if needed.

But again, flying out every few weeks is exhausting. I hate the long wait at airports. Plus work-related travel is stressful.