I’ve consulted so many people in the past two days regarding what I should do with my boss. All of them told me NOT to talk to directly to my boss and level off with her. This would complicate things. My HR manager cousin told me, as an HR professional she recommends that I should tell our HR through an anonymous feedback mechanism that most global companies have. On a personal level she told me she doesn’t recommend it because there will be retaliation and I have to weigh if I can take that risk.

I told her that given I am a breadwinner, I can’t afford to do that (retaliation and all) but this is taking a toll on my mental health. I was told to either quit or learn to manage how I approach and respond to my manager. My cousin knows me well; she knows that I do not take things sitting down, that I am not a “yes sir, yes ma’am” kind of person. She advised me to take a life coach or counseling to help me manage that side of me if I want to stay in my job because there is no way my boss will change or I will be assigned to a different boss.

It’s a matter of who blinks first. Of course, I know I will be the one who will end up quitting.

So life coach it is. I think it’s high time that I do because just the thought of going back to work after the holidays gave me so much anxiety that I felt physically sick.

It’s not like I wasn’t looking for jobs or alternatives. I did! But nothing panned out. Until an opportunity comes along, I should try to manage myself when it comes to my boss.

So I will call a life coach tomorrow.