This tweet sums up my feelings for today.

This is how Ferdinand Marcos Sr controlled mass media during his 20-year reign.

Remember, Martin Romualdez, the current Speaker of the House of Representatives and a nephew of Imelda Marcos, raised hell at the plenary regarding the proposed merger of ABS-CBN and TV5 Network. Then now he forced the hands of the Lopezes to have this tie-up.

The late Geny Lopez, chairman of ABS-CBN, was imprisoned by Marcos Sr during Martial Law.

I’m so emotionally tired.

Then the Sandiganbayan acquitted Janet Napoles of graft and corruption charges yesterday. My investigative team in 2013-2014 spent so many days and nights, endangering our lives in the process, pursuing this case. We pored over files upon files of evidence. I have a photo of the ledger of of Napoles that contains the names of several other senators not yet included in the plunder cases filed earlier against Revilla, Estrada, and Enrile. Among those senators is the name “Bonggets” and our whistleblowers said this is the current president.

At that time we were hopeful the three senators will be convicted by the graft court and then the Dept of Justice would proceed to tackling the cases involving “Dahon”, “Bigote”, and “Bonggets”. Our fear at that time was that the DOJ would not be able to process the next graft casses before “Bonggets” runs for presidency.

Now here we are.

I told our former photographer (also in the investigative team) that I will burn the other documents with me (that I dragged all the way from our old house, to my apartment, then here). There’s no hope that these motherf*ckers will be charged, much less imprisoned.

It seems like my body clock has been programmed now to wake me up at 6:30 am. With that, I was able to cook fried rice for brunch (as my girls woke up really late).

I had been busy setting up my background for Teams/Zoom calls in between work chores/editing. I have to get rid of the mess in my room before I can un-blur my background for video calls.

My bestfriend told me that she met somebody on Bumble and he is from my industry although I don’t know him personally (because he’s from TV). It seems like they’re getting along well. I told her I know of two people who found their partners on Bumble, albeit these are homo relationships. I’m not sure about the success rate when it comes to hetero relationships, I said. Just the same, I told her to have fun.

I’m not going to try that app. There are a lot of liars out there and I happen to have the bad luck of running into them all the time. Maybe because I’m super gullible, always giving them the benefit of the doubt. As for the guy who watches my IG stories, he hasn’t made any move, therefore, he’s not interested. If he wants to, he will. I am just a message away.

So I keep my peace. I do get lonely at times but I’m ok. I need to be ok because loneliness is not a good reason to jump into a relationship. I will get burned.