My cats are clingy for cats. They’re not normal. They always–as in always–want to be near me. When I work, they insist that they should be with me in my room. At night they wouldn’t want to leave me; they wait at my door and grab the chance to sneak in when it cracks open. And when I get up from my chair, they will follow me to the door assuming that I would be getting out of the room.

Sushi demands to be petted. If she couldn’t get it from me, she goes down to the girls and asks for it. Kimchi, on the other hand, becomes a spidercat and climbs the window screens just because she can.

They make a lot of mess. They require work and money (vet visits!). They’re my fur babies. And because they’re clingy, I could not go anywhere this Chinese New Year weekend since I cannot leave them without human supervision or else they would tear this house apart. That’s what pets do when they feel like they’re abandoned by their humans. I planned to go to Caliraya Lake in Cavinti, Laguna to bike and have new views but the scheduling might be tricky with my maids going off on Saturday.

The alternative is to go to East Ridge in Binangonan and bike around there so I will be back by evening.

Until my cats complete their vaccines, I don’t want to risk bringing them out on walks with a leash or bringing them out on trips. Plus cats aren’t really fond of trips like dogs–at least the cats that we’ve had since I was a kid aren’t that adventurous.

I want to get away. So I can forget.

Amnesia

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss
How it felt, the way tasted
And even though your friends tell me your doin’ fine.

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he’s right beside you
When he says those words that hurt
You, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder
Was it just a lie?
If what we had was real
How could you be fine?
‘Cause I’m not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup runnin’ down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn’t need them
Like every single wish we ever made.

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
‘Cause I’m not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me
They’re still livin’ in my phone
I admit I like to see them
I’ll admit I feel alone
And all my friend keep asking why you’re not around.

It hurts to know your happy,
Yeah it hurts that you’ve moved on
It’s hard to hear your name when I haven’t seen you in so long
It’s like we never happened,
What is just a lie?
If what we had was real,
Gow could you be fine?
‘Cause I’m not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup runnin’ down your face
And the dreams you left behind,
You didn’t need them,
Like every-single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I’d hold you closer than I ever did before
And you’d never slip away
You’d never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the makeup runnin’ down your face
And the dreams you left behind, you didn’t need them
Like every-single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way if felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
‘Cause I’m not fine at all

I’m really not fine at all

Tell me this is just a dream
I’m really not fine at all