I was doing fine last week until this afternoon. I had my story edited and then—boom! My manager went picking on me again. The editor who was the primary editor, didn’t see what the fuss was all about. Then my manager emailed me and pressed me for things that are impossible. I told her if that’s so critical, then I’m dropping the story. We’ll just wait for the company announcement because there was no way I could extract information anymore, even called Hong Kong to get what I needed. There were legal implications that’s why it’s impossible at this point and she couldn’t see that.

She realized I was serious about dropping the story.

She did pull back a bit. But I’m too pissed off to even bother pushing the story out.

I have been pushing back recently. I’m tired of her bullshit.

I told my co-author that I wanted to quit. I was fine with my job but my manager is really the one pushing me out. I would have stayed for a bit longer but with her as my manager? I don’t think so.

I hate her.

My anger mixed with anxiety is killing my productivity today. I don’t want to jump into another job just because I’m being emotional. I want to be rational when making big decisions like this. I want logic to dictate all my moves and not because I just want to get away from a person I have come to hate.