Today was just…three back-to-back physical and online meetings. The second call was with my boss who said there is no business case for Thailand, while the third call is with a client that has been asking for Thai content 🤦🏻‍♀️

I am cancelling plans to go back to SG in August and Sept because…what’s the point? Why am I pushing myself too far??? Why am I doing all these?!

The lunch meeting was in BGC and so right after it, I needed to park myself in a coffeeshop with power outlets because I knew that the calls would halve my phone’s battery life. I ended my workday at 4 pm because I was already mentally and emotionally drained. I didn’t care if there would be edits; I didn’t have headspace for that anymore.

My sis-in-law again hitched a ride with me and went about her business around BGC while I worked. We decided to leave the area at 4 pm before all the working people leave at 5 or 6 or else we will get stuck. BGC is like a blackhole—it sucks you but you can never get out. The exits are choke points during rush hours. There are just too many cars.

We ended up at SM Mall of Asia because it’s accessible to Skyway/South Luzon Expressway. We went to Decathlon to buy basketball gear for my nephew while I bought a new set of fins for Twin A because she outgrew the last one we bought. Why did I even buy it when there’s no immediate need? Because I may decide to book a resort in Anilao right after my SG trip and we don’t have time to visit Decathlon for new fins.

I just want to work by the sea, to wash away my frustration. I need to clear my head.

I’m tired of fighting this kind of battles everyday.