I’m in this inexplicable rut. I can’t be in several places all at once, do everything when company gods think I can spit gold with only arsenic at my disposal.

What am I to do with a freelancer who could not commit time for training? This whole hire-only-freelancers thing is a joke. I am missing so many things in Singapore because I don’t have fulltime reporter there. I can’t be there because they’re not willing to pay me a comfortable living wage there. I hate being scooped by competition because of circumstances that I cannot control.

I’m so upset yesterday and today. Let me just sleep on this for a few hours, gather my thoughts, and write it down when I slightly feel better.

Pets, bless them, do really feel you.

So I was down and out yesterday and my Kimchi must have felt the vibe. She stayed with me, sleeping on my pillow, next to my head, for the entire night. She later moved near my shoulders to cuddle. And didn’t leave in the morning until she is sure that I am fine and not dying. 😂

I again shoved that work problem under the bed because I won’t find any solution to it. Either I stress about it everyday or I just let things slide so management would see they’re being stupid. Just do what I can do…so be it.

My old neighbor in QC and I chatted for a bit on Viber because I asked for the water bill for May that I’m still obligated to pay for, which is just fair because we did use water for 16 days. Anyway, she was telling me that they’re cutting down the mango tree to accommodate more cars in that narrow parking space.

I said that it’s kinda sad that all the wildlife dependent on that tree will be homeless now. There won’t be birds chirping in the morning and some faint bird calls. I told her that tree gave that area some provincia feels because of the birds in the morning.

The ex-neighbor also told me that the the orange female cat that we jointly take care of with her son was meowing mournfully infront of our unit one evening. She was looking for us. Because you see, we help feed her in the afternoon or early morning with my cats’ leftovers. That broke my heart.

Meanwhile, my girls and I went to their future junior high school this afternoon to submit their application. After the assessment, I would have to enroll them in July. Classes will start by mid-August.

I’m still not feeling well and it’s likely stress. It’s psychosomatic and unfortunately I think I’m coming down with something. Good thing I’m done with one interview this afternoon. Oh dear, not now, I shouldn’t fall ill. I have already set several meetings for next week in Bangkok 🤦🏻‍♀️ Plus I’m driving myself to the airport because there’s no Grab here to take me there. I just have to use ParkN’Fly for seven days.