One of my closest friends in the industry just sent this link this morning and asked how was my sleep. I responded that it’s better than the previous week, which was horrible. He has been keeping tabs on my sleep and he was the one sending me messages everyday since Day 1 to ask what will I do that day. It’s his way of making sure I get my ass off the bed and not spend the rest of my days sulking.

Anyway, I responded to this link by saying that “Yes. But it’s the hurting that is hard.”

Then I continued, “As I told him during our last face to face talk, it’s useless to keep fighting when you already gave up.” That’s why I didn’t try to change his mind. I was fighting for the last six months of that relationship while he didn’t. That is that.

I remember him telling me that where he was when we were together is not something he wanted for himself. He cannot see his future with me. It’s not somewhere he wanted to be. That hurt a lot because I’ve given him everything I could give but it wasn’t enough. I was never enough.

No appreciation. No thank you. Only sorry.

How can I even love myself when the person I gave my world to cannot even appreciate it and treated me like dirt ?

Pray tell me how?