I was there as journalist, not a customer. I was weak. I could have bought more stocks but…oh well.

So I went to the Singapore International Jewelry Expo at Marina Bay Sands and I was in search of interesting companies to feature.

The stalls from some Indian companies display some gaudy designs, which disappointed me because India is one of the top 5 largest buyers of gold—they have a long history of jewelry-making. I was expecting more stupendous designs.

Of course I gravitated to the booths that offered “more affordable” jewelry but most of the exhibitors there are retailers and wholesalers of really expensive ones so my pockets don’t have many to choose from. Most of them are selling at eye-watering kind of prices. Like the Japanese cultured pearl necklace being sold for a discounted price of SGD 3.5k each, which the owner said is already cheap.🤦🏻‍♀️

Why did I splurge? Because I wanted to soothe myself. I wanted to comfort myself because this week hasn’t gone well. Just like in the past weeks. I’ve got no one to tell me that things are going to be fine, that I didn’t do anything wrong. That next time, I just need to shut up and let things fly over my head and ignore the things I couldn’t control. I’ve got to pat myself on the back and tell myself I’m doing ok and I’m not a bad boss or a bad journalist. When you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, you just seek ways how to validate yourself if you don’t have anybody to give you that. Love thyself. I have done self-flagellation for so long.

At least I got three potential stories from this expo.

Speaking of stories, this was the last training day and hopefully things will go smoothly from hereon.

Going back home later today…