My cat’s face sums up my mood for days now. Sleepy and floating. Blinded by too much sunlight. I prefer to hibernate in my dark and cool cave. Away from people. Away from the real world that is getting more fucked up day by day. Just let me have this chance to escape reality for a bit more because by 4 January I need to live again.

This is how my cave looks like throughout the day. I love that it is in semi-darkness; he didn’t like it though because it’s not conducive for work. That’s exactly why I like it. It encourages my spirit to rest.

However, as much as I want to stay in bed the whole day, I had to haul my ass off to the supermarket before the whole world descends on it for New Year’s eve food shopping. As much as possible I avoid the crowds. I hate holiday shopping even before the pandemic.

After this exhausting grocery shopping, I don’t think I can ride his bike to UP to buy veggies. If there’s one habit that J left me with, it’s the increased vegetable intake. Even in my mom’s house I nag them about food, particularly serving more veggies every meal. Because of that I end up cooking for everyone. 🤦🏻‍♀️